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The sexual instincts, in both men and women, find their first object in the external world in the person of the mother. The little girl remains attached to the mother until she is confronted with the "genital trauma". The genital trauma occurs from two situations. Firstly, there is a buildup of aggressions against the inhibiting forces of the external world which denies the child immediate satisfaction of all his desires. When the little boy encounters this situation, he discharges his aggressions through genital masturbation. The little girl, lacking an organ which can serve for such release, is forced to regress to the anal and oral phases of development until she experiences vaginal penetration. When, through observation, she becomes aware that she lacks an organ that little boys have, she develops what has been termed by psychoanalysis "penis envy". This penis envy is the second element in the genital trauma. At this time, the little girl discredits her mother, blaming her for this loss, and transfers her libido to her father, unconsciously hoping to receive a child from him to compensate for the loss.

Since Mai-Lin's father plays an insignificant part in her development, she is forced to remain sexually attached to her mother. In her fear of the homosexual inclinations inherent in this situation she must defend against her own homosexuality. Freud, in The Ego and the Id, advises that the universal rule for giving up a love object is to identify with this love object. Mai-Lin has been forced into an intense identification with her mother. In this identification, she repeats all that her mother has taught her that is oral-eroticism.

The consequences of this regression make it impossible for Mai-Lin to achieve coitus. In all her love relations, she is incapable of giving herself to her partner. She remains fixated at a stage where nutrition and sexuality were "fused" together. For Mai-Lin, the penis has become a symbolic substitute for the nipple.

Deprived of her father's love, Mai-Lin was never able to appreciate the family situation which is so important for later development. This is quite ironic, for before the great revolution in China, the family was the most important priority in life and, in the Chinese ethic, almost consumed the whole of the individual's existence.

If the dissolution of the family unit in China produces individuals like Mai-Lin, there will be no need to worry about Malthusian expansion in the future, as China's population will surely decrease.

I developed my technique of modeling over the few years I have been in the business, and at the same time I have developed and refined my technique in cocksucking. I would say I am the greatest female oral expert in the world, but that is saying too much, I'm afraid. I do know I am as good as the best, for I have never displeased a man.

A strange thing has happened to me lately. I have been enjoying a new wave of popularity since President Nixon visited China. You have recently seen me modeling all the new fashions with the Chinese influence, and I have been very proud to do so. At the same time my popularity as a person has increased and my sexual activity has never been more intense.

I wonder if it has anything to do with my work. When I do not work for months, I do not find as great a need for sex. When I work like crazy, I need sex like crazy. And the more I want to find a man to love me, to settle down with me, the more I find myself inclined to be like a whore, to take any man available to service him, hoping he may be the right one, the one who will love me forever… but it never turns out that way.

Just the other day I finished a long session of photographs with winter clothing. It was hot in the studio and I was sweating and I had a headache. The head photographer was a man I had wanted for a long time. The sight of him drove me insane with lust – and on this particular day he happened to be wearing tight blue jeans which were worn and faded. His cock was all but visible through the tight material and often during the session, when he stood above me on a ladder, or when he spread his legs to get a good shot, I wanted to rip his pants off and take his cock into my mouth and suck him till he dropped!

When the session was finished, I went into the dressing room and drank cold water and took a few Excedrin. There was a knock on the door and Phil entered – the photographer – dressed only in his jeans. No shoes, no shirt; no camera around his neck.

"Mai-Lin, it's hotter than hell in here. I was just going to take a shower. I wanted to tell you you were terrific, honey. All the magazines will grab them up!" He sat down in a chair near me and put his head back.

"Fur coats under those lights, Phil. God, I'm ready to pop. I've been nervous all day." I didn't know what to say or do. He just sat there, with his legs spread, showing me that outline of his big cock. I was going crazy underneath, dying to get my mouth on it. It was better than going home to an empty apartment!

We sat there for a few minutes without saying a word, shy, afraid. Then I did an impulsive thing – I jumped up, fell to my knees and all but ripped the buttons off his fly. He said something, but I couldn't understand what it was. All I knew was his cock was getting harder by the second and he was helping me get his pants off his body. I worked it up with my hand for a moment and then sucked it all the way into my mouth. He shoved his hips forward and lifted his feet to the front of the chair, slouching. I worked on his cock so hard I don't think he knew what hit him.

It was very thick, and not too long, so it fit just perfectly down my throat. I could get my lips to the base and swirl my tongue around in his pubic hair. I played with his balls and his asshole and he was almost in tears by the time he was ready to come.

I sucked with firm, even, maddening strokes, stopping each time he got too excited. I wanted to work him up, work the semen up, hold it back till it was ready to burst like a volcano and then take it all in my mouth. Each time he was ready to come, I pulled my lips off it and watched the bit of sperm squeeze painfully out of the tip of his glans, and then I went back and worked him up again.

Finally, he shot off. It was a beautiful load thick and very hot almost burning. He pushed my head to his crotch so hard my lips almost were cut by my teeth. He shot in long heavy spurts, with low agonizing groans. I felt good – not lonely any more, rather satisfied and full.

All of a sudden the door opened. Jack the assistant stood there with his mouth open. In a moment his pants were also open and I was kneeling there, in the doorway, sucking his cock for all I was worth. He had a long slender penis, and I sucked. It with ease gently, lightly rubbing the tips of my finger's over the bottom of his testicles. He spread his legs and bent forward and came easily without a sound, and then collapsed to the floor.

While I was sucking Jack, another of the men who had worked on the session with us, an older man walked by and saw the amazing sight. He pulled out his cock and started beating off in the hall, but he hadn't come when Jack fen to the floor, so I opened my mouth – still dripping with Jack's semen and allowed the man to pump himself off into my waiting lips. Phil was hard again this time and he sat playing with himself as the older man came into my mouth.

Phil got up and called the two other guys – young hippie types – who were in the studio and invited them to "get sucked off by the most talented girl in the business" – and I don't quite know how he meant that! They walked in the rooom and couldn't believe their eyes – the star model is kneeling in the middle of the room, Phil is bare naked with a stiff cock in his hand and older man's penis is still dripping with come, Jack is sitting on the floor, his pants around his ankles… They immediately took their pants off. No one allowed themselves to think or to question we were all very charged up and to think about it would have been to destroy it.

I took the first kid's cock – which was rather small, but nicely formed – in my mouth and worked on his friend's with my hand. I felt Jack start rubbing my pussy lips under my skirt – I had no panties on – and Phil played with my tits, rubbing them gently through the material of my robe. Soon they stripped me and covered my body with licks and kisses. This was exciting, but not nearly as exciting as the feel of the boy's cock in my mouth. He came easily, like Jack, and stepped aside so his friend could have me. I opened my lips, and he stuffed it in – it was huge – and started fucking me in my face. He came with great shouts and shudders, which excited everyone even more.