“While I sort this out, yes. And meantime I’ve developed a habit of walking past that building once in a while. Last Friday I spent a couple hours up at the next corner. There’s another coffeehouse there. It’s an okay place to sit. And toward the end of the afternoon, when I’m getting cold and beginning to feel ridiculous—and not for the first time, believe me—I see someone turn up at that door. And those pictures show what I saw.”
“Do you have any more?”
He shook his head. “I didn’t want to be too obvious. Surveillance is not my field. Plus, there were some ominous street people walking around, and I don’t have your easy manner with them. I stayed the hell back and just snapped those two pictures. Never got a decent look at the guy. Honestly.”
The door to the bar opened, and a group of parched-looking individuals entered in a brief glare of light. The start of the lunchtime crowd. Fisher sat in silence as I watched, though I was not really seeing them. In my mind’s eye, I could see two people, a man and a woman, close together as they headed down a street.
I stubbed out my cigarette. “I want to see the originals of the photographs you took.”
Fisher promptly pulled a small digital camera from his pocket, popped the memory card, and handed it to me. “Does this mean…?”
“For now yes,” I said. “Give me everything you have on Bill Anderson. Then go away and leave me alone.”
chapter
TWENTY-ONE
Todd Crane was sitting in his office. Most of his desk was lost under paper, which was in turn covered with bullet-pointed lists and slogans and sketches. He was supposed to have read, digested, and commented on it all. Creative teams were standing by. A pile of DVDs from commercial directors stood to one side. He was supposed to have watched all these, too, and passed down his views so that account handlers and production managers could get busy with checking availability and fees and booking talent and generally kicking KC&H toward further glorious triumphs in the pursuit of getting people to buy shit they didn’t actually need.
He had done none of these things.
Instead he’d turned his chair to face the big window and was gazing blankly down across Elliott Bay. From up here you could see the piers, the roof of the market building hard to the right, and the sprawling docks over on the far left. Behind all this was the gray-blue expanse of the bay itself, and beyond that the cloud-shrouded Olympic Mountains. For many years Todd and a few college buddies had a habit of spending a long weekend every year in the forests of those mountains, hiking and drinking beer in moderation and openly one-upping each other on material success. He couldn’t remember the last time this had happened. Six years, seven? Ten? Could be. In time, presumably, the memory would become a pleasurable thing, another example of the life-affirming activity he’d enjoyed as part of the richness of his existence, further evidence that you could—if you possessed character and money (and a tolerant wife)—live within one long advertisement for your own life.
But right now it felt like something that was slipping away, like the idea that he would ever become fluent in French or visit the carved-rock temples of Petra or play decent finger-style blues guitar. He didn’t even really know why these things were important to him, or ever had been. He’d just assumed they’d happen sooner or later, that they’d be part of his life. For some reason he was no longer sure of that.
Sitting on the floor in one corner of the office was an old radio, which he’d come across in his den a few weeks before. It had been a present from his parents, back when Todd was in his early twenties. An upscale device, a significant gift from two people now both dead. It worked for a couple years, then stopped. It was likely that the problem was minor, and radios were easy and economical to fix, but somehow in thirty years he hadn’t gotten around to it. It had sat on shelves, in drawers, drifting in and out of awareness, never formally sidelined or retired, forever on the verge of repair. It was absurd. He’d brought it into the office a week ago, in the hope that this would galvanize him to getting the job done. Yet there it sat. Maybe it was just never going to get fixed. Maybe life held a lot of things like that.
Todd turned irritably from the view. He was fifty-four years old, for God’s sake. Barely middle-aged these days. So why did it feel like life was beginning to get away from him? Why was he becoming prone to notice the things he had not done instead of the multitude of things he had achieved? He wasn’t sleeping well. He knew that this had nothing to do with the pincer movement of projects represented by the mess on his desk. He’d been busy all his life and slept like a baby ninety-nine nights out of a hundred. So what was the problem? Faced with no rational explanation, his famously creative mind had offered up several that made little sense. He’d become convinced for a few weeks earlier in the year, for example, that when he walked the streets of this city, something felt different about them. That they seemed unseasonably crowded. He’d even briefly taken to sitting outside coffeehouses in the midafternoon, ostensibly to work in peace, in fact to monitor the number of people on the streets. When he did this, he could see that they were not crowded at all. His analyst was no help. She never had been, with anything, even during the five months they slept together. The fact that they’d now successfully regained a straightforward therapeutic relationship suggested to Todd that neither the sex nor the therapy had ever made much impact on either of them.
Another thing that hadn’t helped was the visit of the ex-cop. Amy’s husband. There was something about the man that made you want to build a high wall around you. More unsettling still, Todd believed that the man had not been telling the truth. He didn’t believe that Whalen had the faintest idea of what his wife was doing in Seattle, and he didn’t buy the lost-phone story either. But it was likely that Amy had actually been in town; her husband didn’t seem the kind of guy who’d be wrong about something like that. So what had she been doing here? A side deal? Possibly, in which case he didn’t care. But maybe it wasn’t that simple. Maybe it had to do with other matters. Something told him this was more likely, especially considering the fact that Bianca had on that afternoon deflected another man, who had come to ask questions about a certain building. Something told him that it was this that was creating the hard, dark lesion in his stomach, that people were knocking on the door of a part of his life he’d never really understood.
He had never been a man prey to self-doubt or prone to concern about the passage of time. But now he was. And why would that be, unless it was something about this past that was bothering him?
He’d finally begun dealing with the paperwork when he was startled by the buzzing of the intercom. He stabbed the button.
“Christ, yes?”
“It’s Jenni, at reception?”
Todd considered reminding her that everyone except Bianca had been advised not to bother him with anything short of world-shaking news. Unfortunately, he believed he had a reputation as a good boss, which meant only chewing out the staff once in a very great while. He’d realized long ago that being a good boss sucked, but it was too late to break the habit. “What is it, Jenni?”
“There’s somebody here from Meadow’s school,” she said. “They’d like to talk to you.”
He frowned. Someone from his youngest daughter’s school? “What do they want?”
“She wishes to speak with you privately.”
Todd told her to bring the person up. He grabbed the phone to call Livvie, to see if she knew what was going on, but then remembered that his wife had Pilates or yoga or some other body magic this afternoon. It didn’t matter. He hadn’t gotten to be CEO of the Pacific Northwest’s most profitable advertising agency without being able to deal with people unbriefed. And there was a limit to how much trouble a twelve-year-old could have gotten into, surely.