I woke to find him standing over me, and the sun was shining in through the window. ‘Do you like salmon?’ he said.
I sat up. ‘Salmon?’
‘Sure. I brought you some salmon. Land-locked salmon. The Montagnais call them ouananish.’ He pulled up a chair and set a big dish down on it and a knife and fork and a hunk of bread. ‘Caught two. The boys and I had one. You got most of the other. Strictly against camp rules. No fish to be cooked. Give you tape worm if they’re not properly cooked. You ever had tape worm?’
‘No.’
‘You’re lucky. You feed like a horse, but it’s the worm feeding, not you, so you just go on getting thinner.’ He was searching in a desk in the corner and he came up with a sheet of graph paper. There was the sound of voices and the scrape of boots in the other half of the hut beyond the partition. ‘Lucy!’ he shouted. ‘You boys ready yet?’
‘Oui, out. All okay, Ray.’
‘I got to get the boys started on levelling up a new section of the grade,’ he said, turning to me. ‘I’ll be about an hour. After that we’ll go north as far as the trestle. Maybe I’ll fish a bit whilst you tell me your story.’ The eyes glinted at me from behind their glasses. Then we’ll see. Maybe we’ll go and have a word with Mackenzie.’
And with that he turned and went out. The door closed and after a moment I began to eat my first ouananish. It was close-fleshed and pink, and there was a lot of it. And whilst I ate I was thinking about Darcy again — about his painting and his mania for fishing. Crazy Darcy that young engineer had called him. Two years without a break was certainly a long time, long enough to drive a man round the bend. I remembered something Lands had said and wondered whether Darcy was what they called ‘bushed’.
I ate the whole of that fish, and when I had finished it energy was flowing back into my body so that I no longer felt tired. There was a basin beside Darcy’s bed and a bowl of water steamed on the stove lid. I got up stiffly and had a wash, standing naked over the basin. Bushed or not, the man was closer to the country than anybody else I’d met. I had a shave and then I sat on the bed and broke the blisters on my heels and covered them with adhesive tape I found in the medical kit on the shelf above the bed. There were books there, too, and the photograph of a young Canadian soldier in a battered leather frame.
My clothes had dried out with the heat of the stove and I put them on. And then I went back to the shelf and the books, wondering whether they would tell me anything about the man. They were mostly technical, but there was Izaak Walton’s Compleat Angler, a single leather-bound volume of Shakespeare, the collected poems of Robert Service, several books by Jack London, and then four books that took me right back to the little room where my father had had his radio. They were Labrador, by W. Cabot, two volumes of Outlines of the Geography, Life and Customs of Newfoundland-Labrador by V. Tanner and a small slim book titled Labrador — In Search of the Truth by Henri Dumaine.
Tanner’s book I knew. I’d often looked at the pictures in those two volumes when I was a kid. And Cabot’s book, too — that had been on my father’s shelves. But Henri Dumaine’s book was new to me and I took it down and opened it, casually leafing through the pages. It was a record of a journey into Labrador, not very well written. I glanced at the fly-leaf. It had been published by a Toronto firm in 1905, and thinking that perhaps it might have a reference to my grandfather’s expedition, I started going carefully through the pages from the beginning.
I found a reference to it almost immediately, at the foot of page five. He had written: Thus it was on June 15,1902, that the ship brought me to Davis Inlet and the Hudson’s Bay Post there. I was at the starting point of the Ferguson Expedition at last…
I stared at the sentence, hardly able to believe my eyes. Here, in this hut at Camp 263,1 had stumbled on a book that could help me. My eyes were devouring the printed words now, and a few lines further on I read: Standing there, looking at the Post, so clean and neat in the cold sunlight, the red shingle roofs of the buildings glistening with the rain that had just passed and the planked walls gleaming in their fresh coat of white paint, I was thinking of Pierre. It was to this place that the poor fellow had returned-alone. I was thinking, too, of my wife, Jacqueline, and of all the hopes she entertained of my present journey. She had been at her brother’s bedside when he died and had listened to the last strange mutterings of a mind deranged by the tragedy of what had happened and by all the terrible hardships suffered. I turned my back on the Post then and looked across the water to the hills of Labrador. It was then that I first felt the impact of that lonely country and I stood there in sudden awe of it, for somewhere beyond the black line of that escarpment lay the truth. If I could find it, then maybe I could clear his name of the vile accusations that had so darkened his last hours and contributed so much to his state of mind.
I turned the pages quickly then, searching for some statement of the accusations, some hint as to what was supposed to have happened to my grandfather. But Henri Dumaine seemed to take it for granted that the reader would know that, for I could find no further reference to it. Page after page was taken up with the rather dreary account of his struggle up the Old Indian trail to the Naskopie. He had had two coast half-breeds with him and it was clear that neither he nor they had much idea of bushcraft. Dogged by misfortunes, which were largely of their own making, they had reached Cabot Lake on July 19. They had then gone south across Lake Michikamau and had finally turned west towards the Ashuanipi.
Here we found a camp of Montagnais Indians waiting for the coming of the caribou and luck was with us for two years ago at this Very spot a lone white man had passed them, going towards the great lake of Michikamau. He had a canoe, but his supplies must have been getting low for he had avoided them and they had been scared to go near him for some reason, so that they could tell me little about him except that his clothes were ragged and his feet bound with strips of canvas and he talked to himself as though communing to some unseen spirit. They showed me the place where he had camped beside the river. There were several caribou bones and close by the place where he had built his fire was a little pile of cartridges, the greased wrapping partly disintegrated.
There was no doubt in my mind then that this was one of the places where my brother-in-law had camped on the way back, and the cartridges so recklessly jettisoned proved that his situation was already desperate. Clearly we were still some distance from the place where death had overtaken Mr Ferguson and I asked the Indians if they knew of the Lake I sought. I described it to them as Pierre had described it so often in his delirium. But they did not know it, and of course the name that Pierre had given to the Lake meant nothing to them, and so we left them, giving them two packages of tea and a small bag of flour, which was all we could spare of our supplies. And after that we went south, following the Ashuanipi, and searching all the time…
The door behind me burst open and I turned to find Darcy standing there. ‘All set?’ he asked impatiently, as though I had kept him waiting. And then he saw the book in my hand. ‘Oh, so you found that.’ He came in and shut the door. ‘I wondered whether you would.’ He took it out of my hand, leafing idly through the pages. ‘Dull stuff,’ he said. ‘But interesting when you know the country.’
‘Or when you know what happened,’ I said.
To Ferguson?’ He looked at me quickly. ‘Nobody knows that.’
‘When you know what’s supposed to have happened then,’ I corrected myself. ‘On page five …’ I took the book from his hand and pointed to the line referring to ‘vile accusations’. ‘What were the accusations?’ I asked him. ‘They were made against the survivor, weren’t they? That was Dumaine’s brother-in-law. It says so there. Who accused him and what did they accuse him of?’