‘You have come back to your death.’
Nicholas was still confused. He could not remember what he had done, or why.
Stanley said, ‘La Valette cannot have sent you.’
‘What I have written, I have written,’ he said incoherently.
‘I cannot believe you came back to us.’
‘To bring the letter,’ said Nicholas, light dawning. ‘Did you find it? How long have I lain here?’
‘We found it. We are now in our sixteenth day of fighting. Or perhaps seventeenth. In truth, I no longer know. Does Smith still live?’
‘When I left, yes. Very sick, though the chaplains can work wonders. But the armies of Spain have come now?’
Stanley’s blue eyes were flat and without hope. ‘Alas,’ he said. ‘No. It may be that hearing of Dragut’s arrival with a fresh army, King Philip has decided to hold back again.’
Nicholas didn’t know whether to laugh or weep. ‘All that struggle, the deaths of the fishermen, for nothing. To bring a false message.’
‘A false message that lifted us up for a time,’ said Stanley. ‘You were not to know.’
Nicholas’s heart thumped with anger. ‘Help must come from Christendom — from Spain, from Venice, the Papal States — after all we have suffered.’
Stanley shook his head. ‘King Philip must look to defend Sicily and Spain afterwards. The armies and navies of Suleiman are greater than those of all Christendom combined. It may be that Malta is only the first chapter in a far longer war.’
‘Then we will be destroyed. And — Birgu.’
‘I cannot say, little brother.’ Stanley’s voice had a crack in it. ‘Truly. But we fight on.’
‘I will fight with you.’
‘Your arm is damaged and your head wound was bad enough when we pulled you from the water.’
‘But I can still fight.’
Stanley could have wept. In all the sorry siege and fall of this island, he doubted if there would be a hero greater than this skinny boy from Shropshire. Blast him for returning.
‘You are your father’s son,’ he said softly.
Another explosion came from above. Stone flaked from the walls, Nicholas closed his eyes, fine sandstone showered down on his upturned face.
‘Rest,’ said Stanley. ‘I must go.’
He lay back and tried to rest. He would be killed in his bed, skewered by some raving Bektaşi. Or enslaved. Or held as a pretty captive by some senior Ottoman. Held in chains, naked, visited daily … Then Birgu would be attacked and taken, and she would suffer the same fate. And this but the first chapter. Smith had said that in capturing Malta, the Turk would acquire the finest natural harbour in the Mediterranean for his Grand Fleet. And Rome itself then lay not four hundred miles away …
One of the chaplains, it was Fra Giacomo, came and gave him water and some bread. He was very hungry, and ate all he gave him. Drank more water, slowly and steadily, until he was full to bursting, then struggled upright and sat on the edge of the pallet. His head throbbed painfully, his eyes didn’t seem right. He named the six planets in order. He counted backwards from twenty to one.
‘You are going to fight?’
He nodded.
‘There are few left. And the dead are no longer shrouded. You will find plenty of armour there.’
It was like a dream to be back at Elmo. Like one of those dreams of being back at school again, studying Latin grammar under the harsh eye of Master Elliott — but a dream of darker hue. In a dream he found himself scuffed boots, a shirt and jerkin, back and breastplate, stripping them from a dead young soldier of his frame, and a close-fitting steel morion that he tugged down over his bandaged head, relieved that but for a dim throbbing at the back of his skull, he felt no pain. His left elbow was damnably stiff where the ball had struck the knuckle bone there, perhaps chipped it, sundered the skin and flesh but done no worse damage. It flexed awkwardly, hot and swollen, but had enough strength to bear a shield. Then he lifted a half-pike. The grim stabbing weapon for close-quarter fighting. Yet it felt too heavy to him, the evilly spiked head alone weighing twelve or fifteen pounds. A weapon for a man with two strong arms.
He knew his advantage was in fleetness of eye and foot, not muscular strength. And he had already lost blood, flesh, strength again over the last days. Instead he found himself a sword, regretting that the sword of the Chevalier Bridier was left over in the house of Franco Briffa. But may he fight with the spirit of Bridier nevertheless.
Here was a long slim sword, finely balanced, the hilt butted with a fat leaden sphere to make the lean furrowed blade feel almost weightless.
Then in the charnel house of the inner yard, surrounded by the dead, he flexed and moved and eased himself into fighting.
From the walls above came cries and shots, yet they seemed thinly scattered.
He whipped the blade through the air before him a couple more times. Took one deep breath, kissed the blade, said a prayer. And then went up the steps, now rust-brown with old blood, to join his brothers.
He came up into the midst of a new attack, with barely time to register the situation of the fort or condition of the men. He saw through the black smoke-laden air that all four of Elmo’s star points were now reduced to promontories of rubble. The single high bastion was half blasted away, and almost the entire parapet along the northern and western sides had been reduced, to be hurriedly bulked by sacks of earth, stone blocks and wicker gabions. Most calamitous of all, the main northern wall teetered dangerously out over the ditch, ready to collapse, filling the gulf with its own bulk, and leaving the fort exposed along far too long a front for the defenders to save. Yet still it held.
As for the men still fighting, there remained perhaps fifty or sixty. So few.
There was Lanfreducci, his face pale with siege fever and blood loss, yet he cried out and grinned when he saw Nicholas through the black fog, and called him a damned young fool.
There was Stanley, and Medrano, and De Guaras, and Luigi Broglia still in command, and fighting as an unbreakable pair those two Spanish soldiers, García and Zacosta, and Captain Miranda too. Every one of them loading and firing his arquebus with fanatic swiftness, screaming through his teeth, hair plastered across his cheeks. Broglia heaving the organ gun around on the crippled bastion roof, single-handed because his four-man gun crew all lay dead or dying around him, bringing it to bear once more on the section under attack, loading each of the eight barrels himself with dogged determination. His eyes shone from a face powdered and sooted like an Ethiop’s.
Random fires blazed and billowed, the walls were smoke-darkened, and above them on the last few feet of high bastion, the flag of St John, ripped and frayed, still flew.
The smoke and dust were blinding but the heat was worse, and the noise worse still. For a few minutes the infantry attack was held once more, and another lacerating volley of cannon fire came in. Defenders sank down behind the improvised ramps and bulking, gulped foul water, loosened helmet straps and dropped their heads as the iron and stone and marble balls hurtled in yet again. Such a volley that at its height, Nicholas could not distinguish one blast from another, only a continual roaring wave that did not cease.
His eardrums fluttered in his skull, he bent his head and cradled it in his right arm, and a hand was laid on his shoulder. Lanfreducci.
‘Brace up,’ he shouted through the storm. ‘Soon you’ll be as deaf as the rest of us!’
The Italian knight had a bloody rag stuck in one ear.
Worse than the rolling thunder of the guns was the dread pause between. He lay side on, favouring his good elbow, and glanced through a crack between two sacks. Not three hundred yards away, with sweat dripping down from his bloody head bandages, already saturated, he saw with blurred eyes a hot bronze barrel being rapidly cleaned and reloaded. Then the agonised moment of silence, the muzzle seeming to gape directly at him. The black muzzle like a lightless evil eye. The gunner lowered the smoking rope to the hole and in the instant of sizzling burn, on an impulse, he rolled a few yards to the left, until he bumped up against García.