If Ship could be considered to feel excitement, that was the moment for it and Kerro sensed this. There had been a pattern to the way Ship supplied information to him, and it was a pattern which only a poet might recognize. He was being trained, sensitized, to ask the right question.... even of himself.
As he waited at Shipbay Fifty, the questions were obvious, but he did not like some of the answers those questions suggested.
Why were they keeping him waiting? It signaled a callous attitude toward their fellows. And what use had the Colony found for a poet? Communication? Or were Hali's fears to be believed?
The hatch in front of him scissored open with a faint swish of servosystems and a voice called out: "Hurry it up!"
Panille recognized the voice and tried not to show surprise as he stepped through into a reception room and heard the hatch seal behind him. Automatics. And yes, it was the bumbler, Doctor Winslow Ferry.
With his recent analysis of Ferry, Panille tried to see the man sympathetically. It was difficult. Painful powers centered on this room, which was functional shipside standard: two hatches in metal walls, instruments in their racks, no ports. The room was blocked by a low barrier and a large com-console behind which Ferry sat. A gate on the right led to a hatch in the far wall.
It occurred to Panille that Ferry was old for shipside. He had watery gray eyes full of false boredom, puffy cheeks. His breath gave off a heavy floral perfume. There was slyness in his voice.
"Brought your own recorder, I see." He punched a notation into the com-console which shielded him from the waist down.
Ferry glanced at the shipcloth bag on Panille's shoulder. "What else you bring?"
"Personal possessions, clothe.... a few keepsakes."
"Hrrrm." Ferry made another notation. "Let's see."
The distrust in this order shocked Panille. He put the bag on a flat counter beside the com-console, watched while Ferry pawed through the contents. Panille resented every stranger-touch on intimate possessions. It became obvious after a time that Ferry was searching for things which could be used as weapons. The rumors were true, then. The people around Oakes feared for their own flesh.
Ferry held up the flexible net of silver rolled into its tie bands. "Wha's 's?"
"I use that when I'm writing my poetry. Ship gave it to me."
Ferry put it onto the counter with care, went back to examining the rest of the bag's contents. Some items of clothing he passed beneath a lens behind him and studied details in a scanner whose shields prevented anyone else from seeing what he saw. Occasionally, he made notations in the com-console.
Panille looked at the silver net. What was Ferry going to do with it? He could not take it!
Ferry spoke over his shoulder while examining more of Panille's clothing under the scanner lens.
"You think the ship's God?"
The "ship"? The usage surprised Panille. ".... yes."
And he thought back to that one conversation he had had with Ship on the subject. That had been a test, too. Ship was God and God was Ship. Ship could do things mortal flesh could no.... at least while remaining mortal flesh. Normal dimensions of space dissolved before Ship. Time carried no linear restrictions for Ship.
I, too, am God, Doctor Winslow Ferry. But I am not Shi.... Or am I? And you, dear Doctor, what are you?
No doubting the origin of Ferry's question. Ship's godhead remained an open question with many. There had been a time when Ship was the ship, of course. Everyone knew that from the history which Ship taught. Ship had been a vehicle for mortal intelligence once. The ship had existed in the limited dimensions which any human could sense, and it had known a destination. It also had known a history of madness and violence. The.... the ship had encountered the Holy Void, that reservoir of chaos against which all beings were required to measure themselves.
Ship's history was cloudy with migrations and hints at a paradise planet somewhere awaiting humankind.
But Ferry was revealed as one of the doubters, one who questioned Ship's version of history. Such doubts thrived because Ship did not censure them. The only time Panille had referred to the doubts, Ship had responded clearly and with a creative style to inspire a poet.
"What is the purpose of doubts, Panille?"
"To test data."
"Can you test this historical data with your doubts?"
That required thought and Panille answered after a long pause. "You are my only source."
"Have I ever given you false data?"
"I've found no falsehoods."
"Does that silence these doubts?"
"No."
"Then what can you do with such doubts?"
That involved more careful thought and a longer pause before answering. "I put them aside until a moment arrives when they may be tested."
"Does that change your relationship with Me?"
"Relationships change constantly."
"Ahhh, I cherish the company of poets."
Panille was shaken out of this memory by the realization that Ferry had spoken to him several times.
"I said, 'Wha's 's?'"
Panille looked at the object in Ferry's hand.
"It was my mother's comb."
"The stuff! The material?"
"Tortoise shell. It came from Earth."
There was no mistaking the avaricious glint in Ferry's eyes. "Wel.... I dunno about this."
"It's a keepsake from my mother, one of the few things I have left. If you take it I'll lodge a formal complaint with Ship."
Ferry betrayed definite anger, his eyes squinted, his hand trembled with the comb. But his gaze strayed to the silver net. He knew the stories about this poet; this one talked to the ship in the quiet of the night and the ship answered.
Once more, Ferry made a notation within the shielded secrecy of his com-console, then delivered himself of his longest speech: "You're assigned groundside to Waela TaoLini and it serves you right. There's a freighter waiting in Fifty-B. Take it. She'll meet you groundside."
Panille stuffed his belongings back into the bag while Ferry watched with growing amusement. Did he take something while I was daydreaming? Panille wondered. He preferred the man's anger to his amusement but there was no way to take everything out of the bag once more to check it. No way. What had happened to the people around Oakes? Panille had never seen such slyness and greed in a Shipman. And the smell of that stuff on his breath! Dead flowers. Panille sealed the bag.
"Go on, they're waiting," Ferry said. "Don't waste our time."
Panille heard the hatch open once more behind him. He could feel Ferry's gaze on him all the way out of the reception room.
Waela TaoLini? He had never heard the name before. Then: Serve me right?
***
Beware, for I am fearless and therefore powerful. I will watch with the wiliness of a snake, that I may sting with its venom. You shall repent of the injuries you inflict.
OAKES SAT in shadows watching the holographic replay. He was nervous and irritated. Where was Lewis?
Behind him and slightly to his left stood Legata Hamill. The dim glow of the projector underlighted their features. Both of them stared intently at the action in the holofocus.
The scene holding their attention revealed the main finger passage behind Shipbay Nineteen and leading out to one of the tree-domes. Kerro Panille accompanied by Hali Ekel walked toward the pickup which had caught the scene. The treedome could be glimpsed in the background framed by the end of the passage. Ekel carried her pribox over one shoulder, its harness held loosely by her right hand. Panille wore a recorder at his hip and a small bag from which protruded notepad and stylus. He was dressed in a white one-piece which set off his long hair and beard. The hair was bound in a golden ring, plaited and with the tip draped down his chest on the left. Issue boots covered his feet.