It was a lot of junk. Stock prospectuses, financial statements, annual reports, and the like. Occasionally the task was brightened by an upbeat company bulletin, like the one on the annual management seminar weekend. Last year the boys had taken their wives to New Hampshire for three classes, two speeches by Lasko, a cocktail party, and a meeting of the wives’ club. The trip was memorialized by an eight by ten glossy of the management team and their ladies, wearing the discomfited looks of sixth graders corralled for the class portrait. Lehman had the sheepish grin of the kid who had been caught smoking in the boys’ room. She was looking great-good outfit and a bright picture smile. Their bodies leaned away from each other. Lasko was to their left, smiling broadly.
I checked the stuff carefully for markings and marginal notations. I didn’t find any. It was the same with the three other left-hand drawers. The last paper in the top drawer was another company bulletin, announcing that Lehman was joining Lasko Devices. The article praised Lasko’s drive to assemble a “permanent management team.” Apparently Lehman’s permanence had been revoked. I wondered how the writer would handle that little problem in the next bulletin. I jammed the drawer shut, frustrated.
The last chance was the middle drawer. I jerked it open. There was only one thing inside: a plain manila envelope, gummed shut. I grasped it with hasty, awkward fingers and ripped it open.
Inside was a handwritten note on a blank piece of paper. The writing was rough, strong, and somehow familiar. I made out the words “For A.L.” in the upper right corner. The rest was scratched out in the middle: “95-Move whole package across the street-J859020. Justice is blind.”
I figured “A.L.” for Alexander Lehman. The rest was foolishly cryptic, a child’s riddle. But it had probably meant something to Lehman-enough to kill him.
I stared at the writing. Then I reached into one of the left-hand drawers and pulled out an old annual report to stockholders. I turned through the glossy pages of bold print and colored pictures until I reached the one headed “Chairman’s Page.” It contained a three paragraph message of moral uplift, probably ghosted by Lasko’s PR firm. Below it was a replica of Lasko’s signature. I held the memo next to it. They looked the same. I combed the signature for a unique letter. I hit on the curious looped “k.” It matched the “k” in “package.”
I put the annual report back in the drawer, and the memo in its envelope. Then I slid the memo into my attache case. I rose and left the room, closing the door after me. It felt as if I had just shut the door on Lehman’s life.
Valerie Lehman was perched on the couch, talking to Gubner. They both seemed uncomfortable, like actors at a first rehearsal. Her role of grieving widow was undercut by her fear that she might have to play it in rags. Her eyes moved around the living room, from piece to piece. Gubner’s supportive old friend part hung on him like a bad suit. I guessed that he had disliked her for years and now was trying to hide it from himself. The rain seemed reflected in the room’s gloomy pall. I stepped in.
“Mrs. Lehman, pardon me for interrupting.” She peered up with pretty blankness. Gubner seemed almost glad.
“What is it?” he interjected.
I spoke to her. “I’m almost through and I’ll be gone. I just need to talk to Marty for a second.”
She hesitated, head half-cocked, as if awaiting the English translation. The shock was showing in her reaction time. “Marty would like a martini,” she said with bright irrelevance.
That called for a response, I guessed. “No thank you, Mrs. Lehman. I appreciate your kindness.” I wanted to say something more, but nothing came out. Gubner rose and steered me into the hallway. I glanced back. She was staring around the living room, at nothing at all.
“Did you find anything?” Gubner asked.
“Nothing sensational,” I hedged. Gubner seemed too distracted to press it. “Are you staying or going?” I asked.
Gubner’s face was sober. “Staying. This is going to get worse.”
“I think so too.”
“About talking, Chris-I think I’ll take a pass on your company for a week or two.”
I could see it. “Fair enough, Marty. See you around.”
I let myself out. Then I got in the car and drove to the airport, through the rain, away from the white houses and the perfect lawns.
It was evening when I got there. I was tired. I checked in mechanically, thinking about everything and nothing. Then I went to a phone. I thought about calling the office, then didn’t. I had started to absorb the bleak idea that talking to the office was worse than useless.
Instead, I called Di Pietro. His voice on the phone was all parsimony. The cops had found the black Cadillac abandoned on a side street off Commonwealth, with a little bit of Lehman on it. It had been stolen from a shopping center and the license plate switched. No fingerprints. I suggested that meant it had been swiped to kill Lehman, then be untraceable. Di Pietro countered that maybe some punk had stolen the car and couldn’t afford to stop. He said it in less time than that. It was as if each sentence was being docked from his pay, at five bucks a word. I thanked him a lot and hung up.
I boarded the plane. I was in the taxi home before I remembered that I’d never paid the Ritz for my martini.
The taxi stopped at my place. I got out, still holding the memo that had killed Lehman.
Twelve
I walked slowly through the hallway to my door, dragging my suitcase. I put the key in, turned it, and pushed. I started to step inside. Then I froze in the doorway. A light was on, casting dim shadows on the wall. Someone was waiting.
Mary stood by the bookshelf, very still. “I heard about Alexander Lehman,” she said simply. “I’m sorry.”
Somehow I was angry. “So is Lehman’s wife. How did you get in?” My voice belonged to someone else. It was dry and scratchy. I realized how scared I had been.
“The manager gave me a key.”
We both waited for the other to speak. She looked at me directly, not stirring. I wanted her to move.
She stepped away from the books, and snapped the spell.
“I shouldn’t have come.”
“It’s OK.” I paused. “Would you like a drink?”
“Are you?” I nodded. “Yes,” she said. “Thank you. Scotch.”
I pulled a bottle of Scotch from under the bookshelf and went to the kitchen, suddenly glad to be doing something mundane.
“How did you hear about Lehman?” I asked over my shoulder.
“McGuire. He said it was pretty gruesome.”
“Gruesome” seemed arch, like “untidy.” “That’s a way of putting it. ‘Sickening’ is another.” I wanted to shake her; the man was dead.
I splashed ice in the drinks, suddenly alienated by the illusion of routine: “‘And how was your trip, darling?’ ‘Oh fine, dear, but poor Alec got squashed by a car.’ ‘Too bad, I liked Alec. But fine otherwise?’” Something about the scene was out of sync, like roses at an execution. I half-shook my head, as if trying to throw off a tangible strangeness.
I left the kitchen and returned to reality. She was sitting on the living room couch. Her shoulders were turned in and knees together, as if hunched against the cold. I handed her the drink. She clasped it against her lap with both hands and stared into it. I sat down.
“What did you do?” She looked up from her drink.
“I threw up.”
“Do you care to talk about it?”
“No.” She looked hurt. I tried to explain. “Look, yesterday I was sitting with Lehman. He was scared and sick of himself. But he was alive, trying to get something back. When it happened, I was sipping on a martini, stroking my self-esteem. Then there was Lehman, flying through the air. When I got to him, he looked like something people feed to their dogs.” Her fingers squeezed the glass. I rummaged for the words. “It’s not just the finality. It’s that it’s so arbitrary.” It was a meaningless word. I gave up.