The moment after that, I’m in the kitchen, one hand reaching for the handle of the pot of water, which hasn’t come to full boil yet. Behind me, I can hear the stairs shifting under the eaters’ weight. I can smell them—God, everything I’ve heard about the way the things smell is true. I want to call to the kids, tell them to get in here with me, but it’s all I can do not to vomit.
That second, the second my fingers are closing around the handle—that’s the one I return to. When I replay the three minutes it took my life to disintegrate, I focus on me in the kitchen. I can’t remember how I got there. I mean, I know how I went from the stairs to the kitchen, I don’t know why. Once I reached the top of the stairs, it would have been easy enough to haul myself to my feet and run into the living room, to Robbie and Brian. We could have—I could have shoved the couch out from the wall, used it to delay the eaters while we ran for the back door—or even around them, back down the stairs and out the front door, or into the downstairs rec room. We could have barricaded ourselves in the garage. We—instead, I ran for the kitchen. I realize I must have been thinking about a weapon; I must have been searching for something to defend myself—us with, and the pot on the stove must have been the first thing that occurred to me. This has to be what made me choose the kitchen, but I can’t remember it. All I have is me on the stairs, and then my fingers curling around that piece of metal.
Which isn’t in my hand anymore; it’s lying on the kitchen floor, and Miss Skull-Face’s right eye has sagged downwards because the pot has collapsed her cheek where it struck it. The hot water doesn’t appear to have had any affect on her; although a couple of the pieces of flesh dangling from her face have fallen onto her blouse. She’s moving towards me fast, her hands outstretched, and I see that she’s missing two of the fingers on her left hand, the ring and pinkie, and I wonder if she lost them trying to prevent whoever it was from tearing off her face.
The next thing, I’m on the floor, on my back, which is numb. My head is swimming. Across the kitchen tiles from me, Miss Skull-Face struggles to raise herself from her back. At the time, I don’t know what’s happened, but I realize now the eater’s rush carried us into the wall, stunning us both. The other eaters are nowhere to be seen.
And then I’m on the other side of the kitchen island, which I’ve scooted around on my butt. I’m driving the heel of my left foot straight into the eater’s face, the shock of the impact traveling through the sole of my sneaker up my leg. I feel as much as hear the crunch of bone splintering. I’m as scared as I’ve ever been, but the sensation of the eater’s face breaking under my foot sends a rush of animal satisfaction through me. Although I’m intent on the web of cracks spreading out from the sudden depression where Miss Skull-Face’s nose and cheeks used to be, I’m aware that her companions are not in the kitchen.
I must—if I haven’t before, I must understand that the other eaters have left Miss Skull-Face to deal with me and turned in search of easier—of the—I know I pull myself off the floor, and I’m pretty sure I kick the same spot on the eater’s face with the toe of my sneaker, because afterwards, it’s smeared with what I think are her brains. What I remember next is—
(To the front, rear, left, and right of the theater, the air is full of screaming. At first, the sound is so loud, so piercing, that it’s difficult for anyone in the audience to do anything more than cover her or his ears. Mary raises her hands to either side of her head; it does not appear that the Stage Manager does, even as the screams climb the register from terror to pain. Muffled by skin and bone, the screams resolve themselves into a pair of voices. It is hard to believe that such noises could issue from the throats of anything human; they seem more like the shrieks of an animal being vivisected. As they continue for four, five, six seconds—an amount of time that, under other circumstances, would pass almost without notice but that, with the air vibrating like a plucked guitar string, stretches into hours—it becomes possible to distinguish the screams as a single word tortured to the edge of intelligibility, made the vessel for unbearable pain: “Mommy.”
(The screaming stops—cut off. Mary removes her hands from her ears hesitantly, as if afraid her children’s screams might start again.)
Mary: That’s—there are—they—there are some—I don’t—there are some things a mother shouldn’t have to see, all right? My parents—I—when I was growing up, our next door neighbors’ oldest son died of leukemia, and my mother said, “No parent should outlive their children.” Which is true. I used to think it was the worst thing that could happen to you as a parent, especially of small children. But I was wrong—I was—they—oh, they had them in their teeth—
(Now Mary screams; head thrown back, eyes closed, hands clutching her shirt, she opens her mouth and pours forth a wail of utter loss. When her scream subsides to a low moan, her head drops forward. She brings her hands to her head, runs one over it while the other winds one of the long strands of her hair around itself.
(From the front of the theater, Mary’s voice speaks, but from the echoey quality of the words, it’s clear this is a recording.)
Mary’s Voice: That second, the second my fingers are closing around the handle—that’s the one I return to. When I replay the three minutes it took my life to disintegrate, I focus on me in the kitchen. I can’t remember how I got there. I mean, I know how I went from the stairs to the kitchen, I don’t know why. Once I reached the top of the stairs, it would have been easy enough to haul myself to my feet and run into the living room, to Robbie and Brian. We could have—Robbie and Brian. I didn’t want to expose them to something like that. A parent—a mother isn’t supposed to—that’s not your job. Your job—your duty, your sacred duty, is to protect those children, to keep them safe no matter what—we—instead, I ran for the kitchen. I realize I must have been thinking about a weapon; I must have been searching for something to defend myself—us with, and the pot on the stove must have been the first thing that occurred to me. This has to be what made me choose the kitchen, but I can’t remember it. You have to protect them, no matter—
(The recording stops. The spotlight snaps off, and Mary is gone, lost to the darkness.
(Slowly, the Stage Manager comes to his feet. Once he is up, he looks away from the audience, towards the willow behind him. He takes a deep breath before turning towards the audience again.)
Stage Manager: Here’s the problem. When you sign up for this job—when you’re cast in the part, if you like—you’re told your duties will be simple and few. Keep an eye on things. Not that there’s much you can do—not that there’s anything you can do, really—but there isn’t much that needs doing, truth to tell. Most of the business of day-to-day existence takes care of itself, runs ahead on the same tracks its used for as long as there’ve been people. Good things occur—too few, I suppose most would say—and bad things, as well—which those same folks would count too numerous, I know—but even the very worst things happen now as I’m afraid they always have. Oh, sure, could be you can give a little nudge here or there, try to make sure this person won’t be at work on a June morning that’ll be full of gunfire, or steer the cop in the direction of that house she’s had a nagging suspicion about, but mostly, you’re there to watch it all take place.
Then something like this—then this, these zombies, folk getting up who should be lying down—it overtakes you, sweeps across the world and your part of it like—like I don’t know what, something I don’t have words for. You do the best you can—what you can, which mostly consists of putting on a brave face and not turning your eyes away from whatever horror’s in front of you; although there may be opportunities for more direct action.