Calpurnia looked at him wide-eyed as the tears began to form. Her mind was full of nightmares and Caesar’s words could not dissipate them.
‘What do you think I should do, then? Send a messenger to tell the Senate I can’t participate in the session that I myself convened because my wife has had a bad dream?’
‘You’re ill,’ insisted Calpurnia. ‘You have a temperature and you didn’t sleep enough. You don’t look well.’
‘I won’t hear of it. What would they think of me? I want them to approve the allocation of a sizeable amount of money for my veterans and I don’t show up because I’m complaining of ill-health?’
Calpurnia was twisting her hands, then trying to dry the tears that were now coursing down her cheeks.
‘What can I do to keep you from leaving this house? Do I have to remind you what you owe me? That I never said a word or changed my behaviour in any way when I knew, when everyone knew, that you were betraying me? Must I remind you that I have always cared for you with devotion, even when the Queen of Egypt bore your child, even now that — I’m certain of this — she continues to send you ardent messages of love?’
Caesar wheeled around to look at her, anger rising in his face, but Calpurnia did not stop her tirade.
‘Go ahead. Curse me, swear at me, disparage me. But do one thing for me, one thing alone! Do not leave these sacred walls on such an ill-omened day. I’ve never asked you to do anything before and I never will again. I will let you go dry-eyed when the moment comes. Just do this one thing for your legitimate wife. I ask you for nothing else.’
She couldn’t help but burst into tears.
Caesar stood watching her in silence, dumbfounded. In the end he gave in.
‘So be it. I’ll try to find a pretext that won’t make me seem ridiculous. But now, please, leave me alone.’
Calpurnia left in tears and Caesar called his doctor.
‘I’m here, Caesar,’ Antistius replied, rushing in.
‘Send a courier to the Senate. Have him announce that I won’t be able to attend the session. You invent a plausible excuse.’
‘You’re not well, Caesar. Isn’t that enough?’
‘No. But it won’t be a problem for you to think of something more serious.’
‘Naturally. And I won’t have to make anything up.’
‘Go then. I can’t have the senators waiting for me.’
Antistius threw a cloak over his shoulders and set off for the Campus Martius. As he was crossing the Forum he saw Cassius Longinus, Tillius Cimber, Publius Servilius Casca and a few others he did not know on the north side of the square.
They were walking purposefully, in groups. Cassius had a young lad with him, no doubt his son, who that day would publicly assume the toga virilis, formally becoming a man.
A cold northerly wind was blowing but the sky was quite clear and the sun was shining on the city. As they got closer to Pompey’s Curia, where the session was scheduled to be held, Antistius saw the litters of several noble senators whom he had come to recognize. Others, the traditionalists, were briskly making their way on foot, while others still, wearied by age, were using a cane or leaning on their sons’ arms.
He saw Licinius Celer, Aurelius Cotta, Publius Cornelius Dolabella, and recognized an elderly senator who was a friend of Cicero’s, Popilius Lenate, then Caius Trebonius and others. He quickened his step so he would get to the Senate before everyone else did. When he arrived at his destination, he looked around and realized that nearly all the senators were present. He couldn’t see Cicero anywhere, but he saw Decimus Brutus and, a little further on, Marcus Junius Brutus, who was looking surly.
He approached the table of the chancellor, the senator in charge of drawing up the minutes of the session, and communicated his message.
‘Caesar won’t be able to come today. He is indisposed and feverish and did not rest all night. I beg you to make his apologies to the assembly.’
He was still speaking when Decimus Brutus leaned close and asked, ‘What has happened, Antistius?’
‘Caesar is ill. He won’t be joining the Senate this morning.’
‘What? That’s impossible.’
‘No, it’s true. He had a sleepless night and is running a temperature. He requests that the session be adjourned.’
Decimus Brutus turned to the chancellor and said, ‘Make no announcement before I come back.’
Antistius was struck by how coldly Decimus Brutus had reacted to the news, not even asking what the problem was with his friend and commander. He decided to return to the Domus to see what would happen.
A murmur ran through the assembled senators, who were perhaps already consulting on the matters of the day. Now they had something else to talk about. Many of them looked worried. Some left the group they were with to join another, while others whispered into the ear of a companion, who nodded gravely or showed surprise, concern, uneasiness.
Antistius left through the large portico and hurried back, taking care to avoid Decimus Brutus, who preceded him by about ten paces. He entered the Domus just a few moments after Brutus. He could already hear his voice and Caesar’s.
‘Caesar, the Senate is waiting for you. What’s wrong?’
Antistius entered just then. Caesar was lying on the couch, looking grim.
Antistius spoke up: ‘Haven’t I answered that one already? Can’t you see he’s ill?’
Decimus Brutus didn’t even turn in his direction. He got closer to Caesar and peered at him, before announcing, ‘He doesn’t look so bad.’
‘I’ll decide how serious this is,’ replied Antistius. ‘He has even had an asthma attack,’ he lied. ‘He must rest.’
Decimus Brutus struggled to hold his temper against the insolent little doctor who dared to contradict him. He ignored him and turned to Caesar instead.
‘You convened the Senate. Your absence will be interpreted as an insult, a lack of respect. In the name of the gods, don’t do this. We have enough difficulties as it is.’
Calpurnia entered the room as well and said, ‘He’s ill. Go back and tell the Senate that Caesar is unable to preside over the session. Even a blind man could see how sick he is.’
‘Not going at all would be much worse than making this small effort. He can go in his litter. All he has to do is put in an appearance: greet the Senate, express his respect, apologize for his poor state of health and return home. In an hour he’ll be back. Not showing up would be a huge political mistake. It would fuel rumours, gossip, slander and nastiness of every type.’
Caesar sat up and turned to Calpurnia. ‘Decimus is right. I’ll open the session and then I’ll leave. I’ll just stay long enough to be seen and exchange a few words with some of the senators, then I’ll come back here. We’ll soon be having lunch together, Calpurnia, you’ll see.’
He drew close and, in an affectionate tone, said, ‘There’s no need to worry. Trust me.’
Calpurnia looked back with dismay and resignation. She knew she’d lost. Her eyes filled with tears nonetheless. Antistius did not move. He stood at the threshold, watching as Caesar’s litter went off, accompanied by Decimus Brutus, bound for the Theatre of Pompey.
Romae, in aedibus Bruti, Id. Mart, hora tertia
Rome, the home of Brutus, 15 March, eight a.m.
The boy slipped up to Artemidorus’s quarters, after making sure that he was no longer under surveillance.
‘Master,’ he said, ‘what are you doing here?’
‘What are you doing here?’ replied Artemidorus.
‘Antistius sent me. I came to tell you that Caesar has left the Domus Publica. He had decided not to go, because his wife wanted him to stay, but then an important person — a man with the same name as your master — came to call.’
‘Brutus?’
‘Yes, that’s right. He convinced him, forced him really, to go and meet with the Senate. They’ll be arriving about now. Antistius is worried. He wants to know if you have any news for him.’