‘So they offered you money,’ I said.
She opened her eyes and smiled, quickly, and then wiped her nose again.
‘They offered me all kinds of things. Everything a girl could want. Everything a girl already had, in fact, until her father decided he was going to take it away.’
We sat like that for a while, holding hands, thinking and talking about what she’d done. But we didn’t get very far. When we began, both of us thought that this was going to be the biggest, deepest, longest talk either of us had ever had with another human being. Almost immediately, we realised it wasn’t. Because there was no point. There was so much to be said, such a huge mound of explanation to be gone through, and yet somehow, none of it really needed to be said at all.
So I’ll say it.
Under Alexander Woolf’s leadership, the company of Gaine Parker Inc made springs, levers, door catches, carpet grips, belt buckles, and a thousand other bits and pieces of Western life. They made plastic things, and metal things, and electronic things, and mechanical things, some of them for retailers, some of them for other manufacturers, and some for theUnited States government.
This, in the beginning, was good for Gaine Parker. If you can make a lavatory seat that pleases the head Woolworths buyer, you’re quids in. If you can make one that pleases the US government, by conforming to the specifications demanded of a military lavatory seat - and I assure you that there is such a thing, and it has specifications, and at a guess I’d say those specifications probably cover thirty sides of A4 paper - if you can do that, well, then you’re quids in, out, round to the front and in again, a million times over.
As it happened, Gaine Parker didn’t make lavatory seats. They made an electronic switch that was very small and did something clever with semi-conductors. As well as being indispensable to the manufacturers of air-conditioning thermostats, the switch also found a home in the cooling mechanism of a new kind of military-specification diesel generator. And so it came to pass, in February of 1972, that Gaine Parker and Alexander Woolf became sub-contractors to the US Department of Defense.
The blessings of this contract were without number. Besides allowing, or even encouraging, Gaine Parker to charge eighty dollars for an item that elsewhere in the market would be lucky to fetch five, the contract served as a stamp of guaranteed, no nonsense, blue-chip quality, causing the world’s customers for small, clever, switchy things to beat a wide gravel drive to Woolf’s door.
From that moment, nothing could go wrong, and nothing did. Woolf’s standing in thematerielbusiness grew and grew, and his access to the very important people who run that world - and who therefore could safely be said to runtheworld - grew with it. They smiled at him, and joked with him and put him up for membership of the St Regis golf club onLong Island. They called him atmidnight for long chats about this and that. They asked him to go sailing with them in the Hamptons, and, more importantly, accepted his return invitation. They sent his family Christmas cards, and then Christmas presents, and, eventually, they began to wine him at two hundred-seat Republican party dinners, where much talk was exchanged on the subject of the budget deficit andAmerica ’s economic regeneration. And the higher he rose, the more contracts came his way, and the smaller, and more intimate, the dinners became. Until, finally, they stopped having much to do with party politics at all. They had more to do with the politics of common sense, if you follow me.
It was at the end of one of these dinners that a fellow admiral of industry, his judgement skewed by a couple of pints of claret, told Woolf about a rumour he had come across. The rumour was a fantastic one, and Woolf, of course, didn’t believe it. In fact, he found it funny. So funny, that he decided to share the laugh with one of the very important people, during one of their regular late-night phone-calls - and found that the line had gone dead before he’d reached the punch line.
The day Alexander Woolf decided to take on the military industrial complex was the day everything changed. For him, for his family, for his business. Things changed quickly, and they changed for good. Roused from its slumber, the military-industrial complex lifted a great, lazy paw, and swatted him away, as if he were no more than a human being.
They cancelled his existing contracts and withdrew possible future ones. They bankrupted his suppliers, disrupted his labour force, and investigated him for tax evasion. They bought his company’s stock in a few months and sold it in a few hours, and when that didn’t do the trick, they accused him of trading in narcotics. They even had him thrown out of the St Regis, for not replacing a fairway divot.
None of which bothered Alexander Woolf one bit, because he knew that he’d seen the light, and the light was green. But it did bother his daughter, and the beast knew this. The beast knew that Alexander Woolf had started out in life with German as his first language, andAmerica as his first religion; that at seventeen, he was selling coat-hangers out of the back of a van, living alone in one basement room inLowes,New Hampshire, with both parents dead and not ten dollars to his name. That was what Alexander Woolf had come from, and that was what he was prepared to go back to, if going back was what it took. To Alexander Woolf, poverty was not the dark, or the unknown, or a thing to be feared in any way. At any time of life.
But his daughter was different. His daughter had experienced nothing but big houses, and big swimming pools, and big cars, and big orthodontistry treatments, and poverty frightened her to death. The fear of the unknown was what made her vulnerable, and the beast knew that too.
A man had made her a proposition. ‘So,’ she said.
‘Well quite,’ I said.
Her teeth were chattering, which made me realise how long we’d been sitting there. And how much I still had left to do.
‘I’d better take you home,’ I said, getting to my feet. Instead of getting up with me, she curled tighter to the bench, her arms folded across her stomach as if she was in pain. Because she was in pain. When she spoke, her voice was incredibly quiet, and I had to squat down at her feet to hear. The lower I got, the more she bowed her head to avoid my eyes.
‘Don’t punish me,’ she said. ‘Don’t punish me for my father’s death, Thomas, because I can do that without your help.’
‘I’m not punishing you, Sarah,’ I said. ‘I’m just going to take you home, that’s all.’
She lifted her head and looked at me again, and I saw a new fear sliding into her eyes.
‘But why?’ she said. ‘I mean, we’re here, now. Together. We can do anything. Go anywhere.’
I looked down at the ground. She hadn’t got it yet. ‘And where do you want to go?’ I asked.
‘Well it doesn’t matter, does it?’ she said, her voice getting louder as the desperation grew. ‘The point is we can go. I mean, Christ, Thomas, you know… they controlled you because they threatened me, and they controlled me because they threatened you. That’s how they did it. And that’s over now. We can go. Take off.’
I shook my head.
‘I’m afraid it’s not that simple now,’ I said. ‘If it ever was.’ I stopped and thought for a moment, wondering how much I ought to tell her. Nothing, is what I really ought to tell her. But fuck it.
‘This thing isn’t just about us,’ I said. ‘If we just walk away, other people are going to die. Because of us.’
‘Other people?’ said Sarah. ‘What are you talking about? What other people?’
I smiled at her, because I wanted her to feel better, and not so scared, and also because I was remembering them all. ‘Sarah,’ I said. ‘You and I…’