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“So…?”

“In just a hundred years atheist Communists and atheist Nazis killed hundreds of millions… comprehensively more than any religion. And yet they did it for ideological and philosophical reasons, they did it for reasons which were themselves quasi-religious.”

“And what does that mean?”

The tools of Fishwick’s business twinkled in the overbright lights; the stainless silver scalpels, the exquisite cranial drills.

“This is the real reason that they are going to close down the lab, Jake, why even the hard-core Communist Chinese lost interest in Sen’s work. It turned out that the people who had the surgery, the Godectomy, here, they ended up with as little interest in communism as they might have had in Islam… or Zoroastrianism.”

“Why?”

Because communism is just another belief system. Hmm? Another irrational belief system that uses the same neural structures. Communism relies on faith and devotion and revelation, it has sacred texts—Das Kapital, the Little Red Book — it has saints, prophets, and priests. It believes in a heaven, a Utopia, which is just a heaven on earth in their case. And Marxism is just as illogical as the craziest faith: everywhere that communism has been tried it has failed, dismally.” The neurosurgeon leaned to check an oval glass dial on one squat and glinting machine. “Yet still the true believers believe, they are sure we shall see heaven on earth. They have, after all, faith.”

“Except an even more destructive one,” Jake said. “A savage and godless faith. Right?”

“Yes. A religion with no morals, quite lethal and disgusting. Leaving millions killed. If communism is their Koran, if Marx is their Bible — then it is a Bible of the Dead.” He paused for a long second. “And many of our patients were proof of this equivalence: following the operation, it turned out they were all deeply skeptical of communism, just as skeptical of communism as they might be of Mormonism, or horoscopes. And when the Chinese realized that Sen’s laboratory was churning out people with no faith in the orthodox stupidities of Marx and Mao, that’s when they lost interest.”

Jake was sweating now. Hot and sweating.

“Ironic.”

Fishwick agreed, with a pensive smile. And stood close.

“We’re nearly ready. Jake… the temperature levels of the thawing process are vitally important. There’s just a few moments to go….” A quiet word was swapped with the nurse.

Jake said, “Keep talking. Before I change my mind. Please?

Fishwick obeyed. “As it happens, Cambodia also provides the most interesting counterexample, on which I have often reflected. Indeed, a year or two ago I began to vigorously reexamine all the ancient history. For instance, I went back to Site Nine in Laos — they preserved just one site intact for researchers. And, crucially, I also visited Angkor.” He was staring into his own surgical lights. “Ah, Angkor Wat. Perhaps the greatest and most beautiful preindustrial society we know: exquisitely advanced, enchanted, a kingdom where government was truly united with the image of the divine, of the godhead—”

“The faces of the Bayon.”

“Yes.” The American tilted one of the vast surgical lights a fraction of a centimeter. “You know, the builders of Angkor even left a sign to show that they knew the importance of proper faith to civilization.”

“The diamond in the forehead of the great Bayon faces.”

The light was shining on Jake’s forehead. Fishwick answered:

“Yes. Perhaps instinctively, the builders of Angkor knew the preciousness of true religion. They even guessed where it might lie, the God module, in the head. They certainly remembered the terrors of the Black Khmer, trepanned, lobotomized, and godless… on the Plain of Jars.” There was another murmured conversation with the nurse. The surgeon swiveled, and explained: “Jake, this is it. In approximately ninety seconds, the cryoprobe will be at the correct temperature. So if you want to turn back, you need to speak up now.”

Jake’s heartbeat was chaotic: skipping with fear. He quelled his terror with another question.

“No. I want to know why you carried on with the surgeries, if you had these doubts.”

Fishwick nodded, his face a shadow behind the lights.

“Because I kept convincing myself… against the growing evidence. After all, there are so many good, solid, Darwinian explanations for why religious faith has evolved. And yet I also had evidence of the necessity of faith. People who have faith are healthier, happier, they live longer, they even have stronger immune systems. This is scientific fact. So I became… very confused.” The nurse was calling Fishwick to scrutinize a larger machine, which resembled an ECG monitor. The surgeon softly spoke to the nurse and returned to his theme. “Then, one day, quite recently, I discovered another very curious fact during my research. It’s Parkinson’s disease. People who have Parkinson’s, even the mildest form… are less likely to be believers.”

The nurse was standing with the rubber mask, ready to hand it over.

“And that means?” Jake grasped at the last shreds of this reality. “What does that mean?”

“It is therefore at least arguable that atheism is a form of dementia. Imagine that! Atheism is a kind of psychosis, a mental illness. The healthy mind is, very, very truly, a mind that believes.” An electronic chime rang across the room. “OK, Jake, that’s the signal. The temperature is critical, we need to do this… right now. We can’t wait any longer.”

“Wait, I want to know.” Even as the rubber mask of anesthesia was clamped over his mouth, Jake felt the cry of a question in his godless mind. “I still don’t know why. Why does it make us happier? Why are we meant to believe?”

But his question was met by the black silence of unconsciousness.

49

“How do you feel?”

“The same. Different. I don’t know.

Jake was awake. Sipping a hot drink. He had been conscious for an hour, in the dark, but now the lights were on, and Fishwick was gazing at him with a quizzical expression.

“Perhaps you need to see… to go outside. To assess your reactions.”

Jake knew what this meant: go and look at the world, go and see Chemda. Find out whether his guilty soul had been retrieved from erasure.

He stood. Again he felt an odd composure, a sweet stability; not the quailing weakness he expected following serious surgery. Did this mean the surgery had worked? Or simply done nothing?

At least he could talk. He wasn’t a drooling fool.

A loose jacket slung over his shirtsleeves, he stepped out of the room. At the end was that dazzling silver oblong: the glass door that gave onto the terrace, the door that opened to the truth.

He walked and pressed the glass and he breathed the thin light air of Balagezong. Julia and Chemda were seated at the tables and staring his way. In a crushing second he realized: he felt the same, he felt nothing. He felt nothing for Chemda.

The truth was so anguished, he couldn’t bear to describe it. His face must have spoken eloquently enough: Chemda turned away. She put a hand to her eyes, disguising her emotions. Jake didn’t know if she was crying or not. He didn’t especially care. The sun shone down. No one said anything. There was nothing to be said; nothing was ever going to be said, ever again. Faint cirrus clouds striped the sky beyond White Buddha Mountain.