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Kim pauses in the lobby outside the fund-raiser cocktail party and experiences
A moment of self-doubt.
The women are so elegant, so beautifully turned out, so confident in their wealth and elegance. The men are so casual and handsome, so well dressed. Their laughter comes out of the room like a challenge to her, saying You don’t belong here
Trailer-park trash
Waitress
Your mother cleans our houses and
You lived in a cave.
She stops and stands there.
Thinks, as she did at the border check, of simply turning around and going home to the trailer, where she belongs.
It’s her eighteenth birthday.
Stan gets a gun.
Freudian, sure, but there it is.
Finding a gun in Dodge City is like finding sand on the beach. All he does is walk over to John’s house and let himself in.
The pistol is under John’s bed.
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She turns heads.
She’s that beautiful.
Exquisite, Kim walks into the cocktail party uninvited with her head high you might call her bearing regal and no one stops her at the door, no one has the nerve to tell this lovely creature that she can’t come in.
Even the women, although jealous, are intrigued. They want to see what’s going to happen, they want to test their husbands and boyfriends and their own attractiveness against this newcomer.
Kim walks through the crowd, seemingly unconscious of their stares-certainly not self-conscious-walks to the bar, asks for a glass of Chablis, and gets it
She looks twenty-three, at least
No one asks for an ID or an invitation And then, glass at her lips, she coolly turns to survey the crowd as if to determine whether they’re worthy of her interest.
It’s a stunning debut.
Kim is certainly not a debutante, there was no money for even a Sweet Sixteen, but this is her
Coming-Out Party.
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John’s at a different kind of party.
What would come to be known as the Great Laguna Blizzard of 1976.
It snowed like hell inside Doc’s house that night.
Cocaine everywhere, and most of the Association boys nose-deep in it. Cocaine on mirrors, cocaine on tabletops, cocaine on magazine covers-Doc hosting like some kind of surfer-dude Mad Hatter at the tea party.
John sits back and watches the circus.
He doesn’t do coke.
Well, he did when they brought it up from Mexico. John took a couple of snorts the way a winemaker might take a couple of sips, pronounced it “okay,” and then forgot about it.
Coke is too crazy for him.
People get too jacked up.
But this is a coming-out party for coke, in Laguna at least, a sort of motivational seminar for the sales force You can only sell what you love. Is everybody excited?!
— so John could give a shit. He smokes a j, sips a little Scotch, and lets it snow, snow, snow.
And scopes the women.
Shit, Doc has really stocked the pond on this one. Sleek, long-legged women are everywhere, and they’re digging the coke. He doesn’t even have to get up from the couch and-bingo, bango-an incredibly gorgeous auburn-haired chick in a miniskirt comes up and sits down next to him.
“I’m Taylor,” she says.
“John.”
The white smudge under her nose looks cute, but John leans over and wipes it off.
“Don’t waste that,” she says. She holds his wrist and licks the coke off his fingers, then says, “Taste of what’s to come.”
Except he hears
“ You slept with my wife.”
John looks up and Stan is standing over him, looking stupid in his denim jacket and jeans, stupider with this look of rage on his face.
“You slept with my wife,” he repeats.
Taylor giggles.
John tries to go the chivalric route. “Stan, I don’t know what you’re-”
“She told me.”
John says, “Okay, I slept with your wife.”
Like, now what?
Stan doesn’t know.
He stands there looking confused and uncertain and stupid and John just wishes he would go away so that he can get back to Taylor and things to come and is about to tell him so when
Stan pulls a pistol from his pocket.
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Kim is a triumph at the cocktail party.
Think Cinderella (if you haven’t already), think Sabrina (see above); point is, she kills.
Even the Orange County bitches, who normally would have sliced her up like a gang of Benzedrine-crazed chefs at Benihana, can’t touch her. It’s not a matter of kindness, God knows, but of cowardice. Not one of them is brave enough to be the first shark to draw blood and start the feeding frenzy, and by the time they work themselves into a sufficiently collective indignation at this parvenu to socially gang-rape her, it’s too late because one of the Young Men recognizes himself as a cultural trope and obediently plays
Prince Charming.
Brad Donnelly is a scion of OC nobility. Twenty-five, UCLA alum, doing great things in Dad’s real estate business, looks to match.
“I’m Brad,” he says. “I don’t think we’ve met.”
“I’m Kim,” she says.
It’s working just the way she imagined it a million times just the way she planned it.
He smiles and walks her onto the broad deck, with its stunning view of the beach and the ocean, the sun setting like it knows it’s in her movie.
“Who are you?” Brad asks. “Why haven’t I seen you before?”
“I guess you haven’t been looking.”
“I’m looking now.”
“So I see.”
He juts his chin back toward the party inside. “They’re all talking about us, you know.”
“I know. Do you mind?”
“I don’t care,” Brad answers. They make inconsequential chitchat for a few minutes, then Brad asks, “You want to get out of here and go to a really cool party?”
“I would love to.”
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Here’s how fucked-up coke is This is funny
Guy pulls a gun and points it in somebody’s face and most of the partygoers think it’s a hoot. It’s even funnier if you know Stan, because it’s so totally un-Stan-like.
Winnie-the-Pooh packing heat.
Pretty much John’s reaction He doesn’t say Stan, don’t.
Or
Please, don’t kill me. He says, “Stan, where did you get that?”
“Never mind,” Stan says, realizing it sounds dumb. “I should kill you.”
The “should” is the giveaway.
He “should”; he’s not going to.
John says, “I didn’t rape her, Stan.”
Doc, ever the good host, comes over and says, “Come on, put that away, Stan. It’s a party. ”
“He had sex with Diane,” Stan says.
Doc ponders this for a moment, and then delivers a response that becomes Laguna legend.
“Well,” Doc says, “so have you. ”
Cocaine logic.
Irrefutable.
“Come on, man,” Doc says, putting his arm around Stan’s shoulder, “join the party, do a few lines.”
Stan sets the pistol down on the coffee table and starts to cry.
“My man,” Doc says.
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“Have you ever done coke before?” Brad asks her.
“No,” Kim says truthfully, neglecting to mention that the cocaine on the glass table in front of them had once been taped to her torso.
Brad does a line, then Kim does a line, and it isn’t long before she lets him maneuver her into one of the bedrooms as if it were his idea. When they shut the door, he starts to undress her, but she pushes him away.
And then undresses herself.