A woman emerged from the gallery across the street, her red hair loose upon her shoulders. Rachel was smiling, but not at me. A man was behind her, saying something t &ld T‡hat was making her laugh. He looked older than she did, comfortable and paunchy. He placed the palm of his hand lightly against the small of her back as they walked together. Walter spotted Rachel and tried to rise, his tail wagging, but I held him back with his collar. I folded the newspaper and tossed it aside.
Today was going to be a bad day.
When I reached Rachel’s parents’ property, her mother, Joan, was outside the main house, playing ball with Sam. Sam was two now, and was already at that point where she knew the names of her favorite foods, and understood the concept of “mine,” which pretty much covered everything she had developed a liking for, from other people’s cookies to the occasional tree. I envied Rachel and her family the opportunity she had to watch Sam develop. I seemed to see it only in fits and starts, like a jerky film from which crucial frames had been excised.
Sam recognized me as I stepped from the car. Actually, I think she recognized Walter before me, because she called out a mangled version of his name that sounded like “Walnut” and spread her arms in welcome. She had never been afraid of Walter. Walter fell into the category of “mine” where Sam was concerned, and Walter, I suspected, regarded Sam in much the same way. He bounded up to her, but slowed down when he was a couple of feet away, so that he wouldn’t knock her over when he reached her. She threw her arms around him and, after licking her some, he lay down and let her fall upon him, his tail wagging happily.
If Joan had been gifted with a tail, I don’t think it would have been wagging. She struggled to put a smile on her face as I approached, and kissed me lightly on the cheek.
“We weren’t expecting you,” she said. “Rachel went into town. I’m not sure when she’ll be back.”
“I can wait,” I said. “Anyway, I came to see Sam, and to ask a favor.”
“A favor?” The smile wavered again.
“It’ll hold until Rachel returns,” I said.
Sam relinquished her grip on Walter for long enough to toddle up to me and put her arms around my legs. I lifted her up and stared into her eyes, as I gave her the doll.
“Hey, beautiful,” I said. She laughed and touched my face.
“Daddy,” she said, and my eyes grew warm.
Joan invited me inside and offered coffee. I’d had my fill of coffee for the day, but it gave her something to do. Otherwise, we’d simply have ended up staring at each other, or using Sam and Walter as a distraction. Joan excused herself, and I heard a door close and then her voice speaking in a low tone. I guessed that she was calling Rachel. While she was gone, Sam and I played with Walter, and I listened to her speaking a mixture of recognizable words and her own private language.
Joan returned and poured the coffee, then put some milk in a plastic cup for Sam, and we picked at the muffins while talking about nothing at all. After about fifteen minutes, I heard a car pull up outside, then Rachel entered the kitchen, looking flustered and angry. Sam immediately went to her, then pointed at the dog and said “Walnut” again.
“This is a surpr baás is a suise,” said Rachel, making it clear that, as surprises went, it was right up there with finding a corpse in one’s bed.
“A spur-of-the-moment decision,” I said. “Sorry if I disrupted your plans.”
Despite my best efforts, or maybe they just weren’t very good to begin with, there was an edge to my voice. Rachel picked up on it, and frowned. Joan, ever the diplomat, took Sam and Walter outside to play as Rachel removed her coat and tossed it on a chair.
“You should have called,” she said. “We might have been out, or away somewhere.”
She made an attempt to clear some plates from the draining board, then gave up.
“So,” she said. “How have you been?”
“I’ve been okay.”
“You still working at the Bear?”
“Yeah. It’s not so bad.”
She did a good imitation of her mother’s pained smile. “I’m glad to hear that.”
There was silence for a time, then, “We need to formalize these visits, that’s all. It’s a long way to come on a whim.”
“I try to come as often as I can, Rach, and I do my best to call. Besides, this isn’t quite a whim.”
“You know what I mean.”
“Yes, I know.”
More silence.
“Mom said you had a favor to ask.”
“I want you to keep Walter.”
For the first time she showed some emotion other than frustration and barely restrained anger.
“What? You love that dog.”
“Yes, but I’m not around enough for him, and he loves you and Sam at least as much as he loves me. He’s cooped up in the house when I’m working, and I keep having to ask Bob and Shirley to look after him when I leave town. It’s not fair to him, and I know your mom and dad like dogs.”
Rachel’s parents had kept dogs until very recently, when their two old collies had both died within months of each other. Since then, they’d talked about getting another dog, but they hadn’t quite been able to bring themselves to do it. They were still hurting from the earlier deaths.
Rachel’s face softened. “I’ll have to ask Mom,” she said, “but I think it’ll be fine. Are you sure, though?”
“No,” I said, “but it’s the right thing to do.”
She walked over to me and, after a moment’s hesitation, hugged me.
“Thank you,” she said.
I’d put Walter’s basket and toys in the trunk, and I handed them over to Joan once it was clear that she was content to take him. Her husband, Frank, was away on business, but she knew that he wouldn’t object, especially if it made Sam and Rachel happy. Walter keáappy. Wal seemed to know what was happening. He went where his basket went, and when he saw it being placed in the kitchen he understood that he was staying. He licked my hand as I was leaving, then sat himself down beside Sam in recognition of the fact that his role as her guardian had been restored to him.
Rachel walked me to the car.
“I’m just curious,” she said. “How come you’re away so much if your job is at the Bear?”
“I’m looking into something,” I replied.
“Where?”
“ New York.”
“You’re not supposed to be working. It could prevent you from getting your license back.”
“It’s not business,” I said. “It’s personal.”
“It’s always personal with you.”
“Hardly worth doing if it isn’t.”
“Well, just be careful, that’s all.”
“I will.” I opened the car door. “I have to tell you something. I was in town earlier. I saw you.”
Her face froze.
“Who is he?”
“His name is Martin,” she said after a moment.
“How long have you been seeing him?”
“Not long. A month, maybe.” She paused. “I don’t know how serious it is yet. I was going to tell you. I just hadn’t figured out how.”
I nodded. “I’ll call next time,” I said, then got into the car and drove away.
I learned something that day: there may be worse things than arriving somewhere with your dog and leaving without him, but there aren’t many.
It was a long, quiet ride home.
II
A false friend is more dangerous than an open enemy. -FRANCIS BACON (1561-1626), “A LETTER OF
ADVICE…TO THE DUKE OF BUCKINGHAM”
CHAPTER NINE
NEARLY A WEEK WENT by before I could make another trip to New York. Not that it mattered so much: the Bear was short-staffed again, and I ended up working extra days to take some of the load, so there was no way that I could have gone down there even if I had wanted to.
I had been trying to contact Jimmy Gallagher for almost a month, leaving messages on the machine at his home, but there had been no reply until that week. I received a letter from him, not a phon