“I thought you’d be selling aluminum siding in Scottsdale,” John says.
“Fuck that shit,” Doc says. “I bailed the first chance I got, came down here. Freedom is precious, my son.”
“Tell me about it,” John says. “You ratted me out, Doc.”
Doc shakes his head. “I protected you. Bobby, those other pricks, they were going to kill you. I took you out of it, somewhere safe.”
“Ten years, Doc. My wife is gone, my kid is a stranger-”
“You never wanted either of them in the first place,” Doc says. “Be honest.”
“What do you want, Doc?”
“I want to help you,” Doc says. “Make it up to you.”
“How?”
“You kept the faith, Johnny,” Doc says. “You’re like my own blood. I want to bring you in on something. Shit, I need to bring you in on something.”
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You’re fucking up, Doc tells him, doing it the same old way. That’s how we got busted, how we got jammed.
It’s a loser’s game, it always ends the same.
We don’t want to be in the drug business.
We want to be in the turf business.
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“What do you need me for?” John asks after Doc lays it out for him.
“I need someone I can trust up there,” Doc says. “Someone to run the day-to-day. I mean, I can’t come el norte, I’m freaking Napoleon down here.”
“I have a record,” John says.
“As John McAlister,” Doc says. “Get a new ID. Get five of them, who cares? It’s easy enough to do. Set up a shell business, look gainfully employed, and fly under the radar. John, we’re talking real money.”
“And how do I move the money to you?” John asks. “I can’t be running down to Mexico without attracting attention.”
“The system’s all set up,” Doc says. “There’ll be sort of a board of directors, you know, some of the old ‘gang,’ for major decisions. But you’ll be the CEO. It’s all set up. All you have to do is plug in.”
John plugs in.
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As soon as John’s car leaves, Kim comes out of the house. She’s beautiful in a white caftan with embroidered flowers, her hair long, her feet bare.
“What did he say?” she asks Doc.
“What do you think?” Doc asks.
Kim shakes her head.
“What?”
“I don’t like him,” Kim says. “I never have.”
“I love him,” Doc says. “He’s like a son to me.”
“You have a child.”
“That I never see.”
“I’m not living in Mexico,” Kim says. “I’d go insane.”
“I’d like to see her sometime.”
“It’s better this way,” Kim says. “I have to get back soon. Shall we go in?”
They go into the house and upstairs to the bedroom. The shades are pulled and the thick walls keep it relatively cool.
Still, they are sleek with sweat as they make love.
Don Winslow
The Kings Of Cool
Baja, Mexico 2005
Well, Papa, go to bed now, it’s getting late,
Nothing we can say will change anything now.
— BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN, “INDEPENDENCE DAY”
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The room is big and perched on a bluff overlooking the ocean.
Spotlights illuminate the beach and the breakers.
A foot trail runs from the compound down to the beach, and John sees a quiver of long-boards leaning against the wall of the deck.
Doc wears a Hawaiian shirt over an old pair of khaki shorts and huaraches. A ball cap even though it’s night.
He’s vain, John thinks, covering up the receding hairline.
“How’s life?” John asks.
“Life is the same,” Doc says. “Luxurious exile. I surf, I fish, I grill the fish, I watch shitty Mexican TV, I go to bed. I get up at least once in the night to piss. I’m not going to ask how life is with you.”
“Things have gotten a little out of hand.”
“No shit?” Doc asks.
Doc has a deep tan that looks darker against his snow-white hair. It hangs down to his shoulders, but it’s still white. Deep lines in his face, deep lines under his eyes from squinting into the sun. He looks like an old surf bum.
“I’ve got enough fucking agita down here right now,” Doc says. “This whole thing with the cartel.”
“I still think siding with the Berrajanos was a mistake.”
“They’re going to win,” Doc says, “and I have to live down here, whoever’s on the fucking throne. You want a soda? I got Diet Pepsi and Diet Coke.”
“I’m good.”
“When did people start saying that?” Doc asks, going to the refrigerator and taking out a Diet Coke.” ‘I’m good,’ instead of ‘No, thanks.’”
John doesn’t know. He doesn’t care.
Doc pops open the can and takes a long drink. Then he sits down on the couch and says, “We had us some times, didn’t we, Johnny?”
“Yeah, we did, Doc.”
“Those were some days,” Doc says, shaking his head, smiling. “ Good times. Your kid, what do they call him…”
Chon.
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“‘John’ wasn’t good enough for him?” Doc asks.
“You remember the sixties?” John asks. “Everybody was ‘Rainbow’ and ‘Moonbeam.’”
“This ain’t the sixties,” Doc snaps. “It’s two-thousand-and-fucking-five, and whatever the hell your kid’s name is, he’s a problem. Let me tell you something-I’m spending my last years sipping a drink on the beach and watching the sun go down, not in some cell in Pelican Bay.”
“I told him to back off.”
“He killed two of our guys tonight,” Doc says. “That sound like backing off?”
“He saved us the trouble.”
“They were still our guys,” Doc says. “We can’t let people think it’s okay to do that.”
He finishes his soda, crumples up the can in his big hand, and tosses it into a little blue plastic wastebasket with the recycling logo on it. “You know what has to happen here.”
“We’re talking about my kid, Doc.”
“Why I wanted to talk with you,” Doc says. “Get a sense of, you know, where you are with this.”
“What do you want, my permission?”
“I don’t need your permission, Johnny,” Doc says, fixing him with a stare. “It’s going to happen. The only question is whether it happens to just him and his buddy, or to you, too.”
John just looks at him.
“We’re not asking you to pull the trigger,” Doc says.
John stares at him for a few seconds, then he gets up. “I’m not even that sure he’s my kid.”
He walks out the door.
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Of all the corkers God pulled off in the Old Testament, the real howler was Abraham and Isaac.
Had the angels rolling on the floor
Moaning
Stop. My ribs. Stop.
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John opens the passenger door and says, “Someone wants to talk to you, see if we can work something out.”
He takes Chon into the house.
Boland goes in with them.
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To Chon, Doc Halliday looks like any middle-aged geezer hanging around the beach hoping against hope to pick up a young chick.
“I thought you were dead,” Chon says.
Doc grins, looks at John, says, “He’s so much your fucking kid.”
John nods.
“I want my friend left alone,” Chon says. “He can’t hurt you.”
Doc walks up close to Chon. Looks for a long time into his eyes and then says
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INT. DOC’S MEXICAN HOUSE — NIGHT
DOC
Look, kid, I brought you down here to try to talk some sense into you because I love your father. When he hurts, I hurt, do you understand that?
Chon doesn’t answer.
DOC (CONT’D)
So if you can look me in the eye and promise me-that you’ll walk away and let this go — then vaya con dios.