To close, I may frankly confess that I rejoice to find you believing that "as an independent member of the Society I (you) shall probably be more useful and more able to do good" than you have hitherto been. I rejoice, but — I cannot help knowing that many a change will yet occur in you before you find yourself finally settled in your ideas. Pardon me, dear Brother; I would not give you pain, but such is my opinion — and I abide by it.
You ask me to get the "O.L." to refrain from proposing you for the Council. I do not believe there is the slightest danger of her doing it. I know, in fact, that she is the last person in the world to propose you now. Rightly or wrongly she feels herself injured by you to the very root of her heart; and, I am bound to confess, that — no doubt unwillingly — yet you have hurt her feelings very deeply upon several occasions.
Nevertheless, permit me to sign myself your obedient servant. Whenever you need me, and when you have done your study with the "Swami" — then I will be again at your service.
Yours faithfully,
K.H.
APPENDIX III
From
The Letters of H.P. Blavatsky to A.P. Sinnett
LBS-2 Mar. 25, 1882
This is a note by the Mahatma K.H. appended in a letter of H.P. Blavatsky to Sinnett. It is the same as Letter No. 56 (ML-100). Please see page 152. — C-ED.
LBS-4 Sept. 1881
This is a letter of H.P.B. to Sinnett with a note by M.
Ordered by My Boss to tell Sinnett, Esq., the following: —
1. Not to lose the opportunity to night of acquainting R.S. with every detail of the situation he can think of, whether relating to the Society or his projected matrimonial ideas.
2. To insist upon having a true copy of the hitherto written sketches of Cosmogony with the Tibetan words, M.'s notes etc. H.P.B. is also ordered to have one, as she has to know thoroughly what Mr. Hume has noted and how much he has elaborated of the explanations. Otherwise when the reaction comes and Mr. Hume begins studying once more — neither Mr. Sinnett nor H.P.B. will be au courant of his thoughts; and he will begin once more abusing — like the quartette of musicians in Aesop's fable — the instruments on which he does not know to play.
3. Mr. Sinnett is advised, once he is in Allahabad, to announce the formation of the Allahabad Society, calling it "The Anglo Indian Investigation (Theosophical) Society" or some such name which would not jar upon the nerves of the unbelieving community. Let it be distinct from the other Branch in Allahabad called the "Prayaga Theos. Society" though the Hindus in it might be very useful to Mr. Sinnett and he will find wonderful mesmeric subjects in it, if he but searches.
4. Mr. Sinnett is advised by M. to make a special duty to prevent his little son being made to eat meat — not even fowls, and to write so to Mrs. Sinnett. Once the Mother has placed the child under K. H.'s protection let her see nosing pollutes his nature. The child may become a powerful engine for good in a near future. Let him be trained as his own nature suggests it.
5. Mr. S. is reminded to telegraph O. not to answer one word to M. Hume until he receives a letter from Mr. Sinnett.
6. Mr. S. is advised, now that he will be alone, to put himself in communication through Adytyarum B. with some Hindu mystics, not for the sake of philosophy but to find out what mental phenomena can be produced. At the Mela there is a number of such visiting the town.
7. Whenever he feels like writing or needs M. advice, Mr. Sinnett is invited to do so without hesitation. M. will always answer him, not only for K.H.'s sake but his own sake, as Mr. S. has proved that even an Anglo-lndian can have the true S — SPARK in him, which no amount of brandy and soda and other stuff can extinguish and which will occasionally glitter out and very brightly.
It was my wish that she should read the letter to Fern last night. You can also show and read it to R.S. if you like. All of the above is correct.
Yours,
M.
LBS-5 Dated Nov. 2, 1880
On November 6, 1880, the Bombay Gazette published an item on H.P.B.'s being a correspondent of a Russian newspaper, a fact that H.P.B. openly acknowledged. H.P.B. wrote a reply and sent it to Sinnett for publication. Apparently Sinnett did not receive this. H.P.B. wrote a subsequent letter which ends in the paragraph quoted below. The note of K.H. follows after the letter.
This it was I sent to you fervently begging you to print it, for I was anxious to break the head of at least one of my idiotic enemies. To this K.H. remarked that it was far better if I should let you write a few words as an editorial remark upon the foolish para: (above cited). I said no. I knew you did not like to be asked to write, besides my writing would be better and more appropriate. So I sent to you this. But it appears that he need have his own way. For how could my letter be lost otherwise? It was Mah. K. H. who played some trick of his only because he is wise and strong and healthy and I foolish and now weak and sick. I do not hold it as friendly on his part. If I am so useless and foolish why don't they annihilate me? The doctor (Laurie) won't permit me to start tomorrow. He advises me though to change locality. Strong nervous disease, fever and etc. he says. Oh I have enough of this old carcase!