She collected a salad and a cup of coffee, then headed Freeman's way. So much for splendid isolation.
"You feeling better?" Randy asked her as she sat between him and Freeman.
"No."
Randy waved a fork at her salad. "I'm surprised you weren't in the mood for fish."
"I only eat the ones I catch. Except for the undersized ones like you, then I throw them back."
That's when Freeman figured it out. Ms. Sweat Suit and Mr. Muscles. The perfect jock couple, a match made in SoloFlex heaven. They probably had his-and-her headbands back at their condo love nest.
Freeman concentrated on his butterscotch pudding. It blended perfectly with the beige tray, and was the first pudding in the history of the world that could have doubled as wall spackle. He could imagine Deke stowing some away for later pranks on Dipes.
"I don't care what you and Dr. Bondurant think," Starlene said to Randy. "I know what I saw."
"We can talk about it later."
Grown-up talk. Freeman tried to will himself into invisibility. Starlene noticed his discomfort and said to him, "Sorry. I'm having a bad afternoon. Even grownups have them from time to time."
"Except grown-ups don't have to apologize." Freeman immediately regretted smart-mouthing her. But Clint Eastwood mode wasn't something you could climb into and out of at the drop of a hat. You had to stay in character. Unlike Kevin Costner in practically anything.
"I did apologize, Freeman."
He tried to triptrap her, just for the hell of it. All he got were ringing ears and the jolt of a live wire slicing through his head. He might as well have slammed his forehead against the dining room's cinder block walls. Some people were like that, natural shields, and even with the ones he could read, there was no way to control which stuff he got. Sometimes it was whatever the person had watched on TV the night before, or a favorite character from a movie. Sometimes it was a sick relative or money and how to get more money. Sometimes…
Sometimes it was the kind of stuff his dad used to think about.
"Is something wrong?" Starlene asked, and Freeman blinked himself back into the dining room.
"I just saw somebody I thought I knew." He poked at the pudding, then glanced at the pale, blond girl. She was staring at him again. She was exotic, dangerous, Faye Dunaway in Chinatown.
Sure, something's wrong, Queen Starlene. Someday when you have a few years, maybe I'll tell you. Until then, ain't no shrink getting inside HERE. Because your kind always has to find something, and you always have to "fix " it, no matter if you break more stuff than you glue back together. So you keep on YOUR side of the table with Mr. Hunk-a-Hunka Burnin' Love there, and I'll sit right here, and both of us will get along just fine.
Just stay out of my head and we'11 be okay. That goes for you, too, Miss Spooky Skeleton Girl who hasn't eaten a bite.
A bell rang, and Randy checked his watch. "Yard time, soldiers," he barked loudly enough for the entire dining room to hear.
Deke slipped in a quick lip-synch in imitation of Randy, eliciting giggles from his goon squad. Chairs scraped and flatware clattered as the kids assembled to dispose of their trays. Freeman took a last stab at the pudding and slipped a forkful into his mouth. It even tasted beige.
Starlene smiled at him, an alfalfa sprout caught between her teeth. Freeman felt guilty for trying to read her. She was the only one here who had been nice to him so far. Maybe he could use it later on, play that particular character flaw to his own advantage. The best victims were those blinded by their own sincerity.
Freeman ended up in line behind the skeletal blonde. He wasn't sure if he'd slowed his pace to arrange the encounter or if it was coincidence. Her hair hung halfway to her waist and looked so soft it was almost translucent against her baggy black shirt. Freeman stared straight ahead hoping she wouldn't turn around and speak to him.
She scraped her plate into the garbage can. It was obvious she had stirred her food but had eaten nothing.
One of the counselors came over, a man in a vee-necked sweater and carefully trimmed mustache. "How was your dinner, Vicky?"
"Fine, Allen," she said.
"Looks like you had a big appetite tonight." Not a hint of sarcasm.
"It was yummy."
He patted her on the shoulder. "We'll have you up to fighting weight in no time."
Allen left and Vicky brushed her hand across the spot he had touched as if ridding herself of cobwebs. Freeman couldn't believe she had fooled the counselor so completely. Either she was smart, or Allen was stone dumb. Or maybe a little of both.
Freeman put his tray in the window slot. A conveyor belt carried the dirty dishes into the mysterious depths of the dishwasher's room. The churning of water and the hum of rubber belts reverberated inside the little space. Freeman stuck his head in to see if an actual human being did the work or if the system was automated like something out of The Jetsons.
Standing beside a large rack of glasses was the strange old guy Freeman had seen shuffling down the hall earlier. Maybe he was a janitor after all. No, not a janitor. Custodian. Everybody got a special name for their jobs these days so they could feel good about themselves.
The man didn't take any notice of Freeman. He probably saw dozens of kids come and go, change placements, rejoin their families, or have the juvenile justice system finally catch up with them. The man's blank eyes were undoubtedly a gift of evolution, a survival mechanism. The less you see, the less you know. The less you know, the better off you are.
Sounded like a pretty good philosophy. If the game was to be invisible, then the man in the dirty gown was a master.
Freeman tossed his fork into a pan of soapy water, then turned and found himself face-to-face with Vicky.
"By the way," she said. "You didn't accidentally read my mind. I read yours."
She walked away, joining the herd of kids gathering to go outside. Her next words slipped inside Freeman's skull without the benefit of sound: You 're not the only one who's special.
EIGHT
Bondurant felt humbled here, the only place in Wendover that wasn't part of the domain he ruled. Two walls were lined with equipment: computers and monitors and racks of color-coded wires. Shelves of thick books covered a third wall, texts of everything from clinical cases to alternative religions to New Age healing modalities. A faint air of ungodliness cramped these quarters. Dr. Kracowski's office reeked of seeking.
Bondurant looked through the two-way mirror that bridged the office to Room Thirteen. Kracowski was attaching tiny electrode patches to a young, dark-skinned boy. The boy sat on the bed in gym shorts, socks, and nothing else except for the rubber circles stuck to his chest and his left temple. Bondurant pulled the boy's case file from his mental drawer.
Mario Diego Rios. Nine years old. Found at a bus station in Raleigh where he had gone without food for three days. His dad, a mechanic for the bus line, had locked him in an unlit storage closet. Little Mario still suffered nightmares, even after intensive talk therapy and Bondurant's prayer sessions. Since the abandonment, Mario couldn't stand to be in enclosed places.
Which was why the boy was trembling now, because Thirteen was fairly cramped. Kracowski said something to Mario, which was picked up by a microphone in the ceiling. The displaced words came to Bondurant through the computer speakers.
"It's okay, son. I'm going to help you. But first you're going to have to do something for me. Can you do that? Por favor?"
The boy nodded, lips tight.
"You're going to have to think about something."
The boy looked at the door, then at the mirror.