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The four women stared at me in astonishment. The doctor gave them a sort of now-perhaps-you’ll-believe-me glance, and then turned to me again.

“We’ll start with a few questions,” she said.

“Before you begin,” I put in, “I have something to add to what I told you last night. It has come back to me.”

“Perhaps the knock when you fell,” she suggested, looking at my piece of plaster. “What were you trying to do?”

I ignored that. “I think I’d better tell you the missing part it might help a bit, anyway.”

“Very well,” she agreed. “You told me you were... er... married, and that your... er... husband was killed soon afterwards.” She glanced at the others; their blankness of expression was somehow studious. “It was the part after that that was missing.” she added.

“Yes,” I said. “He was a test pilot,” I explained to them. “It happened six months after we were married only one month before his contract was due to expire.

“After that, an aunt took me away for some weeks. I don’t suppose I’ll ever remember that part very well. I wasn’t noticing anything very much.

“But then I remember waking up one morning and suddenly seeing things differently, and telling myself that I couldn’t go on like that. I knew I must have some work, something that would keep me busy.

“Dr. Hellyer, who is in charge of the Wraychester Hospital where I was working before I was married, told me he would be glad to have me with them again. So I went back, and worked very hard, so that I did not have much time to think. That would be about eight months ago, now.

“Then one day Dr Hellyer spoke about a drug that a friend of his had succeeded in synthesising. I don’t think he was really asking for volunteers, but I offered to try it out. From what he said it sounded as if the drug might have some quite important properties. It struck me as a chance to do something useful. Sooner or later, someone would try it, and as I didn’t have any ties and didn’t care very much what happened, anyway, I thought I might as well be the one to try it.”

The spokesman doctor interrupted to ask: “What was this drug?”

“It’s called chuinjuatin,” I told her. “Do you know it?”

She shook her head. One of the others put in: “I’ve heard the name. What is it?”

“It’s a narcotic,” I told her. “The original form is in the leaves of a tree that grows chiefly in the south of Venezuela. The tribe of Indians who live there discovered it somehow, like others did quinine and mescalin. And in much the same way they use it for orgies. Some of them sit and chew the leaves they have to chew about six ounces of them—and gradually they go into a zombie-like, trance state. It lasts three or four days during which they are quite helpless and incapable of doing the simplest thing for themselves, so that other members of the tribe are appointed to look after them as if they were children, and to guard them.

“It’s necessary to guard them because the Indian belief is that chuinjuatin liberates the spirit from the body, setting it free to wander anywhere in space and time, and the guardian’s most important job is to see that no other wandering spirit shall slip into the body while the true owner is away. When the subjects recover they claim to have had wonderful mystical experiences. There seem to be no physical ill effects, and no craving results from it. The mystical experiences, though, are said to be intense, and clearly remembered.

“Dr Hellyer’s friend had tested his synthesised chum juatin on a number of laboratory animals and worked out the dosage, and tolerances, and that kind of thing, but what he could not tell of course, was what validity, if any, the reports of the mystical experiences had. Presumably they were the product of the drug’s influence on the nervous system but whether that effect produced a sensation of pleasure, ecstasy, awe, fear, horror, or any of a dozen more, it was impossible to tell without a human guiena pig. So that was what I volunteered for.”

I stopped. I looked at their serious, puzzled faces, and at the billow of pink satin in front of me.

“In fact,” I added, “it appears to have produced a combination of the absurd, the incomprehensible, and the grotesque.”

They were earnest women, these, not be sidetracked. They were there to disprove an anomaly if they could.

“I see,” said the spokeswoman with an air of preserving reasonableness, rather than meaning anything. She glanced down at a paper on which she had made a note from time to time.

“Now, can you give us the time and date at which this experiment took place?”

I could, and did, and after that the questions went on and on and on…

The least satisfactory part of it from my point of view was that even though my answers caused them to grow more uncertain of themselves as we went on, they did at least get them; whereas when I put a question it was usually evaded, or answered perfunctorily, as an unimportant digression.

They went on steadily, and only broke off when my next meal arrived. Then they went away, leaving me thankfully in peace but little the wiser. I half expected them to return, but when they did not I fell into a doze from which I was awakened by the incursion of a cluster of the little women, once more. They brought a trolley with them, and in a short time were wheeling me out of the building on it but not by the way I had arrived. This time we went down a ramp where another, or the same, pink ambulance waited at the bottom. When they had me safely loaded aboard, three of them climbed in, too, to keep me company. They were chattering as they did so, and they kept it up inconsequently, and mostly incomprehensibly, for the whole hour and a half of the journey that ensued.

The countryside differed little from that I had already seen. Once we were outside the gates there were the same tidy fields and standardised farms. The occasional built-up areas were not extensive and consisted of the same types of blocks close by, and we ran on the same, not very good, road surfaces. There were groups of the Amazon types, and, more rarely, individuals, to be seen at work in the fields; the sparse traffic was lorries, large or small, and occasional buses, but with never a private car to be seen. My illusion, I reflected, was remarkably consistent in its details. Not a single group of Amazons, for instance, failed to raise its right hands in friendly, respectful greeting to the pink car.

Once, w crossed a cutting. Looking down from the bridge I thought at first that we were over the dried bed of a canal, but then I noticed a post leaning at a crazy angle among the grass and weeds: most of its attachments had fallen off, but there were enough left to identify it as a railway signal.

We passed through one concentration of identical blocks which was in size, though in no other way, quite a town, and then, two or three miles further on, ran through an ornamental gateway into a kind of park.

In one way it was not unlike the estate we had left, for everything was meticulously tended; the lawns like velvet, the flowerbeds vivid with spring blossoms, but it differed essentially in that the buildings were not blocks. They were houses, quite small for the most part, and varied in style, often no larger than roomy cottages. The place had a subduing effect on my small companions; for the first time they left off chattering, and gazed about them with obvious awe.

The driver stopped once to enquire the way of an overailed Amazon who was striding along with a hod on her shoulder. She directed us, and gave me a cheerful, respectful grin through the window, and presently we drew up again in front of a neat little two-story Regencystyle house.