The cries, the applause softened. He was beginning to speak.
I shook myself mentally. What had happened was happening? I did not remember the weather, and my head hurt. Was there anything more?
I tried to think back to my entry into the hall, to find a reason why I did not recall the gathering storm.
I realized then that I did not remember having been outside at all, that I did not recall whether I had gotten ^to this place by taxi, bus, on foot or by private vehicle, that I did not know where I had come from, that not only did I not recollect what I had had for breakfast this morning, but I did not know where, when or if I had eaten. I did not even remember dressing myself this day.
I reached up to touch my scalp again. As before, something seemed to be warning my hand away from the site, but I ignored it, thinking suddenly of blows on the head and amnesia.
Could that be it? An accident? A bad bash to the skull, then my wandering about all day until some cue served to remind me of the speech I wanted to attend, then set me on the way here, the attainment of my goal gradually drawing me away from the concussion's trauma?
Still, my scalp felt so strange. ... I poked around the edges of the numb area. It was not exactly numb... .
Then part of it came away. There was one sharp little pain at which I jerked back my exploring fingers. It subsided quickly, though, and I returned them. No blood. Good. But there had occurred a parting, as if a portion of my hair—no, my scalp itself—had come loose. I was seized with a momentary terror, but when I touched beneath the loosened area I felt a warm smoothness of normal sensitivity, nothing like torn tissue.
I pushed further and more of it came loose. It was only at the very center that I felt a ragged spot of pain, beneath what seemed like a gauze dressing. It was then that I realized I was wearing a hairpiece, and beneath it a bandage.
There was a tiny ripple of applause as the president said something I had not heard. I looked at my watch.
Was that it, then? An accident? One for which I hadbeen treated in some emergency room—injured area shaved, scalp lacerations sutured, patient judged ambulatory and released, full concussion syndrome not realized?
Somehow that did not seem right. Emergency rooms do not dispense hairpieces to cover their work. And a man in my condition would probably not have been allowed to walk away.
But I could worry about these things later. I had' come to hear this talk. I had a good seat and a good view, and I should enjoy the occasion. I could take stock of myself when the event was concluded.
Almost twenty minutes after the hour...
I tried to listen, but I could not keep my mind on what he was saying- Something was wrong and J was hurting myself by not considering it. Very wrong, and not Just with me. I was a part of it all, though. How? What?
I looked at the fat little telepath behind the president Go ahead and look into my mind, I willed. / would really like you to. Maybe you can see more deeply there than I can myself. Look and see what is wrong. Tell me what has happened, What is happening. I would like to know.
But he did not even glance my way. He was only interested in incipient mayhem, and my intentions were all pacific. If he read me at all, he must have dismissed my bewilderment as the stream of consciousness of one of that small percentage of the highly neurotic which must occur in any sizable gathering—a puzzled man, but hardly a dangerous one. His attention, and that of any of the others, was reserved for whatever genuinely nasty specimens might be present. And rightly so.
There came another roll of thunder. Nothing. Nothing for me beyond this hall, it reminded. The entire day up until my arrival was a blank. Work on it. Think. I had read about cases of amnesia. Had I ever come across one just like this?
When had I decided to hear this speech? Why? What were the circumstances?
Nothing. The origin of my intention was hidden.
Could there be anything suspect? Was there anything unusual about my desire to be here?
I—No, nothing.
Nineteen minutes after the hour.
I began to perspire. A natural result of my nervousness, I supposed.The second hand swept past the two, the three ...
Something to do. ... It would come clear in a moment. What? Never mind. Wait and see.
The six, the seven ...
As another wave of applause crossed the hall I began to wish that I had not come.
Nine, ten ...
Twenty minutes after.
My lips began to move. I spoke softly. I doubt that the others about me even heard what I said.
"Step right this way, ladies and gentlemen. Try your luck."
"... Try your luck."
Suddenly 1 was awake, in the gallery, my hand in my pocket. High up, before me, was the row of faces, the cutout cardboard bodies below them, lights shining upon them. I felt the pistol and checked it without looking down. The one in front was the target that had been chosen for me, moving slightly, with random jerkings.
I withdrew the weapon carefully and began to raise it slowly.
My hand! Who ...
I watched with a sudden and growing fear as my left hand emerged from my pocket holding a gun. I had no control over the action. It was as if the hand belonged to another person. I willed it back down, but it continued to rise. So I did the only thing I could do.
I reached across with my right hand and seized my own wrist.
The left hand had a definite will of its own. It struggled against me. I tightened my grip and pushed it downward with all of my strength.
As this occurred, I found myself trying to get to my feet. Snarls and curses rose unbidden to my lips. The hand was strong. I was not certain how much longer I could bold it.
The finger tightened on the trigger and my hands bucked with the weapon's recoil. Fortunately, the muzzle was pointed downward when it went off. I hope that the ricochet had not caught anyone.
People were screaming and rushing to get away from me by then. Several others, however, were hurrying toward me. If I could only hold the hand until they got to me....They hit me, two of them. One tackled me and the other took me around the shoulders. We went down. As my left arm was seized, I felt it relax. The pistol was taken from me. Those two hands, such strangers, were forced behind my back and handcuffed there. I remember hoping that they would not break one another. They stop-
- ped struggling, however, hanging limply as I was raised to my feet.
When I looked back toward the stage, the president was gone. But the small chubby man was staring at me, dark eyes no longer drifting behind those heavy lenses as he began to move my way, gesturing to the men who held me.
Suddenly I felt very sick and weak, and my head was aching again. I began to hurt in the places where I had been struck.
When the small man stood before me he reached out and clasped my shoulders.
"It is going to be all right now," he said.
The gallery wavered before me. There were no more cardboard silhouettes. Only people. I did not understand where everything had gone, or why he had told me the words, then restrained me. I only knew that I had missed my target and there would be no award. I felt my eye grow moist.
They took me to a clinic. There were guards posted outside my door. The small telepath, whose name I had learned was Arthur Cook, was with me much of the time. A doctor poked at the left side of my neck, inserted a needle and dripped in a clear liquid. The rest was silence.
When I came around—how much later, I am uncertain
—the right side of my neck was also sore. Arthur and one of the doctors were standing at my bedside watching me closely.
"Glad to have you back, Mister Mathews," Arthur said. "We want to thank you."
"For what?" I asked. "I don't even know what happened."
"You foiled an assassination plan. I am tempted to say single-handed, but I am not much given to puns. You were an unwilling party to one of the most ingenious attempts to evade telepathic security measures to date. You were the victim of some ruthless people, using highly sophisticated medical methods in their conspiracy.Had they taken one additional measure, I believe they would have succeeded. However, they permitted both of you to be present at the key moment and that was their undoing."