The commissaris inspected Bert Termeer's private quarters, bare as a monk's cell, uncomfortable but for the huge water bed. Termeer's printing shop contained outmoded equipment, used to manufacture his monthly catalogue. Empty cartons and rolls of packing paper were stacked.
Then there were, in the basement, props for Termeer's former acts.
"You think that was worth the trouble?" the commissaris asked, picking up and putting down a trumpet, holding up a monkey-size robe and hat.
"Producing, directing, acting out a show that might liberate people from dead-end routines?" Charlie became enthusiastic. "Sure." He nodded. "That's why I let Termeer live here. I thought we might have fun together. Test some theories. Do some philosophizing. Get weightless together. There was a time I thought I might join in his performance."
The commissaris was grinning. Charlie grinned back. "You would like to do that yourself, wouldn't you? An adult version of throwing water balloons at folks?
"And," Charlie said, "Bert wasn't a do-gooder, like the outfit that I bought this building from. The give-l time-give-money-do-things-for-God crowd. Not that," Charlie said, pulling a face. "No. Never."
"You don't care for do-gooding?" de Gier asked.
"Please," Charlie said. "After my Polish Experience?" He shrugged. "Yes, sure, maybe for a little while.
Set the needy up till they can take care of themselves again. I wouldn't help anyone to prolong his misery, though. Encourage depression?" He made a fist and pounded his palm. "Set them free, let them go. Don't shackle them with welfare."
"You set up Bert Termeer here?" the commissaris asked.
Charlie held his head to one side. "Yes. Sure. When I met Bert in Central Park, years ago, we had this conversation. I had some apples. I asked him if he wanted one. He said he would take the apple if I would give it to him without using my hands. I told him he could have the apple if he took it without using his hands."
"Zen," de Gier said.
Charlie nodded. "We had both read the same book on Zen koans."
"Same level of insight," the commissaris said.
"Right. But it didn't mean much. Exchanging book knowledge doesn't, you know. I thought we had a beginning. Bert wanted to get into New York, he was living in some flophouse, and I had all this space here-I got the building cheap from the do-things-for-God-folks- and Bert might have explored avenues I hadn't even thought of yet so I loaned him money and charged minimal rent."
"Did he pay you back?" the commissaris asked.
"Some," Charlie said. "Yes. Little by little."
"And Bert impressed you?"
"Look at this," Charlie said, sweeping his hand toward a long row of figures lined up against the room's wall, representing a single person's (Bert Termeer's own) physical lifetime changes. "That plate on the left-can you see it?-holds a microscopic object, a fertilized human egg. The plate on the right-can you see it?-shows remnants of a human bone."
Dust to dust.
"Of course," Charlie said, '"dust to dust' is still something.
"One should really look left of the embryo, where there is nothing, and right of the bone crumbs, where there is nothing again."
"Nothing to nothing."
And, Charlie said, what Termeer had wanted to show Sunday morning crowds in the public parks of Boston, Massachusetts, and Bangor, Maine (the Central Park authorities had thrown the exhibit out), after he had put up his line of figures, a tiring exercise since some of them were heavy, was that there was nothing in between the two nothings either.
Termeer's show-nothing, to rapidly changing embryos, to baby, to toddler, to little kid, to kid, to young adult, to grown person, to middle-aged man, to codger in C 246 1 increasingly debilitated and demented stages, to corpse, to skeleton, to crumbling bone, to nothing-highlighted a common denominator: lack of substance.
No substance to the body. No substance to the mind.
"Would you," Charlie asked the commissaris, "accept as your essence your aches and pains?
"Would you," Charlie asked de Gier, "accept as your essence your guilts and depressions?
"So what are we?" Charlie laughed. "I liked Termeer's implied line of questioning. It was in all of his shows. Even here in New York. A dignified gendeman ruminating in an exaggerated pose. A dignified gentleman frolicking in childlike joy."
They all looked at all the Bert Termeer's again, standing at the far side of the room, with porcelain faces, each showing the aging process, the right clothes, thickening, then thinning hair, giving way to baldness, all different shapes, only sharing a name.
The commissaris said that. "They're all Bert Termeer."
"My name," Charlie said, "was once Paulie Potock. Would you say I am that frightened little boy in Poland? Would you say I am the frightened old man who is told by the doctor he has Alzheimer's disease?"
"You think you might have that?"
Charlie waved indifferently. "Brain tumor, colon cancer, whatever we die of these days, irreparable blocked arteries…"
"But," the commissaris asked, "your friend. Bert Termeer. Wasn't he just another faker?"
Charlie patted Kali's head. "No. Not altogether. I think Bert did have true insights. Eh?" he asked the dog. "You liked Bert, didn't you? When you were with him in the park? You would bounce about and play?"
"A prophet?" the commissaris asked.
"Oh yes."
"What didn't you show us?" the commissaris asked, after twisting his painful hips so that he could face his suspect.
"What didn't he show you?" Katrien asked on the phone.
"But he did show me," the commissaris said, "in that very building's dank dungeons."
What Charlie showed the detectives in the badly lit basement was Bert Termeer's second activity, another mail-order business, also complete with all it needed: an antique press, an obsolete but functional labeling machine, shelving, boxes, packing paper, rolls of packing tape, stocks of product.
The piles of imported magazines Charlie kicked around in the basement-while Kali crouched, growled, even howled with fury-the imported videotapes Charlie roughly pushed off their shelving, the posters and pictures he picked up and tore in half mostly showed small children being tortured.
Chapter 22
De Gier, agreeing with the commissaris that the job was done, spent the night at Horatio Street after losing at playing darts with Antonio and Freddie. He also telephoned Maggie, apologized for making a mess of a potentially beautiful experience and invited her to dinner the next day at the Italian restaurant. She said she didn't think so but to phone her in the morning. He slept well, phoned Maggie again, was told by her answering machine that if it was he it was okay, walked to Bleecker Street and took the subway. The commissaris invited him to breakfast at Le Chat Complet, where no cats walked past the high windows and where nobody sang.
Grijpstra's report on Termeer's alibi, faxed to the Cavendish and brought along for de Gier to read-the commissaris had trouble with the fax's faint lettering- confirmed that Jo Termeer was no longer a suspect.
De Gier said that he knew Charlie was involved when Charlie, the suspect, asked de Gier, the investigating officer, to translate Daumal's poetry, which said, "I go toward a future that doesn't exist, leaving behind me, at every instant, a corpse."
"A corpse, sir." De Gier cut his French toast. "Why bring up a corpse, for Christ sake, and he left it behind, and at every instant, like he couldn't get rid of it, like he kept dragging Termeer's body with him?"
The commissaris nodded although he could think of quite a different interpretation. The quotation could refer to another level. The poet Daumal could have referred to man's continuous change, leaving behind him used thoughts, used actions. The commissaris was going to tell de Gier that when Mamere came by to pour more coffee.