And yet… yet, in twenty years, he had never come back. Had never sent word, or given a sign of life.
She walked to the edge of the circle and knelt, tracing the letters with her hands. They needed him in Silverspires, so badly it was like a fist clenched around her heart; a hollow in her chest only his presence would fill. She needed him; the force of his presence; his sardonic amusement at her efforts; his grudging praise when she did do something right; his effortless strength, keeping them all safe. But there was nothing; her fingers, brushing against the tip of the stone, felt only the coldness of the carved letters. She traced them, one by one: not the language all Fallen learned to read, but an older, colder alphabet that she had seen so many times in her brief apprenticeship: the language of Morningstar’s desires.
Through those words I shed aside all desires but one….
Through those words I send my prayers to the City, for the good of the House and the good name of Silverspires….
Let me be the one shattered, let me be the one that falls into dust, let me be borne away by the storm….
Through those words I shed aside all desires but one….
And on and on, around the entire surface of the circle, an intricate network of sentences crossing one another, words that mingled with one another until the spell became a litany — a secret tracery of patterns that spoke to Selene, reminding her of long afternoons practicing the gestures and words that would unlock the magic within her. “Power,” Morningstar had said, smiling — sitting in the red armchair of the room where he taught, that room now soiled by the memory of what Asmodeus had done in it. “The world shapes itself around power, and this is its language.”
She remembered kneeling, tracing letters similar to the ones on the ground in her own blood; the air trembling with the force of the power she was calling; a perfect moment when everything seemed to be frozen, waiting for the gust of wind that would sweep everything away….
Yes, this was Morningstar’s work, no doubt about it. A spell of… self-sacrifice — the thought made her sick to her stomach, because it meant that Philippe was right, that Isabelle was right; that he was gone beyond retrieval, beyond the reach of any magic or miracles. Gone. Dead; perhaps back to that City they all dimly remembered, though she found it hard to believe forgiveness would be so easy to earn.
They needed him so badly, and he wouldn’t be here. Wouldn’t ever be coming back.
Gone. Dead. Forever.
Selene knelt in the dust, one hand on the circle Morningstar had so painstakingly traced; and felt the cool, salty taste of the first tears on her cheeks.
* * *
WHEN Philippe and Isabelle entered her hospital room, Emmanuelle was waiting for them. She was sitting in a battered old chair, her hand lying on one of the armrests, so that the mark on it was clearly visible. It pulsed in Philippe’s vision; but only mildly, like a dying heartbeat. “It’s almost gone,” he said, before he could stop himself.
Emmanuelle smiled at him: her face pinched on itself, around the hollows of cheekbones, as if, lifting a shroud, he had seen the face of death staring back at him. “Philippe. I wasn’t expecting—”
Philippe felt himself grow red. They’d pushed him to see Emmanuelle, as if it would make any kind of difference; as if he could do anything for her. “I’m sorry,” he said. “I shouldn’t have come here.”
Isabelle was watching the guards lay Madeleine down on another bed; though she would be listening, he was sure.
“Why?” Emmanuelle asked. She did not move from the chair. He suspected she could not; that it was the only thing keeping her upright at the moment.
“They told me—” He took a deep, deep breath, cursing Silverspires and its ancient, irrelevant intrigues, struggled for words that should have come easily to him. “They told me you were dying. I–I thought I could help. Seeing that I was the one responsible for it.”
“But you’re not, are you.” It wasn’t a question; and her gaze had the sharpness of broken glass.
Not a question he was ready to answer; and he couldn’t quite stop glancing at the door, worried Asmodeus would walk in, with that easy, dangerous smile….
His hands had tightened into fists again; again he was surprised that they didn’t hurt. “Let me have a look at it,” he said. “And then we can talk. Please?”
Emmanuelle shrugged. “If you want.”
He knelt before her, touched her skin. The raised area was surrounded by a circle of dried skin like lizard scales. There was a little magic under his fingers; a little of the same sense of oppressiveness he remembered from the shadows’ presence — it leaped when he touched it, reawakening the same feeling within his chest — for a moment shadows wavered and danced on the edge of his field of vision; for a moment he waited with his heart in his throat, but there was nothing more; it was all fading fast….
They were gone. The Furies were gone.
He moved to the secondary rings; they were all but reabsorbed back into the skin. “You’re healing.” He could be done with this; find the source of the darkness and — then what? Face it as he’d faced Morningstar’s bones?
He had no idea what to do.
“So Aragon says. I could do with less fatigue,” Emmanuelle said. She smiled, tightly. “Now you should leave the House.”
“Ha.”
“Selene has expressed interest in our staying,” Isabelle said, behind him.
“Madeleine?” Philippe asked.
“They’ve sent for Aragon, but at this hour he’s not in the House anymore,” Isabelle said. “They’ll see if Gerard or Eric…”
Emmanuelle was not to be deterred from the earlier thread of conversation. “So you’re a ‘guest’ of the House once more.”
Never. “Not if I can help it,” Philippe said, more sharply than he had intended.
“You’re not bound.” Emmanuelle shrugged. “I would advise you to slip out the door — I’m sure you can,” she said, to the too-quick denial she must have seen on his face.
Philippe had not moved; was still kneeling, holding her hand. It would mean leaving with the darkness still inside him; it would mean leaving Isabelle — but he couldn’t hope to remain here, not with Selene aware of his presence. He needed… he needed to be free. “At least let me have not come for nothing.”
She raised an eyebrow. “What—”
He called fire then, and wood, and gently entwined them on her skin. They were weak and faded, nothing like the khi currents he’d played with in Annam, but still, there was a memory of the strength of the House. Still, it was enough.
On Emmanuelle’s hand, the rings faded away one by one; last to go was the central one, its blackened outline shifting to dark red, and then to inflamed brown; and then gracefully merging with Emmanuelle’s dark skin.
She was looking at him, mouth slightly open. “No Fallen magic—”
No Fallen magic could heal that fast, that easily; or not without costs. But his magic was different — just as Ngoc Bich’s magic was different, and thank Heaven for that, or he’d still have been a broken body in a bed, awaiting the death that would extinguish his pain. “Party tricks,” Philippe said, gently; rising, and releasing her hand to fall, limp, at her side. The color was back in her cheeks; her breath came in fast bursts, as if she were bracing herself for flight; and she could have fled, too; with that infusion of strength she could easily have risen from her chair and walked without shaking.