As the child feasted, it felt itself pulled away from its orgy of blood, and before it could react to this affront, tossed through the air. It bounced off the back wall of a small cage, and as it attempted to reorient itself and go on the attack once more, the door slammed shut.
The woman whose dog had just been killed had a cage in which she would transport her dog to the park each day in the back of her van, and the zombie baby found itself trapped within. It beat blindly at the sides of the cage, but the metal was too strong for it to bend.
The woman smiled as she drove it back to her home. The reason she had a dog, she always knew, was because she could not have a child, and now, most unexpectedly, she had a child. She saw it as a gift from God. She did not care that it was dead, or that she would obviously have to be very, very careful or she would end up dead herself. She would love it for the rest of her life, even after the world came through the other side of this plague. She would tell no one of it, so that when all the other zombies were rounded up and destroyed, her baby would remain safe. She would love it and care for it as long as she lived.
But she would never let it out of its cage.
Well… maybe that won’t turn out to be one of the stories worth telling. Right now, in the midst of it all, it seems somewhat pointless to even bother creating stories, but I know that someday the world will want to make sense of what we went through together, and someone will have to step forward to do that. That someone might as well be me. So I at least have to try.
One thing I’ve been realizing, as my subconscious mind weaves life into art (well, let others decide later if there’s any art there) is that all zombie stories are true. Also, no zombie stories are true. Because, you see, there are no zombie stories until I write them. The universe has no opinion of us. No matter how much we want to pretend, real life does not contain the quality of story. No arcs, no morals, no meaning. Life is what we make of it.
And I was finally, after a lifetime of typing, in a position to make something of it.
It had been a week since I had taken refuge in this place. Undoubtedly, whoever was inside the armored car had to have been there nearly as long, or he would not still be alive. However long the person had been trapped, he—or she, I shouldn’t forget there was a chance that it could be a she—surely needed food by now. And it was up to me to help.
I rushed back to the candy machine that I had long since cracked open, having abandoned the comforting illusion of order that dropping change in the slot had earlier brought me, and filled my pockets with pretzels, beef jerky, soda, and whatever else could fit. The cans, cold through the cloth of my jacket, reminded me that the city’s electricity still worked, which had to be a good sign, right? Somewhere out there the wheels of industry kept turning, and human beings had to be the ones turning them. Or so I hoped. I’m afraid I didn’t understand enough about technology to know for sure. I’m not that kind of writer. I’d research that after what I told myself I had to do, if there was an after.
I ran down to the ground floor and paused at the far end of the hallway that led to the main entrance, back enough from the gates so that though I could make out the foot traffic, I could not be easily seen. I watched as the zombies moved in their random patterns and waited for the street ahead to clear. There would come a moment, I was sure, in which nothing stood between me and the armored car, and no one hovered close enough to catch me even if I was noticed.
And then, trying not to think too much about it, I ran. It was not a pretty thing, as I am a writer, not a runner. Those two roles cohabit rarely, and certainly not in me. I am ashamed to say that it was not courage that propelled me clumsily on. It was loneliness that had overcome my fear, not altruism.
When I was closer to the armored car than I was to the library’s front door, I suddenly thought—what if that hadn’t been a living person I had seen staring back at me through that narrow window? What if the guard had died in the crash and was now himself a zombie, and the face was that of something struggling to get out and unable to figure out how… and hungry?
It was too late to dwell on that for more than an instant, because out of the corner of an eye, I could see a shuffling form. As I ran more quickly, soda sloshing, the thick back door of the armored car was raised in front of me, and I dove in. The door slammed shut behind me and I turned my head quickly to see that, yes, thankfully, I was visiting someone still alive. The man in the stained guard uniform locking the door looked far the worse for wear than I did, but he was still a man. The air hung heavy with sweat, but after someone has lived in the back of a small truck for a week, I guess I was lucky I could stand it at all.
I lay there, breathing heavily, feeling drained as much from the tension as the exertion, and did not protest as the guard patted me down. I knew what he was looking for, and was just thankful at this juncture that he was eating my food instead of attempting to eat me. He snapped a huge chocolate chip cookie in half and shoved both pieces in his mouth, then popped a soda, which exploded across his face thanks to my mad dash. But he wasn’t angry, as he surely would have been back in the old days of only a week before. He just laughed, and took a long pull from the can.
“Thanks,” he said, wiping the crumbs and foam from his face. “I don’t think a soda has ever tasted this good. And as you might guess, I haven’t had many reasons to laugh in a while.”
I nodded and forced a smile. I was glad to see him, to know that I wasn’t alone, but I wasn’t happy about the fact that I’d had to come to him, rather than the reverse, to do it.
“Why are you still here?” I said, a little too terse, considering what should be joyful circumstances. “Once you knew I was inside, why didn’t you make a break for the library? That place is like a fortress.”
He swiveled clumsily about and showed me his right foot, the ankle of which twisted at an ugly angle.
“I’d never have made it with this,” he said. “Once we flipped, and I felt the snap, I knew that it was all over for me.”
“But you have to try, Barry,” I said. He started when I called him by name, so I pointed at his ID badge, still hanging from his chest pocket. “I didn’t want to feel responsible for you starving out here, so I brought food, but it’s too risky to do more than once. You can’t expect me to continue supplying you. And you can’t last forever in here alone.”
“I didn’t plan on lasting forever.” He shrugged. The bags under his eyes shrugged with him. “Would have been nice, though. But better starved to death than eaten to death. I’ll admit I expected to end up with a bigger coffin. But this one will have to do.”
“No,” I said suddenly and firmly, surprised at myself even as I blurted it out. “I’m not going to let that happen. We ought to be able to get you up those steps and into the library if we work together. I can distract them. They don’t move that fast.”
“Faster than me,” he said wearily.
His expression was a defeated one, but I knew better than to accept it as irreversible. If there’s one thing I’ve learned over the years, it’s that people want to live.
“We’ve got to try,” I said. “You don’t want me to have come this far for nothing. I ought to at least get a chance to save your life.”
He laughed, which I considered progress. I peered out the small window in the rear door, back up the steps of the library to safety. The front gates looked infinitely far away. I was stunned that I had survived the first leg of the journey. But I knew that regardless of how treacherous it seemed, I was going back. If I was going to die, it was going to be in that library, or at the very least trying to get back to that library, and not in the rear of an armored car. Barry might have been willing to settle for a coffin of that size, but mine had to be a little larger.