But the line of safety was thinner then. We felt much closer to destruction. These days we live with the danger while cheerfully ignoring the data.
I once attended a class on the structure of myths at UCLA where we discussed the theme of the uninvited guest, the phantom at the feast, the unclean in the temple, the witch at the christening, the vampire at the threshold, the doomsayer at the wedding, and all these myths shared one element in common; someone had to invite them in to begin with. I wondered who had provided an unwitting invitation here in California.
I remember that night there was a very pretty blonde woman in the lounge – although I only saw her from the back – whom everyone wanted to talk to. One of her friends was drunkenly doing a trick with a lethal-looking table knife, and I thought what if he slips? And just as I was thinking that, I became aware of them, standing right alongside me. I turned and found myself beside the square-jawed one who looked like an actor. His grey deep-set eyes stared out at me very steadily, holding the moment. The light was low in the main hall, which was lit only by amber flames from an enormous carved fireplace. I saw the Satan sign glittering at his neck, and he smiled knowingly as I flinched.
“Who the hell are you?” I half-whispered, finally regaining my composure.
“Bobby.” He held out his hand. “You’re Julius.”
“How do you know who I am?”
“I have friends in the business. We know a lot of people.”
I didn’t like the way he said that. “I’ve seen you before,” I told him. “Seen your friends, too.”
“Yeah, they’re all here. We hang out together.” He pointed. “That’s Abby, Susan, Steve.”
They all looked over at me as if they’d picked up on their names being spoken. The effect of them moving with one shared mind was unnerving. I meant to say “Who do you know here?” but instead I asked “What are you here for?”
Bobby was silent for a moment, then smiled more broadly. “I think you know the answer to that. We’re here to taste death.”
“What do you mean?”
He looked away at the fire. “You have to know what dying is before you can know life, Julius.”
“I don’t understand you.”
“I mean,” Bobby leaned in close and still, his eyes filling with morbid compassion as they stared deep into mine, “we’re leading the rise to power. We’ve already started the killing, and this city will become an inferno of revenge. The streets will run with blood. There will be a new holocaust, revolution in the streets, and the world will belong to the Fifth Angel.”
“Man, you’re crazy.” I shook my head suddenly tired of this white supremacy crap. I’d just spent two months mofo-ing around in some Stepin Fetchit role given to me by rich white boys, and I guess I’d just had enough. “Bullshit,” I told him, “if the best thing you can do to start a revolution is shove a few drunks around at parties, you’re in trouble. I saw you at Dell’s place. I know you pushed that guy into the pool and broke his neck. I saw you in Silverlake, and at the house on Canon Drive where that guy was cut on the table. I know you don’t belong here, except to bring down chaos.”
“You’re right, we don’t belong here any more than you do,” he said, distracted now by something or someone moving past my left shoulder. “There’s no difference between us, brother. The rest of them are just little pigs.” He exchanged glances with the others, and the two girls turned to go, slipping out through the crowd. He pushed back to take his leave with them.
“Wait,” I called after him, anxious to keep him there. “How did you get in through security?”
Bobby looked over his shoulder, quiet and serious. “We have friends in all the places we’re not invited.”
“Nothing’s going to happen tonight, right? You’ve got to promise me that.”
“Nothing will happen tonight, Julius. We’re leaving.”
“I don’t get it.” I was calling so loud that people were turning to stare at me. “Why not tonight? You made this stuff happen before, why not now, right in front of me? Let me see, Bobby, I want to understand. You think you can summon up the devil?”
His eyes were still focused over my left shoulder. “The devil is already here, my friend.”
I twisted around to see who he was looking at, but when I looked back he had gone. They had all gone. And the tumble of the party rushed into my ears once more. I heard the blonde girl laughing as the man fumbled his knife trick, and the point of the blade fell harmlessly to the floor, where it stuck in the wood.
When the girl turned around, I saw that she was heavily pregnant, and heard someone say, “Come on Sharon, I’m going to drive you home, it’s late. What if Roman calls tonight?”
She lived on 10050 Cielo Drive, I heard her say. And she had to get back, because the next night she was expecting her friends Abby and Jay, and they’d probably want to stay late drinking wine. She wasn’t drinking because of the baby. She didn’t want anything to happen to the baby.
The next day was August 9th, 1969.
It was the day our bright world began its long eclipse.
They caught up with Charlie and his gang at the Spahn ranch, out near Chatsworth, but by then it was too late to stop the closing light. There were others, rootless and elusive, who would never be caught.
I remembered those parties in the Hollywood hills, and realized I had always known about the rise of the Uninvited. Much later, I read about Manson’s children writing Helter Skelter on their victims’ refrigerator door, only they had misspelled the first word, writing it as Healther.
I saw how close I had come to touching evil.
The world is different now. It’s sectioned off by high walls, no-go zones, clearance status, security fences, X-ray machines. The gates remain shut to outsiders unless you have a pass to enter. The important parties and the good living can only continue behind sealed doors. At least, that’s what those who throw them desperately need to believe. That’s what I need to believe.
I married Cheyenne. We have two daughters and a son. Against all reason, we stayed on in California.
And we no longer know how to protect ourselves from those who are already inside the gates. I guess we lost that right when we first built walls around our enclaves, and printed out our invitations.
Maxim Jakubowski
