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Walter Mosley

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“The last time I fell for a man so fast, it was all wrong,”

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she said as I was rubbing body oil into her shoulders. “It 3

felt wonderful, but he wasn’t the man for me.”

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“But he was right for a moment,” I argued.

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“He was awful. He would take things from my house.”

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“Really?”

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“Yeah. A pearl ring, twenty dollars that I kept in a 8

cookie jar, even large things like a toaster that I kept under 9

the sink. At first I thought I was going crazy. But then one 10

day I set a paper clip on the back of my jewelry box. He 11

must have lifted the lid without noticing the pin. I knew 12

immediately that he’d taken my zircon earrings. He did it 13

three more times after that, and I broke up with him.”

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She pulled away from my massage and lay on her back.

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I reclined, resting my head on her small stomach.

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“Why did you wait?” I asked. “Why didn’t you get rid 17

of him after the first time?”

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She sat up, pushing my head down into her lap. I kissed 19

her stomach. I remember because she had a ticklish reac-20

tion and then grabbed my hair to make me stop.

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“It was weird,” she said. “Like The Twilight Zone. I 22

knew he was doing it, but he didn’t know that I knew. I’d 23

leave money in my purse or an earring on the night table 24

and then he’d come in and do that love thing he did.”

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“It was that good?” I asked.

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“He was a wonderful lover,” she said. “But that wasn’t 27 S

why I kept him on for so long. It was like he was my shy 28 R

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so I would let him steal from me and pretend that I didn’t 1

miss it.”

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I kissed her stomach again. This time she didn’t grab 3

my hair.

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“So then why did you finally decide to break it off ?”

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“Because I started to change,” she said.

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“Change how?”

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“I don’t know if I should talk about it. I mean I don’t 8

even know you.” Narciss stroked my head then, but I re-9

frained from any more kisses.

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“That’s okay,” I said. “I understand. We all have our se-11

crets.”

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Really I didn’t care about Narciss’s secret sex life with 13

her gigolo. I was thinking about the man in my base-14

ment, about what the consequences might be after he got 15

out of his cell.

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“It’s not any kind of big secret or anything,” she said.

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“It was just that I was acting like some other person and I 18

didn’t like who that person was.”

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“And who was that?” I asked, sitting up.

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“I was aggressive. I made him do things and I asked him 21

questions while we were . . . were doing it. I started calling 22

him names and doing things that I never did before.”

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“What kind of things?”

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She had finally caught my interest.

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“I have to go to the bathroom.” She stood up and 26

walked out of my mother’s door.

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I went to the window and cupped my ear to the pane.

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It could have been a moose, maybe five miles distant.

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That’s what I could have said.

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I was tired and almost scared of what I had done to An-4

niston Bennet. I wondered if he had a strong heart — if 5

the stressful time in my basement might kill him. I wanted 6

to run down while Narciss was in the toilet and make sure 7

that the prisoner wasn’t dying. But then I thought that 8

Bennet’s death would make everything easier. No one 9

knew where he was, he said. I could just put him in the 10

ground in my family’s plot. If no one was looking for 11

him, he’d never be found. For a brief moment I consid-12

ered leaving him down there until he died of starvation. If 13

he died he couldn’t get back at me.

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When I realized that I was contemplating murder, I 15

backed away from the window.

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“Did you see him?” Narciss said from behind.

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“No. No.”

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“Then why’d you jump away from the window like 19

that?”

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“I just remembered something. I have to go into the 21

city tomorrow for a meeting. I thought it was the day af-22

ter, but I just realized that I got confused.”

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“Oh.” There was disappointment in Narciss’s voice.

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“How will I get back to my car?”

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“Don’t worry about that,” I said. “I’ll give you a ride to 26

your car when we get up.”

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“Oh.” She hesitated. “I thought you were trying to get 28 R

rid of me now.”

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“Why would you think that? You think I’d kick you out 1

of my house in the middle of the night?”

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“You’ve been so restless,” she said. “I thought you 3

wanted to be alone.”

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It was then that I realized what had happened to me.

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Really, what had happened to the world around me. Be-6

fore Anniston Bennet had come into my life, I was invis-7

ible, moving silently among the people of the Harbor. No 8

one wondered about me; no one questioned me. Even my 9

best friends simply accepted what they saw. The card-10

player with a sharp tongue who couldn’t back up half the 11

things he said. The petty thief, the man across the street, 12

dead Samuel’s son. I might as well have been a tree at the 13

end of the block. People saw me well enough to walk 14

around, but that was just about it.

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And for my part I treated everything and everyone 16

around me in the same way. I could put a name on 17

them, maybe. But I rarely touched or spoke a meaning-18

ful word to a soul. Weeks could go by and not one worth-19

while piece of information would pass between me 20

and another human being. The only chance I had at inti-21

macy was with Clarance and Cat, but 90 percent of 22

my time with them was spent under the influence of al-23

cohol.

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But now everything was different — half different, 25

really. Still nobody saw me. The people at Curry’s bar in 26

East Hampton, people on the street in the Harbor. Bethany S 27

and Narciss saw something that was like me — an image R 28

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of what I thought I wanted to be — but they had no idea 2

what was on my mind.

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What had changed was what I saw. It was as if 4

everybody had become like a mirror, and I saw reflections 5

of what they saw instead of what it was they were trying 6

to show me or tell me. Narciss had become a mirror and 7

an echo chamber, giving me back every word uttered and 8

gesture made. And when I saw or heard something I 9

didn’t like, I had the chance to alter my behavior.

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“No, baby,” I said. “Not at all. I want to see you. I want 11