“Truly, Kristina?”
“Yes. You needn’t watch over me any more. Tonight you can sleep.”
Karl Oskar blinked as if he had something in his eyes. He swallowed hard a few times as he looked intently at his wife in the bed.
“Remember: Tonight you can sleep!”
The noise of fluttering wings was heard again from the apple tree outside the window. Karl Oskar looked out. A bird was sitting on a branch, pecking at an apple. The Astrakhan apples were soft and juicy, and the birds went after them greedily.
Often this summer Kristina had felt the apples with her fingers and wondered: When will they be ripe? If the birds now were after them they must be ready to eat.
Karl Oskar rose and went out. He walked to the tree and from one of the lowest branches he picked a large, beautiful apple. He could feel it was soft, it must be ripe. It was still moist from the morning dew; through the skin he could see the juicy meat.
He went inside and put the big apple on the blanket before Kristina. “Look — your Astrakhans are ripe!”
Her fever-inflamed eyes looked at the fruit; they stared at it as if she hadn’t understood what he meant.
“You must taste our first apple, Kristina!”
He put it in her hand and she held it.
“It’s the first from your tree, Kristina!”
The sick woman did not understand; she couldn’t grasp that she held an apple in her hand. She moved it slowly toward her mouth, as if curious as to what she held in her fingers. Her lips touched the clear, dew-washed fruit. The transparent skin was like the tender skin of a small child.
She did not bite into the apple, but only caressed it with her lips.
“Aren’t you able to taste it?”
“Yes, yes. It feels soft. .”
“It’s ripe and juicy.”
“It smells good.” She stared at the apple in her hand.
“Can’t you take one bite?” He added, encouragingly, “Astrakhans have a fresh taste.”
Kristina moved the apple toward her teeth and bit off a very small piece. The juice moistened the corners of her mouth.
“Where did you get it, Karl Oskar. .?”
“From your tree out there, of course! The first one picked from that tree!”
Kristina did not swallow the piece she had bit off. She still looked in wonder at the fruit.
“I guess you aren’t strong enough to eat it?”
“Oh yes, I’ll eat it. .”
At last she seemed to understand: “Now I can see — it’s an Astrakhan. .!”
And her voice vibrated at the discovery she had made.
“I recognize it now! It tastes like our apples! Our apples at home!”
Again she moved it to her mouth. But her teeth did not bite into it again, only her lips parted.
Suddenly the mouth grew stiff, the lower jaw stopped in an attempted motion. The eyelids twitched and the whites became enlarged. Her breath was drawn out while the voice grew even weaker. “I recognize it. . our Astrakhans are ripe. .”
Then there came only a soft sigh as she breathed out:
“Our apples are ripe. I’m home. .”
There was a spasm in her arms, then they lay still and the hand’s hold on the fruit loosened. The big apple rolled slowly down the slope of the blanket and fell with a thud on the floor near the bed.
Karl Oskar bent down and picked it up; he put it back in his wife’s open hand.
But this time she did not take it, her fingers did not grasp it, her hand did not close around it. Kristina’s hand lay still and open on the blanket, and the apple fell for a second time to the floor.
Karl Oskar looked at it and rose with a start. He bent over his wife and saw the blanket over her chest rise slowly and sink down just as slowly. Then it did not rise again. The movement was not repeated.
“Kristina!” he cried out. “Stay with . .!”
Karl Oskar stood bent over his wife. Her eyes were half-open, and the whites glittered in their rigidity. The blanket over her chest did not rise again. No movement was visible in her — in her eyes, in her chest, in her limbs, nowhere in her body. The light in her eyes was extinguished and no breath flowed from her mouth.
In one corner of her mouth the little apple bite remained.
Karl Oskar stood as rigid as stone for a long time, staring into her unseeing eyes, listening for her lost breath. Only this moment she had tasted an apple — it was incomprehensible to him that she no longer saw him and that her breath didn’t come back.
XVI. THE THIRD COFFIN
In the old log cabin where the family had lived during their first years as settlers there now shone a night light. This cabin had been built to serve as a home but after the completion of the new house it had been used as a workshop. A large carpenter’s bench stood against one wall. Now a man stood at the bench and worked in the light of a candle lantern which hung from a beam in the ceiling; he was making a coffin for his wife.
To him fell a task which could not be delayed and which he must complete during the night. Hurriedly, untiring, his plane moved over the wood, as he smoothed boards that had been cut from oak timber. But the boards had been intended for another use. They had been sawed and stacked for the building of a house. They were meant for a new main house that he would build, but now they must be used for another purpose. The oak boards would not form the walls of a house where he and his wife would live out their lives. Of the boards he built instead her home after death.
Earlier he had built houses and homes for himself and his wife for life’s time which in fleeting years would pass by, but the room he now built was for the time of death, which had no end. In this house she would stay.
Many times he had said to her: Next time I build. .
That time had come. But now he built only for her.
The plane moved its even path back and forth over the board and spewed out long shavings which coiled like white snakes on the floor. The light from the candle in the lantern above the carpenter’s head fell in a circle over the bench and lit him in his work with its fluttering rays. Round about him in the cabin were dim shadows. On the walls skins of animals had been nailed up to dry; shrouds that had belonged to four-legged beings hung there, limbs outstretched, as if crucified.
The plane dug and bit with its sharp iron tooth and tore shavings from the board. The shavings gathered in piles, coiled around his wrists, and rustled under his feet. The oak board was prime timber, hard under the plane, first class. It was white oak — no timber existed that lasted longer, no wood was better suited to wall a permanent resting place.
Twice before in his life the man at the workbench had made coffins. The first he had made in his homeland for a daughter who from hunger had eaten herself to death. That time he had stood out in a woodshed and worked. That time he was still a beginner in the carpenter’s handicraft, his hands unused to plane and hammer, and he had had poor lumber for the coffin: only old boards, knotty and badly sawed, cracked and warped. He had chosen and discarded — very little had been needed for the girl’s coffin. She had died early in life, when she was only four years old. It had not required many boards to enclose that little body. But he had sought out the clear and knot-free ones, he had chosen the finest planks he could find.
It had been difficult for him that time, for his plane was dull and unsharpened, the hammerhead flew off, refusing to stay on its handle, and it had been his first coffin, his journeyman effort.
(The carpenter’s questions: This daughter was very dear to me, but before she was four years old she was taken from me and died in terrible pain. She died before she had had time to commit any crimes. Did God wish thereby to punish me for my transgressions? But one hears only of a God who is good and just. Can he who is good and just punish the innocent for the deeds of the guilty? Does he let my children inherit my sins? I have never wondered over this before, but now I do: Is our God good and just?)