“The night is ours,” he says, turning toward her, and his eyes are bright again. “Where shall we go?”
Home, she thinks, though she cannot say it.
She looks up at the skyscrapers, surging to either side.
“Which one,” she wonders, “has the best view?”
After a moment, Luc smiles, flashing teeth, and says, “Follow me.”
Over the years, Addie has learned many of the city’s secrets.
But here is one she did not know.
It resides not underground, but on a roof.
Eighty-four stories up, reached by a pair of elevators, the first one nondescript and rising only to the eighty-first floor. The second, a direct replica of Rodin’s Gates of Hell, with its writhing bodies, clawing to escape, takes you the rest of the way.
If you have a key.
Luc draws the black card from his shirt pocket and slides it into a yawning mouth along the elevator’s frame.
“Is this one of yours?” she asks as the doors slide open.
“Nothing is really mine,” he says by way of answer as they step inside.
It is a short ascent, three brief floors, and when it stops, the doors open onto an uninterrupted view of the city.
The bar’s name winds in black letters at her feet.
THE LOW ROAD.
Addie rolls her eyes. “Was Perdition taken?”
“Perdition,” he says, eyes sparkling with mischief, “is a different kind of club.”
The floors are bronze, the railings glass, and the ceiling open to the sky, and people mill on velvet sofas and dip their feet in shallow pools, and linger along the balconies that ring the roof, admiring the city.
“Mr. Green,” says the hostess. “Welcome back.”
“Thank you, Renee,” he says smoothly. “This is Adeline. Give her anything she wants.”
The hostess looks to her, but there is no compulsion in her eyes, no sense that she has been enchanted, only the cooperation of an employee, one very good at her job. Addie asks for the most expensive drink, and Renee grins at Luc. “You’ve found yourself a match.”
“I have,” he says, resting his hand on the small of Addie’s back as he guides her forward. She quickens her step until it falls away, and weaves through the milling crowd to the glass rail, looking out over Manhattan. There are no stars visible, of course, but New York rolls away to every side, its own galaxy of light.
Up here, at least, she can breathe.
It is the easy laughter of the crowd. The ambient noise of people enjoying themselves, so much nicer than the stifled quiet of the empty restaurant, the cloistered silence of the car. It is the sky opening above her. The beauty of the city to every side, and the fact they are not alone.
Renee returns with a bottle of Champagne, a visible film of dust coating the glass.
“Dom Perignon, 1959,” she explains, holding the bottle out for inspection. “From your private case, Mr. Green.”
Luc waves his hand, and she opens the bottle, pouring two flutes, the bubbles so small they look like flecks of diamond in the glass.
Addie sips, savors the way it sparkles on her tongue.
She scans the crowd, filled with the kinds of faces you would recognize, even though you’re not sure where you’ve seen them. Luc points them out to her, those senators, and actors, authors and critics, and she wonders if any of them have sold their soul. If any of them are about to.
Addie looks down into her glass, the bubbles still rising smoothly to the surface, and when she speaks, the words are barely more than a whisper, the sound stolen by the chattering crowd. But she knows he is listening, knows he can hear her.
“Let him go, Luc.”
His mouth tightens a fraction. “Adeline,” he warns.
“You told me you would listen.”
“Fine.” He leans back against the rail and spreads his arms. “Tell me. What do you see in him, this latest human lover?”
Henry Strauss is thoughtful, and kind, she wants to say. He is clever, and bright, gentle, and warm.
He is everything you’re not,
But Addie knows she must tread lightly.
“What do I see in him?” she says. “I see myself. Not who I am now, perhaps, but who I was, the night you came to rescue me.”
Luc scowls. “Henry Strauss wanted to die. You wanted to live. You are nothing alike.”
“It’s not that simple.”
“Isn’t it?”
Addie shakes her head. “You see only flaws and faults, weaknesses to be exploited. But humans are messy, Luc. That is the wonder of them. They live and love and make mistakes, and they feel so much. And maybe—maybe I am no longer one of them.”
The words tear through her as she says them, because she knows this much is true. For better or worse.
“But I remember,” she presses on. “I remember what it’s like, and Henry is—”
“Lost.”
“He is searching,” she counters. “And he will find his way, if you let him.”
“If I let him,” says Luc, “he would have leapt off a roof.”
“You don’t know that,” she says. “You never will, because you intervened.”
“I am in the business of souls, Adeline, not second chances.”
“And I am begging you to let him go. You will not give me mine, so give me his, instead.”
Luc exhales, and sweeps his hand across the roof. “Choose someone,” he says.
“What?”
He turns her to face the crowd. “Choose a soul to take his place. Pick a stranger. Damn one of them instead.” His voice is low and smooth and certain. “There is always a cost,” he says gently. “A price must be paid. Henry Strauss bartered his own soul. Would you sell someone else’s to have it back?”
Addie stares out at the crowded roof, the faces she recognizes and the ones she doesn’t. Young and old, together and alone.
Are any innocent?
Are any cruel?
Addie does not know if she can do it—until her hand drifts up. Until she points to a man in the crowd, heart plunging through her stomach as she waits for Luc to let go of her, to step forward, and claim his price.
But Luc doesn’t move.
He only laughs.
“My Adeline,” he says, kissing her hair. “You have changed more than you think.”
She feels dizzy and ill as she twists to face him.
“No more games,” she says.
“All right,” he says, just before he pulls her into the dark.
The roof drops away, and the void surges up around her, swallowing everything but a starless sky, an infinite, violent black. And when it withdraws again an instant later, the world is silent, and the city is gone, and she is alone in the woods.
XIV
New Orleans, Louisiana
May 1, 1984
This is how it ends.
With candles burning on the sill, unsteady light casting long shadows across the bed. With the blackest part of night stretching beyond the open window, and the first blush of summer on the air, and Addie in Luc’s arms, the darkness draped around her like a sheet.
And this, she thinks, is home.
This, perhaps, is love.
And that is the worst part. She has finally forgotten something. Only it is the wrong thing. It is the one thing she was supposed to remember. That the man in the bed is not a man. That the life is not a life. That there are games, and battles, but in the end, it is all a kind of war.
A touch like teeth along her jaw.
The darkness whispering against her skin. “My Adeline.”
“I am not yours,” she says, but his mouth only smiles against her throat.