‘Little proof of it so far,’ complained the woman.
That was the trouble, thought Willoughby. Proof.
‘Give him time,’ he said unthinkingly.
‘I thought that was what we didn’t have.’
‘No,’ admitted the underwriter ‘We don’t.’
‘You won’t forgot, Rupert, will you?’
‘No,’ he promised. ‘I won’t forget.’
‘A week’s warning, at least.’
‘A week’s warning,’ he agreed. Why was it, he wondered, that he didn’t feel distaste for this woman?
10
Jenny Lin Lee had pulled her hair forward and because she sat with her legs folded beneath her it practically concealed her body. He was still able to see that beneath the white silk cheongsam she was naked.
She took the glass from him, making sure that their hands touched.
‘I got the impression last night that you didn’t drink,’ he said.
‘Robert needs a sober guardian.’
‘ Where is he now?’
‘At the weekly dinner of the businessmen’s club,’ said Jenny disdainfully. ‘One of the few places that will still let him in.’
Purposely she moved her hair aside, so that more of her body was visible. She looked very young, he thought.
‘There are some that don’t?’ he asked.
‘Apparently.’ She shrugged, an uncaring gesture.
‘Why?’
‘You mean he didn’t tell you?’ she demanded, revolving the glass so that the ice clattered against the sides.
‘Tell me what?’
‘The great embarrassment of Robert Nelson’s life,’ she intoned, deepening her voice to a mock announcement. ‘He’s in love with a Chinese whore.’
It was an interesting performance, thought Charlie. So it had been a professionalism he’d recognised the previous night. Why, he wondered, had it been so difficult for him to identify? He of all people. Not that he would have used the word to describe her. Because she wasn’t. Not like the girl in front of him.
‘ Say hello to your uncle, Charlie, there’s a good boy… what’s your name again, love? ’
But not a whore. Never have called her that. Not now. She hadn’t even taken money, not unless it was offered her. And only then if the rent were due or the corner store were refusing any more credit or some new school uniform were needed. And she would always describe it as a loan. Actually put scribbled IOUs in the coronation mug on the dresser. He’d found fifty there, when his mother had died. All carefully dated. And dozens more in the biscuit tin, the one in which she put the rent money and the hire purchase instalments. One of the names, he supposed, had been that of his father. She wouldn’t have known, of course. Not for certain. She would have been able to remember them all, though. Because to her they hadn’t been casual encounters. None of them.
He didn’t believe she’d wanted physical love. Not too much anyway. It was just that in her simple, haphazard way, she couldn’t think how else it would enter, except through the bedroom door.
She’d tried to explain, pleading with him. She’d been crying and he’d thought the mascara streaks had looked like Indian warpaint.
He’d been the National Service prodigy then. Transferred because of his brilliance as an aerial photographer from R.A.F. Intelligence to the department that Sir Archibald was creating.
And so very impressed with the accents and the attitudes of the university entrants. Impressed with everything, in fact. And so anxious to belong. He hadn’t challenged them, of course. Not yet. That had been the time when he was still trying to ape their talk and their habits, unaware of their amusement.
And been frightened that the sniffling, sobbing woman who didn’t even have the comfort now of any more uncles would endanger his selection because of the security screening he knew was taking place.
‘ Can’t you understand what it’s like to be lonely, Charlie… to want somebody you can depend on, who won’t notice when you’re getting old… ’
He’d grimaced at the mascara. And called her ugly. The one person who could have given her the friendship she’d wanted, he thought. And he hadn’t understood. Any more than he’d understood what Edith had wanted from him, until it was too late. Why had he never been able to dream Edith’s dreams?
How long, he wondered, would it take Robert Nelson?
‘Strayed outside the well-ordered system,’ he quoted.
She nodded.
‘The Eleventh Commandment,’ said Jenny. ‘Thou shalt fuck the natives but not be seen doing it.’
‘And you don’t love him?’
‘What’s love got to do with being a whore?’
‘Very little.’
‘He’s convenient,’ she said. ‘And the bed’s clean.’
‘Do you really despise him?’
‘I despise being paraded around, to garden parties where people won’t talk to me and to clubs where I’m ignored, so he can show me off like someone who’s recovered from a terminal illness.’
‘Why don’t you tell him that?’
‘I have. He says I’m imagining it and he wants me to be accepted.’
‘Why not leave?’
‘Like I said,’ she sniggered, ‘the bed’s clean. And the money is regular.’
‘But not enough?’
‘There’s never enough money… that’s one of Lucky Lu’s favourite expressions.’
Charlie slowly lowered himself into a chair facing the girl, feeling the first tingle of familiar excitement.
‘I hadn’t heard that,’ he encouraged.
‘You’d be amazed, with all the publicity, at the things people haven’t heard about Lucky Lu.’
The entry into the society that everyone said would be denied him? Charlie frowned. He’d always suspected things that came too easily.
‘Like what?’ he prompted.
‘You got money?’ asked the girl.
‘As much as you want,’ offered Charlie, misunderstanding the demand.
She stood, smiling.
‘You spend a lot and you get a lot,’ she promised, walking towards the bedroom.
Charlie remained crouched forward in the chair, momentarily confused. Before Edith’s death, there had been many affairs, the sex sometimes as loveless as that being offered by the woman who had disappeared into the bedroom. But for almost two years there had been a celibacy of grief. He’d always known it would end. But not like this. Mechanically almost. But she had hinted a knowledge about Lu of which even Nelson seemed unaware; a knowledge he’d never learn if he rejected her.
‘I don’t believe you can reach from there,’ she called.
He grimaced at the awkward coarseness, then stood hesitantly, walking towards the bedroom. There was nothing, he realised. No lust. No feeling. Certainly not desire. Just apprehension.
She’d discarded the cheongsam and was sitting back on her heels, near the top of the bed. She’d swept her hair forward again, covering herself except for her breasts, which pouted through like pink-nosed puppies.
‘You only keep your clothes on for short-time. You don’t want a short-time, do you?’
Rehearsed words, he thought. Like prompt cards in a child’s classroom. Would his mother have ever been like this? No, he decided. She wouldn’t have even known the expressions. He was sure she wouldn’t.
Reluctantly he took off his jacket and tie, edging on to the bed.
‘What do you know about Lu?’ he asked. He wouldn’t be able to make love to her, he knew.
She put her hands on his thigh, feeling upwards, then gazing at him, pulling her mouth into an artificially mournful expression.
‘That’s not very flattering for a girl,’ she complained. Immediately there was the prostitute’s smile.
‘We’ll soon improve that,’ she promised.
She moved her hand up, reaching through his shirt, then stopped.
‘What’s that?’
Charlie looked down.
‘String vest,’ he said.
‘A what!’
‘String vest. Supposed to keep you cool in hot weather.’
‘Good God!’
She began to laugh, genuinely now, and he smiled with her.
‘Doesn’t seem to work, either.’
‘Let me see,’ she insisted.