She turned toward him. “Please don’t make me stay. I don’t like it here. I don’t like the people here. I don’t fit in here. I don’t belong here. I want to go home.”
Her dad said nothing, but she saw the disappointment in his face.
“I’m sorry,” she added. “And it’s not you, okay? If you call, I’ll talk to you. And you can come see me in New York and we’ll spend time together, okay?”
Her dad continued to watch her in silence, which made her feel even worse. She surveyed the contents of her suitcase before adding the rest of her things.
“I’m not sure I can let you go.”
She knew this was coming, and inwardly she tensed. “Dad…”
He raised his hands. “It’s not for the reason you think. I’d let you go if I could. I’d call your mom right now. But given what happened the other day at the music store…”
With Blaze, she heard herself answer. And the arrest…
Her shoulders sagged. In her anger, she’d forgotten about the stolen goods.
Of course she’d forgotten about them. She hadn’t stolen them in the first place! Her energy suddenly evaporated and she turned around, plopping down on the bed. This wasn’t fair. None of this was fair.
Her dad still hadn’t moved into the room.
“I can try to reach Pete-Officer Johnson-and see if it would be okay. I might not be able to reach him until tomorrow, though, and I don’t want you to get into any more trouble. But if he says it’s okay and you still want to go, I won’t make you stay.”
“Do you promise?”
“Yeah,” he said. “Even though I’d rather you stay, I promise.”
She nodded, pressing her lips together. “Will you come to New York to see me?”
“If I can,” he said.
“What does that mean?”
Before her dad could answer, there was a sudden knocking on the door, loud and insistent. Her dad glanced over his shoulder. “I think that’s probably the boy you were with today.” She wondered how he knew, and reading her expression, he added, “I saw him heading this way when I came in the house to find you. Do you want me to handle it?”
Don’t be mad at him. It’s just the way he is. He can’t help it.
“No,” she said. “I’ll handle it.”
Her dad smiled, and for an instant, she thought he looked older than he had just the day before. As though her request had somehow aged him.
But even so, she didn’t belong here. This was his place, not hers.
The knocking at the door sounded again.
“Hey, Dad?”
“Yeah?”
“Thanks,” she said. “I know you really want me to stay, but I can’t.”
“It’s okay, sweetheart.” Though he smiled, the words came out wounded. “I understand.”
She tugged at the seam on her jeans before rising from the bed. As she reached the door, he placed a hand on her back and she paused. Then, steeling herself, she went to the door and pulled it open, noting that Will’s hand was hanging in the air. He seemed surprised that she’d opened it.
She stared at him, wondering how she could have been so stupid to trust him. She should have listened to her instincts.
“Oh, hey…,” he said, lowering his hand. “You’re here. For a second there-”
She slammed the door, only to hear him immediately begin knocking again, his voice pleading.
“C’mon, Ronnie! Wait! I just want to know what happened! Why’d you leave?”
“Go away!” she shouted back.
“What did I do?”
She swung the door open again. “I’m not going to play your game!”
“What game? What are you talking about?”
“I’m not stupid. And I don’t have anything to say to you.”
Again, she slammed the door. Will began pounding on it.
“I’m not leaving until you talk to me!”
Her dad motioned to the door. “Trouble in paradise?”
“It’s not paradise.”
“So it seems,” he said. “Do you want me to take care of it?” he offered again.
The pounding started up again.
“He won’t stay long. It’s better to just ignore him.”
After a moment, he seemed to accept that and motioned to the kitchen. “Are you hungry?”
“No,” she said automatically. Then, putting her hands on her stomach, she changed her mind. “Well, maybe a little.”
“I found another good recipe online. This one has onions, mushrooms, and tomatoes cooked in olive oil, served over pasta, and tossed with Parmesan cheese. Does that sound okay?”
“I don’t think Jonah will like it.”
“He wanted a hot dog.”
“Now there’s a surprise.”
He smiled just as the knocking sounded again. When it continued, he must have seen something in her face because he opened his arms.
Without thinking, Ronnie walked toward him and felt him hold her close. There was something… gentle and forgiving in his embrace, something she’d missed for years. It was all she could do to stop the tears from coming before she pulled back.
“How about I give you a hand with dinner?”
Ronnie tried once again to absorb the contents of the page she’d just read. The sun had set an hour ago, and after surfing restlessly through a handful of channels on her dad’s TV, she had shut it off and picked up her book. But try as she might, she couldn’t seem to make it through a single chapter, because Jonah had been standing near the window for almost an hour… which forced her to think about what was outside the window, or rather who was outside.
Will. It had been four hours, and the guy still hadn’t left. He’d stopped knocking a long time ago and simply perched himself just beyond the crest of the dune, his back to the house. Technically, he was on the public beach, so neither she nor her father could do anything except ignore him. Which was what she and her dad-who, oddly, was reading the Bible again-were trying to do.
Jonah, on the other hand, simply couldn’t ignore him. He seemed to find Will’s vigil transfixing, like a UFO landing near the pier or Bigfoot trudging through the sand. Though he was wearing his Transformers pajamas and should have gone to bed half an hour earlier, he’d begged his dad to let him stay up for a little while, because, in his words, “if I go to bed too early, I might wet the bed.”
Right.
He hadn’t wet his bed since he was a toddler, and she knew her dad didn’t believe a word of it. His acquiescence probably had to do with the fact that it was the first full evening they’d all spent together since she’d arrived and-depending on what Officer Johnson told them tomorrow-maybe their last. She figured her dad simply wanted to prolong the experience.
Which was understandable, of course, and sort of made her feel bad about the whole wanting-to-leave thing. Making dinner with him had been more fun than she’d thought it would be, since he hadn’t laced his questions with insinuations the way her mom did lately. Still, she had no intention of staying any longer than she had to, even if it was hard on her dad. The least she could do was try to make tonight enjoyable.
Which was impossible, of course.
“How long do you think he’s going to sit out there?” Jonah mumbled. By her reckoning, he’d asked the same question at least five times, even though neither she nor her dad had answered. This time, however, her dad set aside his Bible.
“Why don’t you go ask him,” he suggested.
“Yeah, right,” Jonah snorted. “He’s not my boyfriend.”
“He’s not my boyfriend, either,” Ronnie added.
“He’s acting like your boyfriend.”
“He’s not, okay?” She flipped to a new page.
“Then why is he sitting out there?” He cocked his head, trying to solve the riddle. “I mean, it’s just weird, don’t you think? Sitting out there for hours, waiting for you to talk to him. I mean, we’re talking about my sister. My sister.”
“I can hear you,” Ronnie said. In the last twenty minutes, she figured she had reread the same paragraph six times.
“I’m just saying it’s weird,” Jonah mused, sounding like a baffled scientist. “Why would he wait outside for my sister?”