He found the letter tucked away with some other correspondence in a leather portfolio. It wasn’t sealed, and at first he was unsure what he was reading. Not long after, when he was packed off to boarding school near Oxford, he took the letter with him, a guard against loneliness. It had worked. The disembodied voice of his mother—recorded in her distinctive handwriting, with its looping p’s and g’s and y’s—had blunted his sense of isolation. She’d been with him, watching over him.
It was a long letter, and in it she spelled out the story of her life, everything from her childhood in the countryside near Versailles to the comical first encounter with his father in the lobby of the apartment building in Paris. She went to great pains to say that he (although she used the neutral “you” throughout) was the product of a fine and fulsome love affair, and she signed off with a line of French that made no sense to him whatsoever.
Had his French teacher been some creaky old chap in a tweed jacket, he probably wouldn’t have sought him out and asked for a translation. Mademoiselle Leckford, as Lucinda was known, had offered an altogether different prospect. She was young and pretty, and all the boys were a little in love with her. Max copied out the line on a piece of paper, which he presented to her after a class:Tu aurais été ma vie
She scrutinized it a moment before asking, “Where does it come from?” Seeing that the question unsettled him, she quickly added, “You don’t have to say.”
But he told her anyway. It was good to have the excuse to tell someone about his mother and the letter she had written him, especially someone like Mademoiselle Leckford.
“It means …,” she said softly, peering down at him with a strange look in her eyes. “It means, ‘You would have been my life.’”
“Oh.”
She turned away, staring out the window. “Now run along, Chadwick.”
Only later did he learn that she had turned her back on him because she hadn’t wanted him to see the tears building in her eyes.
Of course, the pity felt by an adult for a ten-year-old boy could hardly be dignified with the name of friendship, but it had nonetheless been the start of something enduring and important for both of them.
“I still see her,” said Max, speaking of Lucinda. “And maybe I’m still a bit in love with her.”
“That’ll do me,” Elliott replied. “I like that. It’s a good story. Very revealing.”
“If you say so.”
“Oh, I do.”
Only when the plates were cleared away did they broach the subject they both knew they’d been avoiding, and it was Elliott who took the initiative.
“Recovered from the meeting yesterday?”
“Oh, that’s what it was. Seemed more like a court-martial to me.”
“From where I was sitting too.”
“Where exactly were you sitting?”
Elliott leaned back in his chair. “Put it this way: I can see both sides.”
“You think I can’t? You know what I did when Freddie first showed me the shoulder tab?”
“No, but I can guess. You thought about getting rid of it.”
Max was momentarily thrown by the response. “And what would you have done?”
“Same as you, probably—thought about it, changed my mind, snooped around a bit. The only difference is, I wouldn’t have got caught.”
“Well, bully for you.”
Elliott shrugged the comment aside. “I’m trained for that kind of thing. You’re an architect with a gift for writing the kind of upbeat bullshit that people want to hear at times like this.”
“If you’re trying to put me in my place, you’re doing a pretty good job—better than Colonel Gifford, even.”
“Gifford’s about as subtle as an anvil. I told him you couldn’t be strong-armed.”
“Well, he proved you wrong.”
“Did he? I doubt it. My guess is you’ve thought about nothing else since then … and what you’re going to do about it now.”
“What do you care?” said Max warily.
“You think I’m completely without principles?”
It was a typical play from Elliott, answering a question with a question. Nevertheless, Max reached into his hip pocket and pulled out a folded piece of paper. Elliott took it from him, angling it at the light from the candles.
Max had scribbled three questions on it: Where does he find them? Where did he take Carmela Cassar? Why does he do it? He had put a line through the last of these.
“Interesting,” said Elliott. “But why cross out the last one?”
“Because it’s imponderable. Who knows why he does it? Some sick urge buried away deep inside him.”
“Him?” asked Elliott. “Why not them?”
The thought hadn’t occurred to Max. “I just assumed …”
“Well, don’t. Wethern’s Law of Suspended Judgment: assumption is the mother of all screwups.” Elliott pointed to the third item on Max’s list. “For all you know, this is the key to it all. Don’t dismiss it.”
“I don’t understand.”
“Jeez, your ignorance is refreshing. I’m saying, what if he’s doing it for reasons other than self-gratification? What if he’s looking to destabilize the situation here? What if he’s working for the enemy and the whole thing is one big setup, all part of a plan to turn the Maltese against you, to break the special relationship?”
“Now you’re sounding like Ralph. He sees spies and fifth columnists everywhere.”
“Ralph is right to be on his guard. They are here. I can tell you that for nothing.”
It was a big statement, and one that raised more questions, but Max tried to remain focused on the issue.
“Freddie said there was evidence of sexual interference.”
“Ah …”
“So either this person—or persons—takes his job very seriously, or he’s getting some kind of pleasure from it.”
“Maybe both.”
“Now you’re reaching.”
“It’s possible, though.”
“Anything’s possible under what’s-his-name’s rule. It’s okay to make assumptions if they’re based on evidence.”
“What evidence? One trip to the sub base?” Elliott paused to allow his words to sink in. “I called Tommy Ravilious this afternoon. Don’t worry, I played my cards close. He still thinks the sun shines out of your skinny fundament.”
“Thank God for that. I can sleep easy tonight.”
“I don’t know,” said Elliott, glancing up at the cloudless sky. “That’s a ‘bomber’s moon.’ I wouldn’t bank on any of us sleeping easy tonight.” Looking back at Max, he asked, “So? Do the dates match with when the Upstanding was in port?”
“Of course. That’s not the sort of slip an enemy agent would make.”
Elliott regarded him with a look that hovered on the fringes of disappointment. “I’ve got to say, I’m surprised at your skepticism.”
“I don’t like to leap to assumptions.”
“Touché,” said Elliott with a little nod. “But maybe they’re more than just assumptions. Maybe I know more than I’m letting on.”
Max swirled the wine in his glass, staring at it, pensive.
“I think I can see what you’re doing,” Max said eventually.
“Enlighten me.”
“It’s complicated.”
“So boil it down.”
Colonel Gifford’s threats might not have worked, but if Max could be made to believe there were other factors at play, things far beyond his understanding, then maybe that would persuade him to back off, especially if he thought that by taking the matter further he would only be playing into the enemy’s hands, serving their nefarious cause. Elliott was simply finishing the job that Gifford had started.
Elliott listened attentively to the theory before announcing, “You’re wrong. As far as I’m concerned, what you get up to is your own business. But this”—he wagged the sheet of paper at Max—“is taking you nowhere fast. I mean, look at it. Where did he take Carmela Cassar? It’s the wrong question. Valetta’s a ghost town, so are the Three Cities, even Sliema and Gzira. Most of the people have left. He’s got options coming out of his ears. The question should be: How did he take her there?”