"They didn't talk much about her, but I gathered she was something of a local legend; someone who kept very much to herself, though."
"That's not surprising living all the way out here."
"It's not so far from town."
"It might have been for an old lady. Y'know, we never did find out what she died of."
"Old age, I'd imagine," Midge replied, and there was an element of regret in her voice. "I hope she didn't suffer alone out here."
"I doubt it. She'd have called a neighbor or friends on the phone, I'm sure. The social services hereabouts probably kept a close eye on her as well. All the same, life must have been sad for her, living on her own, with no relatives, not seeing many people."
Midge twisted in her chair so that she could see out of the open kitchen window. "I don't think so. I don't think she was ever really lonely in Gramarye." Her eyes were not focused on the view outside, but on somewhere distant, not on this planet.
"You're getting weird, Midge," I warned.
She laughed, instantly back in this time and space. "Weird, am I? Who used to lie down on railway tracks and make me swear undying love? Who eats hardboiled eggs with the shell still on? Who came home on New Year's dawn wearing a policeman's helmet and no trousers? Who—"
I held up a hand. "The egg was for a bet. Anyway, that was in my youth."
"The helmet escapade was two years ago."
"See how I've aged? Come on, we've got work to do." My policy is to change the subject when on shaky ground. I rose from the table, the chair scraping against the floor tiles. Midge reached out and touched my arm.
"You've worked hard all morning, so why don't we take a break? There's no great urgency to get everything finished at once."
"There's a lot of scrubbing, painting . . ."
"We haven't explored yet. Let's go for a walk, get some fresh air, find out just where we're living."
"I don't know . . ." I said as if pondering.
"You're such a fakeout, d'you know that? You can't wait to get out of all those chores."
I grinned. "You're right. They'll still be here tomorrow. Shall we drive somewhere?"
"No." She disdainfully drew out the word. "I want to look at our surroundings. I want to go into the forest."
"That place? You mean it's real? I thought it was just a set."
"Titter, titter," she said, shaking her head.
Outside, warm air wafted over me as if I'd opened an oven door and I could feel its goodness seeping through to my bones. A bee droned by and hovered over flowers, spoilt for choice. A fluttering above our heads caused me to turn and look up; I saw there were birds nesting in the eaves of the roof.
"So that was it," I said aloud.
Midge regarded me curiously. "That was what?" She followed my gaze.
"I thought we had mice in the loft. I was just getting ready to take a look earlier when you called me. It must have been birds mooching around up there."
"Inside?"
"I'm not sure. They could have got through the eaves. I'll check it out later."
"My man," she sighed, and dodged my pinching fingers.
We climbed the embankment on the straight side of the cottage rather than take the steps around the curve, me pulling Midge up behind, grasping a tree branch that leaned over from the top of the incline for support. We crossed the stretch of grass, scrub and single trees and, hand in hand, like babes, we went into the woods.
That wasn't quite as easy as it sounds, because first we had to find a way through the tangle of bracken and blackberry bushes which formed a dense barrier along the forest's edge. There were several openings, but not all were obvious at first glance and some only led into a second line of defense. Still, we eventually found a way in and it wasn't long before the cottage behind us was lost from view and the air had become gloomy damp. Our feet sank into what felt like a springy deep-pile carpet and Midge informed me that the topsoil was formed by dead leaves, plants and decomposing animals. The last part made me feel uncomfortable and it didn't help when she further informed me that what we walked on was filled with living organisms that broke down and rotted the abovementioned. That was how the forest thrived rather than becoming cluttered up with litter year after year—nothing was wasted, every dead thing, plant or animal, contributed to the life of something else. Interesting, I told her, and so it was.
Enjoying herself, she pointed out trees and things, not in an attempt to broaden this city slicker's education, but to get me interested and involved in my new environment.
Oak, ash, sycamore, maple—I began to appreciate the different shapes and characteristics (not that I was quite as dumb as I pretended). She explained that there were several layers to a forest. Subsoil, topsoil, and the field layer, which included herbaceous and woody plants, tree saplings, bracken and stuff. Then there was the shrub layer which contained the flowering shrubs such as hawthorn, dogwood, elder, etc. These were topped by the forest roof, or canopy as she called it; up there was where most of the big boys nested, predators like the tawny owl and the sparrow-hawk, along with others such as the carrion crow, magpie and that bunch.
I mention all this not as a nature lesson, but as an indication of how keen Midge was to indoctrinate—no, wrong word: instruct is better—me in the ways of the countryside. She dearly wanted me to become part of it, as was she, knowing in her Midge-wise way that I'd need substitute interests now that I was away from the hustle of our other life-style.
And I played along with her, not just to please, but because I genuinely wanted to embrace this different kind of world. You could say I'd become a little disillusioned with the last one, although again that wouldn't be entirely accurate; I think I was just looking for something more, maybe something better than I'd known so far. That's probably true of most of us, I suppose, but not many get the opportunity to change. Maybe if I'd known what I was going to find I wouldn't have been so eager.
We stopped by a fallen tree, much of the insides rotted away to a brown clumpy powder, dark green moss creeping up what was left of the bark. Ferns did their best to camouflage the trunk further, but the tree's deadness hung around the quiet glade like a ghost over a grave. Bright red patches caught my eye and I moved forward for a closer inspection.
Squatting down, I said over my shoulder to Midge, "Take a look at these, then tell me there's no such thing as pixies and elves."
"I never said there weren't." She knelt close to me. "Oh. I should leave those alone if I were you, Mike."
I prodded the toadstools with a finger. The cluster could have come from a child's storybook, something from one of Midge's paintings, so fairy tale did they appear with their light stalks and scarlet roofs dotted with white patches.
"Poisonous?" I asked, fascinated.
"They'll give you a very nasty tummy for a few days. They're fly agaric mushrooms, and most definitely not for eating."
"They look pretty enough. You think there are any elves at home?" I tapped on a roof.
"Elves don't come out when there are humans around. Let's leave them in peace or they may get cross."
Hands against knees, I pushed myself up. "Right. I don't want any hex put on me." I looked at her seriously and said, "I wonder if there's—"
"No, Mike, you'll only find those kind of 'magic' mushrooms in some parts of Wales as far as I know. I very much doubt if they grow in Hampshire."
I could tell she wasn't pleased with my curiosity and I drew her close. "Hey, you know I wouldn't touch anything like that."
She relaxed into me. "The thought frightens me, Mike. If anything happened to you like before . . ."
The words were left suspended, but Midge was referring to my bad old days and ways when I toked a little, snorted some—nothing heavy, no needles, just pass-around stuff that was hard to avoid, moving in my particular circle of musician friends. One night at a party someone had slipped me some bad coke. I'd turned blue, they told me later, and was out of it for three days. Midge had never left my side all the time I was just hanging on, my breathing a touch-and-go thing, and she nursed me through the aftermath, never once scolding, always caring, treating me like a sick baby. I was lucky to pull through with no brain damage and no police prosecution—I guess they thought I'd had enough punishment, and anyway, it wasn't me who was in possession. As far as drugs were concerned, that was it for me. No more, never again. They hadn't been exactly a habit before, and I'd never been on the really hard stuff, so leaving them alone wasn't difficult. But maybe now you'll understand why I was so shaken when I'd mildly freaked out in Gramarye's round room on that first day. Some mistakes in life are hard to escape from.