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He turned on her such a look of grief-torn loathing that she flinched. 'She trusted you and you betrayed her, he said hoarsely. 'She thought no harm could come to her if you were at the birth. His hand cupped the back of his wife's head; his other arm was banded around her limp spine.

'I cannot work miracles! Catrin answered in a voice that shook with the effort of controlling her anger and grief. 'Her fate was sealed from the start; you're not being fair.

'Fair? What has fairness got to do with anything! he raged. 'Go away, leave us alone. We don't want you, we don't want anyone! He buried his face in Edon's lank blond hair.

Catrin struggled to her feet. Her hip was numb and her ribs sore. She looked at Geoffrey. Silent tremors were ripping through him. His hands grasped and flexed on Edon's unresponsive flesh. He did not want anyone, but certainly he needed someone. And yet, for her own safety she feared to approach him. For one so gentle of nature, the violence in him was wild and unstable. One wrong touch or word and he would strike out again, perhaps with his sword.

Without a word, she left the room. The priest was waiting outside and some of Mabile's women, their eyes red and swollen. She warned everyone but the priest to keep their distance — after all, it was his duty to comfort the bereaved — and rubbing her hip, limped down to the hall to discover if Oliver had returned. He at least had weathered the storm once. The timing could not be worse to ask him to guide Geoffrey through the turbulence to calmer waters, but there was no help for it.

It was so late when Oliver came to bed that the castle folk who worked in the bakehouse and kitchens were stirring to begin the day's work and the summer dawn was paling the eastern sky.

'Christ in heaven, may I never spend such a night again, Oliver murmured, as he sat down by the hearth and rubbed his face in his cupped hands. 'Is there any wine?

Catrin had slept very little herself. The threat of one of her headaches probed the back of her eyes and her stomach was tied in knots. 'Just what's left in the jug.

He reached across the hearth and picked up the small, glazed pitcher.

'How's Geoffrey? Keeping her voice low, mindful of Rosamund asleep on the bed-bench, she wrapped her cloak over her shift and sat beside him.

'Asleep. No, that's not right. You can't call a wine-stupor sleep. I left him lying in the hall covered by his cloak — put him on his side so that he won't choke if he vomits. My brother did as much for me when Emma died. He upended the pitcher to the dregs into a round-bellied cup and glanced at her in the dim dawn light. 'The only wisdom I had for him tonight was that of wine. What could I say? That after years of suffering it gradually eases? That he has their children? That I know how he feels? Where is the comfort in any of that?

Catrin shook her head. 'There isn't any.

'No, there isn't. He swallowed the wine straight down and then grimaced at the cup. 'It brings it all back, he said softly. 'I look at him and I see myself all those years ago. And I know that there is nothing I can do for him except ply him with drink and stop him from going out and picking a fight to ease his rage. Tomorrow it will be the same, and the day after that and the day after that. He will watch the soil drop on to her coffin and he will think about killing the grave diggers and dragging her out to try and waken her one final time. As he spoke, his expression grew progressively more bleak.

'Don't, Catrin said, a tremor in her voice. She brushed at her eyes.

'Friends and companions will surround him and he will curse them for keeping him away from her, Oliver continued, as if he had not heard. 'He will hate her for dying; he will hate his children for looking like her and, most of all, he will hate himself for sowing the seed that killed her. Very gently he put the cup down at the side of the hearth, but Catrin could tell that he had wanted desperately to throw it.

'One day he will begin to heal, Oliver added, looking down at his hands, 'but it will not be for a long time, and he will carry the scars until his dying day.

Catrin could bear the understated emotion and grief no more; she threw her arms around his neck and sat in his lap to be comforted. Oliver's arm tightened around her waist and he buried his face against her throat.

'Ah God, Catrin, why is it always so hard?

To which she had no answer for she was about to make it harder yet. For a moment she remained quiet on his knee, summoning up the courage and fighting several quite plausible procrastinations.

'Oliver, there is something I have to tell you. She cleared her throat. 'I have been trying to find the right moment. Indeed, I was going to tell you last night…

'What? He blinked. 'Oh yes, "the hardened gossip". His voice was dull. 'Can it not wait?

'I wish it could because now is not the time, but delay will only make things more difficult yet.

She felt him tense. 'Is it about Louis?

'No. Jesu, I don't even want to think of him, let alone talk. Licking her lips, she drew a deep breath. 'Oliver, I am with child.

He sat very still and the silence was deep, punctuated only by the soft sound of Rosamund's breathing.

'I was going to tell you sooner, but you were away with Prince Henry and I wanted to be sure that the signs were not false.

'When will you be brought to bed? he asked tightly.

The way he phrased the words was telling to Catrin. He did not mention the child, as most men would, but spoke instead in terms of the labour. 'I am not quite sure, she said. 'Some time in December I think.

There was another silence while he counted and then it was broken by his voice, fierce with anger but low-pitched to avoid waking the child. 'Then you are half-way through the carrying. Are you going to tell me that as a midwife you did not know?

'We have been apart for almost four weeks, she said defensively.

He pushed her off his lap and jerked to his feet. 'But still you must have known long before that.

'Not enough to be sure, she lied, but he turned round and outstared her.

'How much do you need to be sure? he demanded. 'I thought that you did not travel well from Rouen to Carlisle. It wasn't just seasickness, was it?

'I thought it was.

He made a disgusted sound and went to stare out of the shelter entrance. 'You thought I would force you to stay in Rouen if you told me.

'I swear on God's Holy Cross that I did not know for sure I was with child then. One missed flux does not make for a definite pregnancy, and there had been other times when my bleed was late. Catrin bit her lip. She had been dreading telling him and now that she had, it was as bad as she had imagined. 'I did not want to trouble you too soon.

'So you trouble me half-way through your term on the night that my friend's wife dies in childbirth, he said roughly.

She heard the grit in his voice and saw how stiffly he was holding himself, the outline of his body blocking the light that was growing outside.

'Should I have left it longer?

'Christ, you should have told me at the outset! He whirled round and faced her with tear-glittered eyes and an anguished expression. 'It's time I could have had that has been time squandered! Grabbing her arm, he drew her outside the shelter and stood her in the grey morning to look her up and down.

Instead of drawing herself up and sucking her stomach in, Catrin leaned back a little so that her belly showed against the folds of her gown. 'Not every woman dies in childbirth, else there would be few people in the world, she said forcefully. 'It's as much a hazard as going to war. Edon died because her body was worn out. If a woman bears one baby after another, year in, year out, she is bound to suffer. Your wife died because her hips were too narrow to allow the child's passage. She raised her palm to his face. 'I have neither of those difficulties; I am young and strong. You must have faith.