I didn't say anything for a minute. But I thought, That's what you think, honey. I'm doing you a favor by not beating your head off.
"Answer me, Lou Ford!"
"All right," I said. "I shouldn't have done it."
"You shouldn't have allowed that woman to stay in this county in the first place!"
"No," I nodded. "I shouldn't have."
"Well?"
"I'm not perfect," I snapped. "I make plenty of mistakes. How many times do you want me to say it?"
"Well! All I've got to say is…"
All she had to say would take her the rest of her life to finish; and I wasn't even halfway in the mood for it. I reached out and grabbed her by the crotch.
"Lou! You stop that!"
"Why?" I said.
"Y-you stop it!" She shivered. "You s-stop or… Oh Lou!"
I lay down beside her with my clothes on. I had to do it, because there was just one way of shutting Amy up.
So I laid down and she swarmed up against me. And there wasn't a thing wrong with Amy when she was like that; you couldn't have asked much more from a woman. But there was plenty wrong with me. Joyce Lakeland was wrong with me.
"Lou…" Amy slowed down a little. "What's the matter, dear?"
"All this trouble," I said. "I guess it's thrown me for a loop.,'
"You poor darling. Just forget everything but me, and I'll pet you and whisper to you, mmm? I'll…" She kissed me and whispered what she would do. And she did it. And, hell, she might as well have done it to a fence post.
Baby Joyce had taken care of me, but good.
Amy pulled her hand away, and began brushing it against her hip. Then she snatched up a handful of sheet, and wiped-scrubbed-her hip with it.
"You son-of-a-bitch," she said. "You dirty, filthy bastard."
"Wha-at?" I said. It was like getting a punch in the guts. Amy didn't go in for cussing. At least, I'd never heard her do much.
"You're dirty. I can tell. I can smell it on you. Smell her. You can't wash it off. It'll never come off. You-"
"Jesus Christ!" I grabbed her by the shoulders. "What are you saying, Amy?"
"You screwed her. You've been doing it all along. You've been putting her dirty insides inside of me, smearing me with her. And I'm going to make you pay for it. If it's the 1-last thing I ever d-do, I'll-"
She jerked away from me, sobbing, and jumped out of bed. As I got up, she backed around a chair, putting it between me and her.
"K-keep away from me! Don't you dare touch me!"
"Why, sure, honey," I said. "Whatever you say."
She didn't see the meaning yet of what she'd said. All she could think of was herself, the insult to herself. But I knew that, given enough time-and not much at that- she'd put all the parts of the picture together. She wouldn't have any real proof, of course. All she had to go on was guesswork-intuition-and that operation I'd had: something, thank God, which seemed to have slipped her mind for the moment. Anyway, she'd talk. And the fact that there wasn't any proof for what she said, wouldn't help me much.
You don't need proof, know what I mean? Not from what I've seen of the law in operation. All you need is a tip that a guy is guilty. From then on, unless he's a big shot, it's just a matter of making him admit it.
"Amy," I said. "Amy, honey. Look at me."
"I d-don't want to look at you."
"Look at me… This is Lou, honey, Lou Ford, remember? The guy you've known all your fife. I ask you, now, would I do what you said I did?"
She hesitated, biting her lips. "You did do it." Her voice was just a shade uncertain. "I know you did."
"You don't know anything," I said. "Just because I'm tired and upset, you jump to a crazy conclusion. Why, why would I fool around with some chippy when I had you? What could a dame like that give me that would make me run the risk of losing a girl like you? Huh? Now, that doesn't make sense, does it, honey."
"Well…" That had got to her. It had hit her right in the pride, where she was tenderest. But it wasn't quite enough to jar her loose from her hunch.
She picked up her panties and began putting them on, still standing behind the chair. "There's no use arguing about it, Lou," she said, wearily. "I suppose I can thank my lucky stars that I haven't caught some terrible disease."
"But dammit…!" I moved around the chair, suddenly, and got her in my arms. "Dammit, stop talking that way about the girl I'm going to marry! I don't mind for myself, but you can't say it about her, get me? You can't say that the girl I'm going to marry would sleep with a guy who plays around with whores!"
"Let me go, Lou! Let…" She stopped struggling, abruptly.
"What did you-?"
"You heard me," I said.
"B-but just two days ago-"
"So what?" I said. "No man likes to be yanked into marriage. He wants to do his own proposing, which is just what I'm doing right now. Hell, we've already put it off too long, in my opinion. This crazy business tonight proves it. If we were married we wouldn't have all these quarrels and misunderstandings like we've been having."
"Since that woman came to town, you mean."
"All right," I said. "I've done all I could. If you're willing to believe that about me, I wouldn't want-"
"Wait, Lou!" She hung on to me. "After all, you can't blame me if-" And she let it go at that. She had to give up for her own sake. "I'm sorry, Lou. Of course, I was wrong."
"You certainly were."
"When shall we do it, Lou? Get married, I mean."
"The sooner the better," I lied. I didn't have the slightest intention of marrying her. But I needed time to do some planning, and I had to keep her quiet. "Let's get together in a few days when we're both more ourselves, and talk about it."
"Huh-uh." She shook her head. "Now that you've- we've come to the decision, let's go through with it. Let's talk about it right now."
"But it's getting daylight, honey," I said. "If you're still here even a little while from now, people will see you when you leave."
"I don't care if they do, darling. I don't care a teensyweensie little bit." She snuggled against me, burrowing her head against my chest. And without seeing her face, I knew she was grinning. She had me on the run, and she was getting a hell of a kick out of it.
"Well, I'm pretty tired," I said. "I think I ought to sleep a little while before-"
"I'll make you some coffee, darling. That'll wake you up."
"But, honey-"
The phone rang. She let go of me, not very hurriedly, and I stepped over to the writing desk and picked up the extension.
"Lou?" It was Sheriff Bob Maples.
"Yeah, Bob," I said."What's on your mind?"
He told me, and I said, Okay, and hung up the phone again. Amy looked at me, and changed her mind about popping off.
"Your job, Lou? You've got some work to do?"
"Yeah," I nodded. "Sheriff Bob's driving by to pick me up in a few moments."
"You poor dear! And you so tired! I'll get dressed and get right out."
I helped her dress, and walked to the back door with her. She gave me a couple of big kisses and I promised to call her as soon as I got a chance. She left then, a couple of minutes before Sheriff Maples drove up.
8
The county attorney, Howard Hendricks, was with him, sitting in the back seat of the car. I gave him a coldeyed look and a nod, as I got in the front, and he gave me back the look without a nod. I'd never had much use for him. He was one of those professional patriots, always talking about what a great hero he'd been in the war.
Sheriff Bob put the car in gear, clearing his throat uncomfortably. "Sure hated to bother you, Lou," he said. "Hope I didn't interrupt anything."
"Ndthing that can't wait," I said. "She-I'd already kept her waiting five-six hours."
"You had a date for last night?" asked Hendricks.