Yes, it’s him, all right. She shivers, despite the heat of the day. What’s he doing here? What the hell is he doing here?
Malik seems to be watching the road from behind his sunglasses, scanning it up and down with those laser-beam eyes. The underground is a hundred yards away, but it might as well be a mile. She can’t walk past him. She’s changed, but not so much he won’t recognise her if she’s who he’s looking for.
It might not be, Collette. It could be coincidence. London’s full of Turks; there’s practically one on every street corner. You don’t even know if he works for Tony any more. For all you know, you’re standing in his bar.
Yeah, she thinks. Want to test that theory?
‘Can I help you?’ the barman asks again. He’s going to throw me out in a minute, she thinks. Walks across the wooden floor and buys a glass of Sauvignon. It’s early to be drinking. The place is empty apart from two thirty-something women eating panini and wearing sunglasses. The barman silently pours her drink out, slides it across the counter.
‘Meeting someone?’
‘No,’ she says. ‘Avoiding someone.’
‘Ah,’ he says, and goes back to polishing his glasses. He’s not interested. She’s just another lush finding an excuse to start her day.
She walks back to the doorway. He’s still there, still outside Costcutter, hands crossed over his crotch like a footballer waiting for a penalty, still looking. He scans the road like a Terminator: a slow 180-degree sweep up, down, up, down, the whole movement taking maybe ten seconds.
Look, the whole place is full of people, she thinks. What can he do?
Follow you.
She has to go. She knows that. It’s only a matter of time before he changes his vantage point – he’s not standing on the route from Sunnyvale to Collier’s Wood underground for nothing. He’s not waiting for a girlfriend.
Her hair has grown, and grown out, since they last saw each other, and she’s stopped straightening it and let the natural curl come in. And she’s put on weight. When you ran a bar full of twenty-year-old girls who took their clothes off for a living, keeping yourself awake on coffee and the odd line like everyone else, your natural weight quickly became whippet-like, but it was never a weight that she could have maintained while eating. She’s gone up two full dress sizes since she left, though that still only makes her a twelve. And she’s wearing flat sandals – he’s never seen her in anything other than towering heels. From the back, she reassures herself, I look like a completely different person.
She counts as she watches his scanning technique. Yes, ten seconds. If she leaves as he reaches the apogee of his turning arc, she can get twenty, thirty feet down the road before his eyes hit her back. Far enough that he won’t know her. Far enough that she’ll just be another girl in the street. She walks down to the far side of the restaurant’s bistro folding doors, puts her wine down untouched on a table, waits, counts and exits.
Don’t show fear. They operate on fear. Just keep walking, normal pace, and don’t look back. He’s not going to try anything now, even if he does see you. Stay where there are people and you’ll be safe. It’s when they find out where you live that you’re really in trouble.
She tells herself these things, but she only half believes them. She strides out along Christchurch Road, her footsteps unnaturally loud in her ears, as though she were in an echo chamber. Breathe. Breathe, Collette. They want you to be afraid. You get afraid, you get disorientated. You get disorientated, you make mistakes.
She hears his feet turn on the pavement and start to follow…
Drawn up by the mouth of Christchurch Close is a shiny black Beemer. Tinted windows, chrome accessories, undoubtedly this year’s model. Totally Tony. She can see someone in the driver’s seat, a darker shadow behind the dark glass. Unless Tony’s had a change of staff, it’s most likely the Albanian, Burim. Rough manners, an attitude that says he will settle any disagreement with a knife. Malik’s number two, but never backward in coming forward.
They could take me now, she thinks. The two of them. Take a chance on it and flip me into that car in broad daylight. Where is he? Where’s Malik? I wish I could risk a quick look; see how much he’s caught up. He sounds so close. His heels click and scrape on the surface. Segs. She remembers that he always hammered metal segs into his shoes the moment he bought them. He said they made them wear better. It was only later that she realised that they also inflicted more damage if he felt a need to stamp.
She can’t tell if the figure in the car has seen her. She dips her head and crosses the road. If Burim wants to get her, she’s going to make him leave the car and give her warning. No silent electric slide of the window and a steel-hard hand shooting out to grab her wrist for him. She lifts her bag off her shoulder and puts it over her head so that the strap crosses her body. If she’s going to have to fight, or run, she needs both hands free.
The sunshine is so bright that, even through her shades, it hurts her eyes. Step, breathe, step, breathe.
Away from the shops around the tube, there are fewer people on the pavement, but the road is filled with the blessed hum of noonday traffic. If they try to take her, they will be seen. She reaches the far-side pavement and stops to choose her direction. Go on to the bus stop, or go back? You might get past him, or he might just turn around and follow you down the escalator. These suburban stations are all but empty at this time of day. You’ll be most likely alone on the platform with him, nothing but air between you and the track.
Okay. The bus. I’ll take the bus.
They can follow the bus. I can take it to Tooting. It’s always busy there, because of the hospital, and the market and the shops. Go to Tooting, get on the tube. If you cut through Sainsbury’s, come out the back way, you might get there before he realises where you’ve gone.
She scans her possible routes home in her head. Maybe I should go into town. Victoria, Waterloo – they’re both busy. Lots of places where buses and cabs can go and cars are forbidden. If I go up to one of those… then back down to Clapham Junction. Busiest station in the country. When a train lets out there, that long, long tunnel beneath the tracks is like 28 Days Later. If Malik’s following, I can change to another platform before he’s even seen where I’ve gone. Hide in one of the shops. Go out the exit where the cars drop off: most people don’t even seem to notice it’s there as they rush up towards the main barriers. Yes. Clapham Junction. If I’m lucky, I can get the Northbourne train first time.
And if you’re not, you’ll lead him straight to your front door.
Ahead, she sees a bus approaching. The stop is a hundred yards away, no distance at all. The display on the front says it’s going to Wimbledon, but it’s single-storey, which suggests that it might well take a long route to get there. But it’s a bus, and that’s people, and people are safety for now. Wimbledon’s always busy, around the station. If he follows her now, she can lose him there.
Without looking over her shoulder, Collette takes to her heels and sprints.
Chapter Thirty-Six
‘Excuse me!’
In another life, this woman would have run the WAAF. She has a natural built-in foghorn, a height and stature you only get from generations of plentiful meat. Thomas sits up to attention as she marches towards him wheeling her three-wheeled lightweight buggy, an OshKosh toddler straining to keep up without dropping its Peppa Pig. She gets within talking distance, but her tone stays the same, as though they are communicating across a playing field. She’s got a touch of sunburn. That high medieval forehead, made higher by the sort of Alice band he hasn’t seen since the 1980s, will be peeling later. ‘Do you mind not feeding my dog?’ she shouts.