Englishman that he was, he woke in his burrow without a commotion. Though his cheek was pressed into the leaves and was stinging, he did not move. The sunlight fell upon a loose screen of sasanqua. He could not see them, but he heard Kitty and Rita talking a few feet away, where they must be sitting on the grass.
A movement caught his eye. Some thirty feet away and ten feet above him a balcony of the garage overhung the garden, not a proper balcony, but just enough ledge to break the ugly wall and give a pleasant cloistered effect to the garden; not for standing on, but there stood a man anyhow, with his hands in his pockets, looking down into the garden.
He was a Vaught, with the black brow and the high color and the whorled police-dog eye, but a very finely drawn Vaught. Motionless as he was, he gave the effect of restiveness and darting. He was both merry and haggard. Sutter, the engineer was to learn, always looked as if he had just waked up, with one side of his face flushed and creased and his hair brushed up against the grain by the pillow. There was something old-fashioned about him. Perhaps it was his clothes. He was in shirtsleeves, but his shirt and pants were the kind you wear with a suit. They could be the trousers of a $35 Curlee suit. One knew at once that he would never wear slacks and a sport shirt. He put one in mind of a bachelor of the 1940’s come home to his quarters and putting on a regular white shirt and regular suit pants and stepping out to take the air of an evening. Most notable was his thinness. He was thin as a child is thin, with a simple scanting of flesh on bones. The shirt, still starched and stuck together on one side, did not lay hold of his body. It was the sort of thinness a young man worries about. But this man did not. He was indifferent to his thinness. He did not hold himself in such a way as to minimize it.
Sutter’s hands moved in his pockets as he watched Rita and Kitty.
“What’s the story?” Rita was saying. “Why the headlong rush for anonymity?”
Kitty did not reply. The engineer could hear her hand moving against the nap of the freshly cut grass.
“Mmm?” said Rita, questioning softly.
“Nothing is changed, Ree,” caroled Kitty.
Sutter turned his head. There was something wrong with his cheek, a shadowing, a distinguished complication like a German saber scar.
“On your way, Minnie cat,” said Rita, and the women arose, laughing.
Before they could turn, Sutter, still fingering the change in his pocket, ducked through the open window. Rita looked up quickly, holding her hand against the sun.
“A pretty links, isn’t it? You know, I was one of the first people to be brought up in a suburb. Aren’t you Will Barrett?”
He had been watching the golfers from the patio and he turned around quickly, irritably, not liking to be surprised. There stood a woman he first took to be a Salvation Army lass and he was about to refuse her alms even more irritably. But then he noticed she was a Vaught. She must be Val.
“In the past,” she went on before he could answer, “people have usually remembered their childhood in old houses in town or on dirt farms back in the country. But what I remember is the golf links and the pool. I spent every warm day of my girlhood at the pool, all day every day, even eating meals there. Even now it doesn’t seem right to eat a hamburger without having wrinkled fingers and smelling chlorine.” She didn’t laugh but went on gazing past him at the golfers. Her musing absent-mindedness, he reckoned, was one of the little eccentricites nuns permitted themselves. He had never spoken to a nun. But perhaps she was not a proper nun after all, wearing as she did not a proper habit but a black skirt and blouse and a little cap-and-veil business. But beyond a doubt she was a Vaught, though a somewhat plumpish bad-complexioned potato-fed Vaught. Her wrist was broad and white as milk and simple: it was easy for him to imagine that if it was cut through it would show not tendon and bone but a homogenous nun-substance.
“I’ve been looking for you, Barrett. Once I heard your father make a speech to the D.A.R. on the subject of noblesse oblige and our duty to the Negro. A strange experience and a strange bunch of noblewomen. Not that I know much about noblesse oblige, but he gave them proper hell. He was right about one thing, of course, character. You don’t hear much about that either nowadays.”
“Is that why you became a nun?” he asked politely.
“Partly, I suppose. I drove up to see Jamie and now I want to see you.”
“Yes ma’am.”
“Jamie looks awful.”
“Yes.” He was about to enter with her onto the mournful ground of Jamie’s illness, but she fell away again. John Houghton’s scissors came snicker-sneeing along the brick walk behind her and flushed a towhee out of the azaleas, a dandy little cock in tuxedo-black and cinnamon vest She gazed down at the bird with the same mild distracted eye.
“Does John Houghton still run after school girls?”
“Ma’am? Oh. Well, yes.”
Now freed by her preoccupation with the forgotten trophies of her past, the sentient engineer swung full upon her. What to make of it, this queer casualness of hers? Was it Catholic, a species of professional unseriousness (death and sin are our affair, so we can make light of them), almost frivolity, like electricians who make a show of leaning on high-voltage wires? Or was it an elaborate Vaught dialectic, thus: Rita and the rest of you are going to be so serious about Jamie, therefore I am not, etc. His radar boggled and couldn’t get hold of her. He was obscurely scandalized. He didn’t like her much.
“How long does Jamie have?”
“Eh? To live— Oh, Rita said months, four months I think she said. But I think longer. Actually he is much better.”
“Jamie tells me you and he are good friends.” Her gaze was still fixed on the tiny amber eye of the towhee, which crouched with its head cocked, paralyzed.
“Yes.”
“He says that you and he may go somewhere together.”
“Jamie changes his mind about that. He was talking earlier about living with Sutter or going down to stay with you.”
“Well, now he wants to go somewhere with you.”
“Do you mean, leave school?”
“Yes.”
“He knows I’m ready to go any time.” Presently he added: “I can understand him wanting to go away.”
“Yes. That was what I want to speak to you about.”
He waited.
“Mr. Barrett—”
“Yes ma’am.”
“It may well happen that it will be you and not one of us who will be with Jamie during the last days of his life and even at his death.”
“I suppose that is true,” said the engineer, taking note of a warning tingle between his shoulder blades.
“Everyone thinks very highly of you — though for strangely diverse, even contradictory reasons. I can’t help noticing. You are evidently quite a fellow. That’s hardly surprising, considering whose son you are.”
“Ah—” began the engineer, frowning and scratching his head.
“Though I can’t say that I agree with your father on his reasons for treating Negroes well rather than beating them up, still I’d rather that he’d won over the current scoundrels even if he’d won for the wrong reasons.”
“Perhaps,” said the engineer uneasily, not wanting to discuss either his father’s “reasons” or her even more exotic reasons.
“But in any case I too can perceive that you are a complex and prescient young man.”
“I certainly appreciate—” began the engineer gloomily.
“Clearly you would do right by Jamie even if you had no affection for him, which I have reason to believe you do have.”
“Yes,” said the other warily. It was still impossible to get a fix on her. He had known very few Catholics and no nuns at all.