“You can always bail out.”
McKuen glanced at him. “Tickle me — I hate to be rude.”
Shannon darkened. “Hell, Lieutenant — it’s all fine and all to make jokes. But I’m scared green. What if we get knocked down over North Vietnam or drop right into some Victor Charlie camp? Do you speak Vietnamese?”
“Sure.”
“That makes me feel all warm inside,” Shannon said miserably. “I don’t speak a word of it. Only been here three weeks.” He reached forward to correct the mixture on number one. He said, “Hell of a vibration in number two.”
“A loose mount. I did me best to tighten it down with baling wire.” McKuen made a grimace. “Baling wire.” Then, abruptly, he laughed quietly.
McKuen tried to take a bearing with the radio direction finder, but the reading was untrustworthy. Silence filled the cabin, in spite of engine drone and the rush of wind past the blunt nose of the plane: silence filled with faintly luminous cloud surfaces in the night and scattered star points on the sky. It came, the silence, of the profound aloneness known to men who sat in a gently vibrating cockpit with a thin column of air suspending them thousands of feet above the invisible black sea. They had the glow of stars, glow of clouds, and yellow glow of wide-eyed instruments. The slow movement of needles across dials, the hum of radio beacons coming in through the headset; the phosphorescence of a dim moon vague behind a high, thin cloud, the steady grip of a pale hand, the jut of the round-faced compass bisecting the windshield at nose-level, the soporific motionlessness of the airplane, tongues of exhaust flame shooting back from the engines and, far off on a mountaintop in the central highlands, the glow of a warning beacon tiny like a fallen cigarette ash.
McKuen’s face was pale in the light from the instruments, the angles of his features drawn sharp — long, straight nose and long, straight forehead, brush of red hair and the long line of the jawbone unmarred by flesh folds, deep creases running from nostril to lip corners: a young man with drive and a great many violent tempers.
McKuen said, “I’ve flown some bloody silly missions, but this one takes the prize. No regrets, maybe, but I think I’m getting a little old.”
“At twenty-six?”
“Sure. I’m getting settling-down urges. I don’t know. A year ago I wouldn’t have hesitated. This time I had to think about it — I had to let Saville push me into it. It’s no good to get cautious in this game, Mister.”
Shannon said nothing. He dropped the controls to a slightly lower pitch, and McKuen watched the airspeed indicator climb a notch or two. “I was flying a bunch of Pentagon pencil pushers to Bengasi. We got forced down. That Godawful Libyan desert. At least this time, whatever happens, we won’t have to land on sand. Well, sometime we’ll all die anyway. To be sure.”
The plane droned north-northwest. In the cargo cabin the five passengers sat on benches along the fuselage walls, surrounded by parachutes and scuba diving apparatus, weapons, and packs. A few lights glowed at irregular intervals in the cabin. The plane’s heat controls did not work, and the five men huddled against the cold night air of seven-thousand-foot altitude. Sky moved slowly by the little windows, and the engines were a loud pounding in the center of the cabin, radiating through ears and vibrating bones. A little electric fan, which did not work, was bolted loosely near the ceiling at the forward end of the cabin; it rattled incessantly like a man shaking a penny around inside a tin can.
Far back along the passage, near the passenger door in the tail section, Sergeant Khang sat by himself, using a honing stone to sharpen the blade of his bayonet. His eyes sparkled with some secret humor, but he looked very cold and very dark and very much alone just the same. He had his service automatic buckled to his waist and a Russian AK submachine gun lying between his feet. Sergeant Khang was North Vietnamese by birth, but training in the American Army and the Special Warfare School at Fort Bragg had made him a member of an extranational club of icemen. He met and held the baleful glance of Sergeant Hooker.
J. D. Hooker sat farther forward, between the wings, opposite the other three passengers. A thick black hair grew out of his left nostril. He was forever tugging at it. His appearance was bestial; his brutal instincts were tuned fine: J. D. Hooker could feel a man’s pulse beating through six inches of armor plate. His father had been an unidentified Marine who had spent one night in Mobile on his way to Pensacola.
Theodore Saville had a map in one huge fist. He scratched his drum-taut belly with the other hand. His face was lowered as though he were listening for some alien sound against the steady hum of engines and wind. His massive chest slowly rose and slowly fell with his breathing. He said, “I’d like a beer. We ain’t got any beer, have we?”
“Coffee in that steel jug,” Tyreen said.
There was no more conversation for a while. Another light in the cabin winked out, plunging the tail section into full darkness, obscuring sight of Sergeant Khang. He did not seem to mind; he kept his solitary post there. Forward through the aisle the instrument lights made a faint glow. Saville said, “If another light goes out, I’ll have to read this map by braille.”
In the bad light, Tyreen’s hair seemed gray, and his long face was blurred and uncertain. There was something of a gloss on his eyes, and his face was not dry. Theodore Saville watched him with quiet concern. Saville folded his map and said, “I remember a plane like this, once. When the Reds shot up my leg in Korea I had a ride to Japan in one of these old crates, with all the lights burned out and all the furniture gone away a long time ago. They hung us in hammocks and I remember a nurse, real pretty brunette. She had a ukelele, and she was singing a bunch of songs. My leg hurt like hell, and the only way I kept from going off my Goddamn head was listening to that girl singing. She had a crummy voice, but she was there. I couldn’t even see her — the lights were even worse than these here. I got a look at her face in the morning when they unloaded us at Itami. She was beautiful.”
The plane jiggled through a patch of rough air and leveled off sluggishly. Saville opened the coffee jug and filled its lid with coffee and drank.
Sergeant Nhu Van Sun struck a match and put it to his cigarette. Looking outside, he could see in the light of the engine exhaust flame the gentle up-and-down swing of the aileron tabs, keeping the plane on steady course. He put his nose to the window and looked down past the wing’s trailing edge and saw the top of the velvet rain cloud extending away without a break in all directions, faintly glimmering. The loose fan rattled incessantly in the fuselage; the old craft lumbered through the sky. Sergeant Sun was big and tough, but he had a certain air of youthful curiosity and uncertainty. He came from a town called Ba Dong near one of the mouths of the Mekong Delta: he had been a farmer. He was thinking of his wife and his three infant girls when J. D. Hooker spoke abruptly at him.
“What do you think you’re staring at?”
Sergeant Sun said, “Nothing. I not think about—”
“You Goddamn people never do,” said Hooker. “For two puking cents I’d—”
“At ease, Sergeant,” said Theodore Saville.
Hooker’s glance swung toward him. “Captain, you ask me, I’d say don’t trust either one of these peckerheads.”
“I didn’t ask you,” Saville said. “Button it up.”
Hooker lowered his thick brows and did not speak again. Sergeant Sun looked at him for a moment; whatever his feelings were, he kept them to himself.
David Tyreen stood up and went forward to the cockpit. His voice issued back very faintly. “When we pass Da Nang set your course due north across the Gulf of Tonkin. We’ll skirt the west side of Hainan and turn northwest on a heading of three-two-five when we cross the nineteenth parallel. It should put us over the drop zone just before first light. After the drop you’ll have to swing sharp left and climb to avoid the mountains.”