“Is this everybody?” I say again. Nobody answers. I look at them, we have Henrick, Bengt, Knox, Feeny, Cismoski, Luttinger, Ojeira, me.
“Eight inside, two more outside, yeah?” I say. It seems important to count.
I look up, see Tlingit and Reznikoff have come in, standing in the opening. There might be others out in the snow somewhere, but it feels like we’re the only ones left. I look around the plane.
“None of these others alive?” I ask.
Henrick finally answers. “I don’t know.”
There are maybe half a dozen dead-looking ones, a few more without question dead. I take Bengt’s flashlight and go look at the ones who might be alive. They feel cold, mostly. I check pulses, anyway, lift eyelids. I find one guy, crumpled up halfway in what was an overhead, a piece of bulkhead’s crunched down on him, and he’s breathing when I get to him, but as soon as I see that he stops, just like that.
The others are still staring at Lewenden, or watching me, not doing anything. They don’t know what to do.
“We should start a fire.” I say. They still all look at me like I don’t have any right to speak. Nobody moves, or answers, but Henrick and Tlingit nod.
“We should look for lighters or something, and anything that’ll burn. Sooner the better.” Simple things. Dead or not dead. Artery or vein. Nobody moves yet though, they stare at me, hurt boys, still.
“We have to get a fire going,” I yell, finally. “So we don’t die.” They nod, some of them, but don’t move.
“Any of you smoke? Any of you have lighters?” I ask. Bengt and Reznikoff feel their pockets, sort of numbly, but they don’t have them, if they did. I start going through the pockets of dead guys, the crap everywhere, looking for a lighter. Henrick’s going through pockets of dead too, and the guys look at him like it’s in bad taste. They expect it of me, but not him. He pulls out pens, other stuff. I find one, finally, a little plastic disposable. It lights.
“OK. We need something to burn.” I say. I talk like I’m talking to children, they’re all dazed, more than me. Luttinger and Henrick look at the seat cushions, same as I’m doing.
“Those’ll burn.” I say. I nod toward the trail of wreckage behind us. “I saw a lot of broken wood back there, the crash scattered it,” I say. “Let’s start it with these if they’ll go and then we’ll ferry wood up. OK?”
Henrick nods, Luttinger too. Bengt and Knox and Reznikoff nod, finally, then the others, and the ones who can move start tearing out loose cushions and piling them in the snow by the opening. After a minute they look at Luttinger and I wearing jackets, and Henrick goes and finds one, loose. The others have to pull them off dead guys, but they do it. Nobody touches Lewenden’s though. Too bloody, or we just don’t want to.
We get as many as we can find and pile them on Ojeira and the other injured like sleeping bags, and I get whatever blankets I can and whatever other jackets, a couple, for slings to drag wood back with. Henrick pulls a bent piece of panel out of the way to make more room for Ojeira and the others and he finds a medical kit. He looks sorry to see it, because of Lewenden.
“We could have fucking used this before,” he says.
Not that an ace bandage and a gauze-patch would have saved Lewenden. He knows that.
We’ve gotten a few cushions out, enough. We drag them outside. I try lighting them, and they flare up like torches right away, six feet high. You’d think they’d be more fire-proof, but it’s good they aren’t. Some of the guys cheer, whoop. It’s something. We’re alive. They seem to be waking up, a little.
“Some of us should stay here and keep this going. The rest of us should see what wood we can get out there.”
I turn and head out. Henrick’s right behind me, then Luttinger and Tlingit and Knox and Bengt follow. Reznikoff stays behind with Ojeira and the others.
Outside, away from that minute of fire, it seems colder than before, and darker in the shadows, but there’s still moon on the snow. There are big ceiling clouds moving, and snow coming down a bit heavier, again. We keep walking, past more little chunks of plane, more dead. We stop, look into any piece big enough to have an inside, yell in, in case somebody’s alive. Nobody, but we see more dead and parts of dead, in seats, in the snow. We look at bigger pieces to see if one’s a better shelter than where we are. One looks better than the others, leaned into the snow so it almost has a door, but it’s a small space inside and I don’t know if we’d have enough room or enough air or be able to tend a fire. It’s the one with the most dead inside, anyway.
We come up on the cockpit, finally, it looks like a crushed boiled-egg. I duck under a hole, shove my way in. The door-frame’s bent and almost folded in on itself but I can squeeze through it. As I shove in Henrick’s coming through the hole behind me. I wriggle and push the rest of the way in.
Not a lot of light. No sign of the pilots, no bodies, no pieces of uniform like I found outside. Henrick gets through the door, we look and mostly fumble around in the dark for anything that looks like survival stuff, or signal stuff, some kind of transponder thing or something, but neither of us has any idea what we’re looking for.
For some reason we expect to find a flare gun or an emergency kit, tents or rations or something. No such things. We try to make sense of any of the piles of twisted wires and ripped metal in there, try to find whatever switches would have anything to do with the radio, but nothing’s powering on anyway no matter how many switches we flip, everything’s fucked. We look at each other.
“You see any sign of the pilots out there?” Henrick asks. I nod.
“Half of one.” It strikes Henrick as funny, I didn’t mean it to be.
“The other half’s probably fucking hiding in shame,” he says. I nod. We fall quiet.
“Better move,” I say. We crawl back out.
Outside I see Luttinger and the others waiting for us, they’ve slogged ahead a little, and they’re jumping around. Too cold to stand still. Back at the our piece of plane I see flames going up, higher. It looks like they’re throwing more seat cushions on. It roars up, must be fifteen feet of flame.
“We better hurry with the wood or that’ll be gone in five minutes.” I say.
Henrick nods, we huff up to catch the others. Luttinger falls in alongside us, when he get to him, saying nothing, the rest of the guys are already tromping ahead in the cold, strung out on the snow, staring out into the dark to where the broken trees are.
I keep looking out to either side of us, at every little dark clump we pass, to see if any of them is moving. None of them is. Like before I can’t get all the way out to check every one of them, or I’ll die doing it, the others will too. So I hope they’re dead, and I’m not leaving anybody alive we could have helped. You hope funny things.
We go and keep going until we start to see pieces of broken branches trailing back from the trail of the crash, dozens of chunks of wood, big and little branches, some big boughs and refrigerator-sized pieces of trunk too big to pick up. We’re still what looks like a few football fields or more from the trees behind us, it’s hard to tell distances, but pieces of tree must have gotten thrown here as we came through. I’m trying to imagine it and I can’t, but here they are.
Everybody starts gathering wood up, dumping it in the blankets and jackets or just loading up their arms. I lay a blanket out, start loading it. Henrick and some of the others take their jackets off to bundle wood in, which is brave in this cold. It doesn’t take long, we can’t carry much. Henrick heads off, dragging what looks like a big load for him. He isn’t the biggest of us, but off he goes. Tlingit and Luttinger and the others fall in behind him, start heading back for the orange pinprick of the fire in the distance.