He ploughs into the lawn on all fours and scrambles to get up. I reach him just as he manages to lift his knees off the ground and I land a clumsy drop kick into the washboard of his stomach. He lets out a howl like a wounded animal and I kick him again, this time in the ribs. He tries to get away, clawing at the ground and trying to get a footing but the grass is slippery and I have my foot on his back. He doesn’t fight back. Acid loathing makes me kick him once more: a heavy jump on his spine and he is flattened. I grab his shoulder to roll him over and rip off his black hood so that I can see his face. I recoil at the sight: shiny pale plastic glinting in the streetlight. A mask. I dig my fingers underneath it and peel it off. The face I see topples me. He may as well have punched me in the face. I let go of him with an exclamation.
Quote: Willa Cather
“There are some things you learn best in calm, and some in storm.”
46
HIS STRINGS CUT
We sit on the pavement in identical postures. We have both had the wind knocked out of us and need to stay close to the ground.
“Frank,” I say.
“I can explain,” he says, his breathing heavy, one hand up in defence, the other on his ribs.
I want to laugh. He says it sincerely, as if an explanation could make a whisper of a difference in this situation. As if it could undo terrible things. If only words could.
“You’ve been trying to kill me,” I pant.
“I’ve been… helping you,” he says, spitting out blood.
The bastard.
“Helping me?” I shout.
“Guarding you,” he grimaces. His eyes glow. “You can’t see that now, but you will.”
I wind my arm back and punch him in the face as hard as I can. There is a simultaneous crack, as my knuckle breaks his nose and breaks itself in the process. He is KO’d, sprawled like a dummy on the ground, his strings cut, blood pumping out of his nose. I shake my hand out. I see figures in the distance, running. I bolt, leaving Frank to bleed.
47
SKINLESS
They’re persistent, I’ll give them that. I hurdle over a low wall and land on the soft ground on the other side. My bad ankle twinges. I hear their hurried footfall just metres away. I remember trying to outrun the cops in Bangkok and hope that this time I will have better luck. I charge down to the spruit where I am whipped by willow branches and splash in, wading thigh-deep in the murk to get across then up the oily hill on the other side. They have torches but not dogs. I look for a way to get into one of the properties on the other side but the walls are all so high and the electric fence lines glimmer hostile in the moonlight. All I can do is keep running, even though I can feel them gaining on me. Eventually there is a wormhole: a house under construction has a sharp, square hole in their temporary entrance of ramshackle tin. I drop my bag and push my body through, tearing my clothes and scraping off a good layer of skin as I go. Once inside I find my way through the maze of walls and punch-outs for windows, making the wrong turn twice before finding the exit. Blinking in the dark, trying to see where to go next, I hear a whistle. Involuntarily I look in the direction of the noise and something behind me knocks me out.
I come to in the police van, handcuffed and lying across the backseat. It smells like petrol and sweat. They are speaking their ambush language, boasting about their catch. Every now and then the radio crackles to life but they ignore it. The back of my head is blazing from where they hit me, and my broken knuckle is throbbing. I feel a sense of downward resignation and traitorous relief. I won’t die tonight, I think. I have escaped. Other thoughts are hammering but I try to hold on to this one for the feeling it gives me, but then it is gone, and so am I.
I come to again and my vision is crossed with lines. I am lying on top of a grey mattress in a grey jail cell. I recognise the walls from my previous visit. Is the main block of cells full up? Why am I always relegated to this spare building? I sit up too fast and my head fills with sparks so I sit still for a long time until I feel that I can stand up. My ankle is stiff and swollen and it hurts to breathe. Panic fills my chest. I limp to the bars, rattle them and shout for someone. I do this over and over but no one comes, so after a long while of shouting and trying to catch my breath I lie down again, to try to forget where I am.
When I open my eyes, Sello is standing outside the cell.
“Detective,” I say, swinging my legs off the bed to sit up.
“Hello, Mister Harris,” he replies, more polite than usual.
I touch the lump on the back of my head. It has stopped bleeding.
“Was it really necessary for your boys to pistol-whip me?”
“Apparently so.”
“Seems like a violent way to deal with someone you know isn’t the murderer.”
“On the contrary,” Sello says, shifty-eyed.
On the contrary? I think they must have switched Law and Order for old reruns of Sherlock Holmes mysteries.
“We have found all the evidence we need.”
“I can explain that,” I say. Sello shakes his head. “The time for stories is over.”
“Do I get a phone call?” I ask.
“If you wish,” he says, “I advise you to call your lawyer.”
He unlocks the door with a clang that resonates through my body, and walks me down an abraded linoleum corridor to a pay phone.
Still cuffed, I pick up the receiver and balance it between my ear and shoulder. The machine wants money before I dial and I don’t have any. Sello fishes in his pockets and slips a shiny R5 coin into the slit. I nod my thanks and dial my father’s number.
It rings for a full minute before he answers. He sounds distracted, annoyed.
“Dad!” I can’t help the emotion that pushes the word out of my mouth and down into the receiver.
“Slade?” There is feeling in his voice too, as if he never expected to hear from me again. I stumble, not sure what to say.
“God, Dad, I don’t know where to start.”
“Do you need help?” he says.
“Yes,” I say, “Yes, I need help.”
Both of our voices are unsteady.
“What can I do?”
“Can you come down to the police station? I’ve been arrested.”
“Arrested?”
“Never mind that, I just need to talk to you. I need to tell you something.”
“I’ll be there in half an hour.”
On the way back to the cell I ask Sello if I can have a shower and some clean clothes. Anything to avoid the darkcloudconfines of the cell. He slams the door shut. It is obvious there is no other way to close cell doors.
“No,” he says. “This isn’t a hotel.”
I think he still holds the offer of cappuccinos against me. We are on his turf now and he wants to make it clear there will be no cappuccinos. Back in the cell I feel I am disappearing in all the grey. My mind is blank: grey. I lower myself onto the mattress, play steeple with my fingers, and wait.
When my father arrives they let him into my cell. He smells like shaving cream. We hug for the first time in as long as I can remember. Like two bears with sore heads. When we pull away, his eyes are shining. I offer him the seat of the bed opposite mine and we sit. It is a small cell and our knees are almost touching. We are quiet for a while.