An altercation. An argument. Raised voices, carried away on the wind, lost in the clatter of the sea. The fog. The slippery coast. Observing them, Galen could not hear what was being said. He did not need to. Andrew wanted more. Galen could see this in the boy’s posture. Andrew reached for her, groping toward her. His expression was mocking. He thought Miranda would be vulnerable on her own.
But Galen knew better. A wounded animal is the most dangerous kind. Miranda had been attacked once already. Galen took in her stance — her shoulders back, her chin lifted. Andrew did not try to run. He did not see the impact coming. He was unaware of the seal stone in Miranda’s pocket, carried with her always, heavy and certain. He did not know what Galen knew.
A crack to the head. A spray of blood. A splash.
Galen remembers it all. He remembers it well. Andrew’s hat fell off when the blow was struck. His ankle was broken, his lungs filling with water. Miranda stood on the shore for a while, watching the corpse floating on the tide. The shock seemed to leave her immobile. She needed a few minutes to gather her wits. Eventually she bent down and picked up the hat. She wrapped the bloody stone inside it. She took them both home and hid them, like a dog burying a bone. She tucked the evidence underneath her bed, a place she left infrequently over the ensuing weeks.
November 9: Andrew’s body discovered.
November 10: Corpse placed in cold storage in S.F., awaiting autopsy.
November 14: Mick and Forest in the coast guard house for two hours.
Galen sips his tea. The steam fills his lungs with a pleasant odor of cinnamon. Outside, the fog has begun to thin out. Rippling and pale, it seems delicate, like lace or cheesecloth. The air is different too — fresher, brighter, more awake. Galen can always feel it when the weather starts to change. In an hour or two, the sky will be clear, the sea smooth, the islands drenched in light.
After Andrew’s murder, Galen took no action. He waited. During the weeks that followed the boy’s death, he watched Miranda from a distance, in the manner of a hawk in flight, miles above the ground, unnoticed by its prey, peering down with telescopic vision. He tracked and recorded everything she did. He slept lightly, waking in the night, listening for her footfalls. He paid attention to her demeanor during meals, during conversations. He became aware of her constant letter-writing. He noticed the fact that these missives appeared to go unsent. Now, of course, after some investigation, he knows they were letters to a departed parent.
Gradually he began to understand Miranda’s behavior. She did not remember what she had done. The quarrel on the shore, the seal stone, the blow to Andrew’s head, the body in the black surf — all of it was gone.
Galen has had some experience with this phenomenon. The animal mind is one without memory. He has researched it. Most animals are able to recall the short term — the past few seconds or minutes — but anything further back is released from the brain like a balloon on the breeze. Animals retain impressions, rather than stories. They may avoid a dangerous place by instinct. They may shy away from an object that is associated with trauma. But they do not recall specific events. A shark, having devoured a seal, will swim away with a clean conscience, no echo of blood or pain. A gull might kill its own chick in a fit of fury, then mourn when discovering the little body later, unaware of its own guilt, lost in its own forgetting.
Perhaps Miranda has a similar mind. Perhaps that is her nature.
Galen turns his gaze to the window. The horizon is rumpled by waves. A few birds circle Saddle Rock. In some ways, he is sorry that Miranda has left the islands. He is sorry to have lost such a unique and compelling specimen.
He remembers when he first began to perceive a change in her gait. It was just a few weeks into her pregnancy. The signs of the transformation were subtle then, but Galen was watching closely enough to notice them. Her stride slowed. There was a new sway in her hips. Her skin seemed different too — younger, tauter. She developed the occasional spate of acne along her jaw.
Galen digested this information. He made sure he was not imagining things. Miranda’s waistline had not yet changed, but she was already a bit weary, a bit unfocused. Her hair thickened. Her posture began to shift. The pigmentation of her face changed, a mask of freckled brown overtaking her cheeks. Miranda seemed as unaware of these changes as she had been of her violence toward Andrew. So Galen kept track of what she herself was incapable of seeing. As usual, it fell to him to serve as the observant eye, the dispassionate heart, the long memory of the islands.
December 15: Miranda demonstrating increased appetite.
January 1: Miranda having nausea. She asked at breakfast if there was a stomach bug going around. No one answered.
January 28: Miranda kept indoors by fatigue.
Galen takes a final sip of tea, draining the dregs. He heads to the window, looking out at the hazy sky. Clouds stream above the horizon in layers of uneven density. Their mismatched hues echo off the water, the reflection further complicated by the choppy surf. The seascape is a quilt made of a thousand scraps of blue. Galen draws in a deep, contented breath. In a few minutes he will summon Forest. They will board the Janus. They will head out on Shark Watch. He feels certain the Sisters are out there. He holds his private notebook against his chest.
Only once in the past year has his resolve faltered. It was Charlene, of course — so reminiscent of his late wife. The red hair. The round face. The upbeat temperament. He remembers the evening she took him aside. After dinner, she whispered that she needed to chat. The air was gelid, the windows coated with frost. In Charlene’s small bedroom, Galen sat on the mattress. Earnestly, she began to speak.
She told him what he already knew. She told him the story in a circuitous, overlapping manner, repeating herself and wringing her hands. It was all about Andrew. Charlene had heard him leaving the house the night he died. She had heard someone on the grounds with him. Two voices, though she could not identify the second speaker. It had been preying on her mind. Galen remembers how he soothed and murmured. He composed his features into an expression of appropriate surprise. Probably just a trick of the wind, he said. He was trying to put her off the scent. He did not want her to press the issue or interfere with his work. He left her room soon afterward, promising that he would consider the situation.
What followed was difficult for him. Surprisingly so. Even after all his years on the islands — after all his practice in the biologist’s habit of mind — he was not prepared for the sight of that girl unconscious on the surfboard. The memory of it still bothers him. Her brow bloodied. Her elbow dislocated. Her face blank.
But he stayed resolute. He observed and recorded. He did not intervene.
February 2: Charlene taken by helicopter to S.F. Dislocated elbow. Possible concussion.
February 3: Call from hospital. Charlene is recovering. No sign of brain damage.
February 5: Call from Charlene herself. She says her pain is much less, elbow healing. Seems to be in good spirits.
At last Galen leaves the window. He carries his mug of tea into the kitchen and rinses it out dutifully. He returns to the table, takes the pencil from his pocket, and splays the emerald notebook open to today’s date.
July 27: Miranda leaves the islands permanently. Still unaware of all that she has done. No memory.
He reads the words through once and nods in satisfaction.