At 2200 hours, dead center in the eight-to-twelve watch, the stories faltered, the flaring and somehow suddenly beautiful incandescent lights went out, and the red nightlights were switched on. They signaled the approach of grayness. Watch-standers on the bridge and in the engine room turned the incandescent lights up in those spaces, rolled pencils across the faces of log sheets, listened suspiciously to normal sounds; but through the rest of the ship the red lights threw pale shadows that grew increasingly grotesque.
“Nobody’ s talking,” Mother Lamp confided seriously to Howard. “It’s like the boys are pretending t’isn’t there.”
“Maybe it’s behind your shoulder, cook.”
“You’ve got a smart mouth,” Lamp said, “but you’re not smart about this. This has the same feel of something that happened once in Hong Kong.”
“There aren’t enough Chinese in Hong Kong to match the number of times I’ve heard about Hong Kong.”
“You haven’t heard this.” Lamp seemed attentive to an inner voice, a communication rising from some heretofore great void, the cold of which only he had suspected. He shook his red-blond-haired head, looked at Howard like a mother doing her best to dote on an idiot child. Then his face changed. He was nearly timid, certainly sad. “I know you don’t like me much. It’s okay. Nobody hired you to.”
“I just give you a hard time, cook.” Howard was caught with the unease of a man who has stumped his toe on a fact. “Sometimes you make too much of things.”
“Sometimes I do,” Lamp said. “So do you.”
“We all do,” Howard said magnanimously.
“No, we don’t. Lots don’t. But you do, and I do.”
“What happened in Hong Kong?”
“You’re right,” Lamp said. “I’m making too much of a thing.” He refused to tell the story. The refusal, with even less precedent than men walking on unfrozen water, pressed Howard into silence.
The week seemed saturated with gray chill and green paint. Cutter Abner sent no messages about the haunt. That was left to the fate-stricken skipper of Ezekiel who was sitting above a load of fish packed in rapidly decaying ice. The skipper talked to fishermen friends on the radio as he watched Abner’s stern disappear at flank speed to assist the burning Clara. “Won’t even do for fertilize’,” Ezekiel’s skipper said. “Going to try to hang on, chum, but I make it that we’ll have to pitch the whole catch overboard. We got this jinx boat swingin’ alongside.” Long before Abner, trailing its string of refugees, made the Portland Lightship, the nub of the story and its amplifications had entered the bars.
“They were heads-up and lucky,” Abner’s yeoman Wilson told Howard. “The fire in the Clara started in wiring in the engine spaces. They got it out, but they had structural damage aft.”
“It caused some heat aboard our ship,” Howard told him. “The new kid got a burn.”
Brace, wearing the aroma of turpentine, and with stiff green hair, came off the four-to-eight and went to the messdeck to eat before making his renewed attack on spilled paint. In the wardroom which lay forward of the messdeck on the starboard side, with the ship’s office sitting between, Levere, Dane, and Snow discussed timber for emergency shoring. Dane sat toad-silent, listening, respectful of Snow. To the surprise and provisional despair of some, Dane seemed to like Snow completely. Lamp bustled about the galley to port where he made watchstander chow for Brace and engineman striker McClean. Amon peeled spuds and kept an attentive ear cocked toward the wardroom. Brace arrived with a ladder-thumping stomp, intended, no doubt, to announce that—green paint or not—he remained his own man. He drew coffee, sat in his customary place, and slurped in a seamanlike manner; stolid, nearly, as if the presence of a wrinkle on his forehead gave him the responsibility for new reserve. His hands trembled only slightly.
“The problem ain’t technically storage,” said Dane. “But where can we store it so we can get at it fast?”
“Not below, of course,” said Snow. “To be rapidly available it must be abovedeck.”
“Got to keep the working decks clear.”
“Paint it against rot,” Levere said. “Cut it to fit as a false deck for the flying bridge. Secure it with light cable and quick-release gear.”
“That’ll work. Now, how do we get hold of it?”
“There is salvageable scrap stacked behind the Base,” said Snow.
From the galley came the distant voice of Lamp asking watchstander Brace if there were later news on Clara.
Brace’s voice, filled with hatred of paint, with frustration of green hair and stiff clothes, with anguish over the unfair death of dreams, and certainly with the violence that attends confusion, answered in a voice of low and malicious satisfaction.
“That’s one we won’t have to haul. That one isn’t going to cause anybody much more trouble.”
In the wardroom there was momentary silence.
“Excuse me, Captain. Chief.” Snow picked up his coffee mug, stepped through the office and onto the messdeck, a man walking casually on an errand only a little less innocuous than the Creation. Like an inquiring, small brown towhee, he stopped before Brace and peered. Then, with distaste for either the man or the job, he backhanded Brace across the mouth. The blow seemed casual, light, and yet Brace’s head was thrust as sharply as if he had been hit by a hatch cover. Brace recovered, started to rise, sat back down and looked upward at Snow through shock, as if questioning Snow’s fortitude and his own.
“A man had to do that for me once, lad. I think to pass on the favor.”
Brace sat dumb. Snow absentmindedly walked to the coffee urn, refilled his mug, and stepped back into the wardroom. Engineman striker McClean, normally quiet to the point of near idiocy, his long mulatto head and his jug ears as incongruous in society as his narrow fingers and thin wrists were around machinery, understood. “You’ve never seen a fire at sea,” he told Brace.
“Please excuse it, Chief,” Snow said to Dane. “The man is in your section.”
“It’s just against regs, is all,” Dane mumbled.
“This is not the English navy,” Levere said. “It isn’t even the American navy. Did you have to do that, Chief?”
“I suppose I thought I must,” Snow said. “Otherwise I would not.”
Brace stood, nearly stumbled, looked amazed to find himself upright. He rubbed the red flush on his mouth and seemed to be counting his teeth. His eyes adjusted to his upright condition. His mouth pulled into a quavering line, and then his eyes reflected awe, or, it may be, understanding, but they certainly reflected one of the countless varieties of love. He walked in a tentative way through the office and to the open wardroom door. Knocked.
“You’ve been up to your white hat in troubles, sailor.” Levere, normally remote and with full trust in his section leaders, and with a temper that was rare and thus awesome, did not like what he thought was about to happen.
“To speak to Chief Snow, sir.” Brace stood erect, with outthrust and trembling lower jaw, as resolute-seeming (were it not for his green paint) as an advertisement for breakfast cereal. “I apologize,” Brace said. “I deserved it.”
“Indeed you did,” Snow told him, “and the apology is accepted.”
“Why do you apologize?” At close range Levere’s face was always mildly shocking. Beneath the swarthy Frenchness, and under the flesh of the left cheek, a small and ulcerous growth caused one side of his face to seem swollen.
“Because I was wrong—sir.”
“We know that, sailor. Do you understand why?”
Brace mumbled. It was only clear that he understood a compulsion of feeling, and was not, in his scarcely burnished cynicism, able to articulate his feeling.