“Hold still,” she said, and shook the veil down over the smooth hair, then stood in front of Karin to pin it on. “The headdress to this has disappeared altogether,” she said. “I must have used it for something else or given it away to somebody to wear at their wedding. I can’t remember. Anyway it would look silly nowadays. It was a Mary Queen of Scots.”
She looked around and picked some silk flowers-a branch of apple blossoms-out of a vase on the dresser. This new idea meant she had to take the pins out and start again, bending the apple blossom stem to make a headdress. The stem was stiff, but at last she got it bent and pinned to her satisfaction. She moved out of the way and gently pushed Karin in front of the mirror.
Karin said, “Oh. Can I have it for when I get married?”
She didn’t mean that. She had never thought of getting married. She said it to please Ann, after all Ann’s effort, and to cover her embarrassment when she looked into the mirror.
“They’ll have something so different in style then,” Ann said. “This isn’t even in style now.”
Karin looked away from the mirror and looked into it again, better prepared. She saw a saint. The shining hair and the pale blossoms, the faint shadows of the falling lace on her cheeks, the storybook dedication, the kind of beauty so in earnest about itself that there is something fated about it, and something foolish. She made a face to crack that face open, but it didn’t work-it seemed as if the bride, the girl born in the mirror, was now the one in control.
“I wonder what Derek would say if he saw you now,” Ann said. “I wonder if he’d even know it was my wedding dress?” Her eyelids were fluttering in their shy troubled way. She stood close to take the blossoms and pins out. Karin smelled soap from under her arms, and garlic on her fingers.
“He’d say, What kind of a stupid outfit is that?” said Karin, doing a superior Derek voice, as Ann lifted the veil away.
They heard the car coming down the valley. “Speak of the devil,” said Ann. Now she was in such a great hurry to undo the hooks and eyes her fingers were clumsy and trembling. When she tried to pull the dress over Karin’s head something got caught.
“Curses,” Ann said.
“You go on,” said Karin, muffled up. “You go on and let me. I’ve got it.”
When she emerged she saw Ann’s face twisted in what looked like grief.
“I was just kidding about Derek,” she said. But perhaps Ann’s look was just one of alarm and concern about the dress.
“What do you mean?” Ann said. “Oh. Hush. Forget it.”
Karin stood still on the stairs to hear their voices in the kitchen. Ann had run down ahead of her.
Derek said, “Is that going to be good? Whatever you’re making?”
“I hope so,” said Ann. “It’s osso buco.”
Derek’s voice had changed. He wasn’t mad anymore. He was eager to make friends. Ann’s voice was relieved, out of breath, trying to match up with his new mood.
“Is there going to be enough for company?” he said.
“What company?”
“Just Rosemary. I hope there’s enough, because I asked her.”
“Rosemary and Karin,” Ann said calmly. “There’s enough of this, but there isn’t any wine.”
“There is now,” said Derek. “I got some.”
Then there was some muttering or whispering from Derek to Ann. He must be standing very close to her and talking against her hair or her ear. He seemed to be teasing, pleading, comforting, promising to reward her, all at once. Karin was so afraid that words would surface out of this-words she would understand and never forget-that she went banging down the stairs and into the kitchen, calling, “Who’s this Rosemary? Did I hear ‘Rosemary’?”
“Don’t sneak up on us like that, enfant,” said Derek. “Make a little noise so we hear you coming.”
“Did I hear ‘Rosemary’?”
“Your mother’s name,” he said. “I swear to you, your mother’s name.”
All the tight displeasure was gone. He was full of challenges and high spirits, as he’d been sometimes last summer.
Ann looked at the wine and said, “That’s lovely wine, Derek, that’ll go beautifully. Let’s see. Karin, you can help. We’ll set the long table on the porch. We’ll use the blue dishes and the good silver-isn’t it lucky we just cleaned the silver. We’ll put two sets of candles. The tall yellow ones in the middle, Karin, and a circle of little white ones around them.”
“Like a daisy,” Karin said.
“That’s right,” said Ann. “A celebration dinner. Because you’re back for the summer.” “What can I do?” said Derek.
“Let me think. Oh-you can go out and get me some things for the salad. Some lettuce and some sorrel, and do you think there’s any cress in the creek?”
“There is,” said Derek. “I saw some.”
“Get some of that too.”
Derek glided a hand round her shoulders. He said, “All will be well.”
When they were almost ready Derek put on a record. This was one of the records he had taken to Rosemary’s place and must have brought back here. It was called Ancient Airs and Dances for Lute, and it had a cover that showed a group of old-fashioned, exquisitely thin ladies, all wearing high-waisted dresses, with little curls down in front of their ears, and dancing in a circle. The music had often inspired Derek to do a stately and ridiculous dance, in which Karin and Rosemary would join him. Karin could match him in a dance, but Rosemary couldn’t. Rosemary tried too hard, she moved a little late, she tried to imitate what could only be spontaneous.
Karin started dancing now, round the kitchen table where Ann was tearing salad and Derek was opening the wine. “Ancient airs and dances for the lute” she sang raptly. “My mom is coming to supper, my mom is coming to supper.”
“I believe Karin’s mom is coming to supper,” said Derek. He held up his hand. “Quiet, quiet. Is that her car I hear?”
“Oh, dear. I should at least wash my face,” said Ann. She dropped the greens and hurried into the hall and up the stairs.
Derek went to stop the record. He took the needle back to the beginning. When he had it going again he went out to meet Rosemary-a thing he did not usually do. Karin had intended to run out herself. But when Derek did, she decided not to. Instead she followed Ann up the stairs. Not all the way, though. There was a small window on the landing where nobody ever halted or looked out. A net curtain over it, so that you were not likely to be seen.
She was quick enough to see Derek stepping across the lawn, going through the gap in the hedge. Long, eager, stealthy strides. He would be in time to bend and open the car door, to open it with a flourish and help Rosemary out. Karin had never seen him do that, but she knew he meant to do it now.
Ann was still in the bathroom-Karin could hear the shower. There would be a few minutes for her to watch undisturbed.
And now she heard the car door shut. But she did not hear their voices. She couldn’t, with the music pouring through the house. And they hadn’t come into sight in the gap in the hedge. Not yet. And not yet. And not yet.
Once after Rosemary left Ted she came back. Not to the house- she was not supposed to come to the house. Ted delivered Karin to a restaurant and there Rosemary was. The two of them had lunch in the restaurant. Karin had a Shirley Temple and chips. Rosemary told her that she was going to Toronto, that she had a job there with a publisher. Karin did not know what a publisher was.
Here they come. Pressing together through the gap in the hedge, where they should have gone single file. Rosemary is wearing her harem pants, made of thin, soft, raspberry-colored cotton. Her shadowy legs show through. Her top is of heavier cotton covered with embroidery and some tiny, sewn-on mirrors. She seems to be concerned about her piled-up hair-her hands fly up, in a gesture of charming nervousness, to loosen some more little wisps and curls that can flutter and dangle around her face. (Something the way those ladies’ curls dangle over their ears, on the cover of Ancient Airs and Dances.) Her fingernails are painted to match her pants.