"I don't see why not," I said.
"You don't?" His eyes widened. "Well, of course, poor old Descartes, Aristotle, Diogenes, Euclid et al. are dead, but I think you'll find quite a few people around who'll defend their theories. I'm very much afraid, Lou, that they won't go along with your proposition that a body can be in two places at the same time."
"Johnnie ran with a pretty wild crowd," I said. "I figure that one of his buddies stole those tires and gave 'em to him to peddle."
"I see. I see… Lou."
"Why not?" I said. "He was in a good position to get rid of them there at the station. Slim Murphy wouldn't have interfered… Why, hell, it's bound to have been that way, Joe. If he'd have had an alibi for the time of the murders, he'd have told me so, wouldn't he? He wouldn't have hanged himself."
"He liked you, Lou. He trusted you."
"For damned good reasons. He knew I was his friend."
Rothman swallowed, and a sort of laughing sound came out of his throat, the kind of sound you make when you don't quite know whether to laugh or cry or get sore.
"Fine, Lou. Perfect. Every brick is laid straight, and the bricklayer is an honest upstanding mechanic. But still I can't help wondering about his handiwork and him. I can't help wondering why he feels the need to defend his structure of perhapses and maybes, his shelter wall of logical alternatives. I can't see why he didn't tell a certain labor skate to get the hell on about his business."
So… So there it was. I was. But where was he? He nodded as though I'd asked him the question. Nodded, and drew a little bit back in the seat.
"Humpty-Dumpty Ford," he said, "sitting right on top of the labor temple. And how or why he got there doesn't make much difference. You're going to have to move, Lou. Fast. Before someone… before you upset yourself."
"I was kind of figuring on leaving town," I said. "I haven't done anything, but-"
"Certainly you haven't. Otherwise, as a staunch Red Fascist Republican, I wouldn't feel free to yank you from the clutches of your detractors and persecutors-your would-be persecutors, I should say."
"You think that-you think maybe-"
He shrugged, "I think so, Lou. I think you just might have a little trouble in leaving. I think it so strongly that I'm getting in touch with a friend of mine, one of the best criminal lawyers in the country. You've probably heard of him-Billy Boy Walker? I did Billy Boy a favor one time, back East, and he has a long memory for favors, regardless of his other faults."
I'd heard of Billy Boy Walker. I reckon almost everyone has. He'd been governor of Alabama or Georgia or one of those states down south. He'd been a United States senator. He'd been a candidate for president on a Dividethe-Dough ticket. He'd started getting shot at quite a bit about that time, so he'd dropped out of politics and stuck to his criminal law practice. And he was plenty good. All the high mucky-mucks cussed and made fun of him for the way he'd cut up in politics. But I noticed that when they or their kin got into trouble, they headed straight for Billy Boy Walker.
It sort of worried me that Rothman thought I needed that kind of help.
It worried me, and it made me wonder all over again why Rothman and his unions would go to all the trouble of getting me a lawyer. Just what did Rothman stand to lose if the Law started asking me questions? Then I realized that if my first conversation with Rothman should ever come out, any jury in the land would figure he'd sicked me on the late Elmer Conway. In other words, Rothman was saving two necks-his and mine-with one lawyer.
"Perhaps you won't need him," he went on. "But it's best to have him alerted. He's not a man who can make himself available on a moment's notice. How soon can you leave town?"
I hesitated. Amy. How was I going to do it? "I'll-I can't do it right away," I said. "I'll have to kind of drop a hint or two around that I've been thinking about leaving, then work up to it gradually. You know, it would look pretty funny-"
"Yeah," he frowned, "but if they know you're getting ready to jump they're apt to close in all the faster… Still, I can see your point."
"What can they do?" I said. "If they could close in, they'd be doing it already. Not that I've done-"
"Don't bother. Don't say it again. Just move-start moving as quickly as you can. It shouldn't take you more than a couple of weeks at the outside."
Two weeks. Two weeks more for Amy.
"All right, Joe," I said. "And thanks for-for-"
"For what?" He opened the door. "For you, I haven't done a thing."
"I'm not sure I can make it in two weeks. It may take a little-"
"It hadn't better," he said, "take much longer."
He got out and went back to his own car. I waited until he'd turned around and headed back toward Central City; and then I turned around and started back. I drove slowly, thinking about Amy.
Years ago there was a jeweler here in Central City who had a hell of a good business, and a beautiful wife and two fine kids. And one day, on a business trip over to one of the teachers' college towns he met up with a girl, a real honey, and before long he was sleeping with her. She knew he was married, and she was willing to leave it that way. So everything was perfect. He had her and he had his family and a swell business. But one morning they found him and the girl dead in a motel-he'd shot her and killed himself. And when one of our deputies went to tell his wife about it, he found her and the kids dead, too. This fellow had shot 'em all.
He'd had everything, and somehow nothing was better.
That sounds pretty mixed up, and probably it doesn't have a lot to do with me. I thought it did at first, but now that I look at it-well, I don't know. I just don't know.
I knew I had to kill Amy; I could put the reason into words. But every time I thought about it, I had to stop and think why again. I'd be doing something, reading a book or something, or maybe I'd be with her. And all of a sudden it would come over me that I was going to kill her, and the idea seemed so crazy that I'd almost laugh out loud. Then, I'd start thinking and I'd see it, see that it had to be done, and…
It was like being asleep when you were awake and awake when you were asleep. I'd pinch myself, figuratively speaking-I had to keep pinching myself. Then I'd wake up kind of in reverse; I'd go back into the nightmare I had to live in. And everything would be clear and reasonable.
But I still didn't know how to go about doing it. I couldn't figure out a way that would leave me in the clear or even reasonably in the clear. And I sure had to be on this one. I was Humpty-Dumpty, like Rothman had said, and I couldn't jiggle around very much.
I couldn't think of a way because it was a real toughie, and I had to keep remembering the why of it. But finally it came to me.
I found a way, because I had to. I couldn't stall any longer.
It happened three days after my talk with Rothman. It was a payday Saturday, and I should have been working, but somehow I hadn't been able to bring myself to do it. I'd stayed in the house all day with the shades drawn, pacing back and forth, wandering from room to room. And when night came I was still there. I was sitting in Dad's office, with nothing on but the little desk light; and I heard these footsteps moving lightly across the porch, and the sound of the screen door opening.
It was way too early for Amy; but I wasn't jittered any. I'd had people walk in before like this.
I stepped to the door of the office just as he came into the hail.
"I'm sorry, stranger," I said. "The doctor doesn't practice any more. The sign's just there for sentimental reasons."
"That's okay, bud"-he walked right toward me and I had to move back-"it's just a little burn."