She considered instead what Vivie had said about them stealing water as children in a Gibber settle. Now that she thought about it, she dimly recalled sneaking out at night to fill jars from the wash when the water came down like a meddle of running packpedes. She remembered taking water from the open stone channels, too. What were they called? Slots, that was right. They had them here in Scarcleft as well, to irrigate the bab groves outside the city walls.
But most of all, she remembered being scared. Scared of the dark, scared of being caught by the reeve. Scared of Pa if they failed to return with water. Scared of his shouting.
She frowned, thinking back. She could remember the settle, every detail. She could have described each crack in the walls of their house, or the shape of the stains on Pa's baggy trousers, or the patterns on the water jars beside the fireplace and the way the water in them iced over on cold nights. Her memory of events had faded, but the place was imprinted on her mind, as unchanging as carvings in stone. Other people don't remember things the way I do. Why not? It worried her.
She wondered if forgetting the unpleasant happenings had been deliberate, the desperation of a child who had not wanted to remember. But she was no longer a child. Her future had challenged her childhood; Huckman's hand on her breast and Donnick's death had banished it forever.
"Oh good, you're ready." Vivie clambered onto the rooftop, fanning herself. She sank down on the day bed with a heartfelt sigh and leaned back so that Terelle could rub the paste into her scalp and comb it through the strands of her hair. She is so like a cat, Terelle thought. Wanting to be stroked all the time. Vivie demanding to be pampered was among her earliest memories.
"I hear Rosscar fled the city this morning," Vivie said, closing her eyes. "Opal's grinning like a frog in a day jar."
"What? Why?"
"Rosscar's pa, the oil merchant, paid Opal not to tell the highlord's guard how Donnick died. Luckily for Rosscar, Garri hadn't got round to reporting it. Opal will be in a good mood for days. She made a heap of tokens."
"But… what about Donnick?"
Vivie shrugged. "Makes no difference to him."
Upset, Terelle tightened her lips and tried not to think about it. Luckily Vivie lost interest in the subject. The heat of the afternoon mired conversation anyway. The monotonous click of cicadas sunning on top of the wall was comfortably familiar and it was pleasant not to be at the beck and call of every girl in the snuggery, helping to primp and preen them for the evening, running here and there fetching things, finding lost items.
If only she could forget the night before.
"That's good," Viviandra murmured as Terelle's fingertips massaged her scalp. She stretched, enjoying the first breath of a breeze that promised to cool the desiccating heat of the afternoon.
"It's been long enough, I think. You want shiny highlights, not bright red hair."
"Bit longer won't make any difference. It's so good just lying here with nothing to do."
Terelle took no notice. She started to wash away the rubyleaf paste, taking care to catch the water afterwards. "Vivie, why didn't we have a water allotment when we were kids?"
"Hmm? Oh, Pa lost his rights to land in the bab grove. Don't know why-a debt, maybe. And he couldn't find regular work."
Terelle took the comb and began to tease out the tangles. "Tell me about my mother."
Vivie sighed. "I have told you, countless times."
"No, you haven't. I don't know anything."
"You know everything I know. Father found her out on the plains when he was prospecting." She counted off the facts on her fingers, not bothering to conceal her impatience. "He guessed she'd been abandoned by a caravan. Her name was Sienna. She was dressed oddly, in colourful fabric. She spoke a strange language. Pa wanted her; he took her, she lived with us and later she had you and then she died. What more is there to tell?"
"You were eight or so then. She must have talked to you."
"Terelle, she could hardly speak our tongue! What could she say?"
"Where do you think she came from?"
"I don't know. I don't think anyone knew. And she couldn't tell us."
"Sienna is not a Scarpen name. Or a Gibber one. I've asked lots of people about that."
"Maybe she came from across the Giving Sea. Though we lived a long way from the sea."
"Was she happy?"
"Was anyone ever happy living with Pa? He made my ma bitter and unhappy by taking a second woman. He killed your ma because he was too mean to call the midwife when you were born." She was matter-of-fact, rather than angry. "Terelle, I scarcely knew her, and what I did know I've mostly forgotten. Looking back on it, I think she was weak and ill most of the time. Maybe because of her experience out on the Gibber Plains? She didn't say much, but then she probably didn't have the words anyway." She stood up. "I'm going to the baths now; do you want to come?"
Terelle shook her head. The women's bath house was a gossipy place, abounding with stories, and normally she loved it there. This time, though, she wasn't in the mood. "I'll clean up here," she said.
Vivie smiled her thanks and left, her scent floating behind her. She had spent days concocting a personal fragrance; Terelle found it over-sweet.
She poured the rinse water onto the fruit trees. Watering them was her job, and sometimes she used cooking water cadged from the kitchens or dirty wash water from the bedrooms. Her allotment of pure water for the plants she sold to the street waterseller for tokens, and used those to buy items in the bazaar. At first she'd thought she was being clever, saving water like this and getting money to spend on herself, but now she was wiser. Opal knew perfectly well what she was doing and in fact intended for her to do just that. It was a lesson for every child to learn: water was life; water was wealth. You didn't throw away old water and you didn't waste drinking water. Ever.
As she watered a kumquat already coming into fruit, she glanced down over the balustrade. Below, the lowest four levels of the city of Scarcleft merged into one another, the outer walls of one building forming the boundaries of the next a step below. From this angle, the city looked lush, each terrace and roof crowded with potted plants: dwarf figs and apricots and quandongs, melons and peppers, herbs and spices, keproot and hemp. The rock-hard daub of the stepped streets between the houses was brown, as were the high windowless walls of mud-brick on either side, their sun-baked clay as hard as iron. Gates set into the walls were brilliant patterns in the drabness. Painted with family colours and symbols, heavily studded with gemstones, the gates varied from the garish scarlet paintwork and amethysts of the snuggery to the subtle combinations of ochre wash set with smoky quartz on a nearby potter's house.
Further down, on the buildings of the waterless inhabitants of the city's lowest level-the thirty-sixth-there was neither paint nor studs. Nor much greenery sprouting from rooftop pots, either. Terelle let her gaze linger for a moment on the crumbling bricks and palmleaf weave of the walls there and felt a familiar touch of fear.
To be waterless…
There could be no worse fate. Once it had been hers and could well be again if she didn't order her life wisely. She had been born without water allotment, owed none by any settle or town or city, all because at the time of her birth her father had been both landless and unemployed.
She drew a ragged breath, unbalanced even at the thought. I won't let it happen again. Useless to rely on Madam Opal or on Vivie, and certainly useless to think of her father, almost faceless now in her memory, who had sold them both. Never again, I swear it, she told the lurking dark. But I'll earn a living my way, not Vivie's way.