He lifted his head off the bolster, astonished. “What? Why not?”
“We have only each other. Gold or no, it’ll be long before we’ve friends we can trust. Believe you me. Then let there be no lies between us.”
“I care for you!”
“And I for you. Very, very much.” Her lips brushed his cheek. “But you are too young for me, too good—”
“No.”
“And it’s Eyjan you yearn for.”
He had no answer to that.
She sighed. “It’s Tauno for me, of course,” she owned. “I fear we’ve neither of us any chance. Well, maybe I can guide your heart toward a mortal maiden.”
“What of you?” he asked through her tresses.
He felt her shrug. “I’m tough. Besides, whatever happens, while we stay honest, we have each other.”
V
A marble fireplace made warm a chamber which maroon hangings and Persian rug softened. While window glass gave a viewhardly distorted at all-of an inner court where blooming had long since ended, roses from a solarium planter filled a crystal vase on an inlaid table. Books numbered a score, both Greek and Latin. Pavle Subitj, Ban of Hrvatska, was in his heart more a man of the West than of the East.
Tall in a silken robe, white hair and beard neatly trimmed, he seemed no less than the Liri king, though Vanimen, likewise attired in what was his gift, did loom above him. Both had grown too intense in their discourse to remain seated.
“Yes, I hope your tribe will stay in this realm,” he was saying. “Perhaps I’ve not made sufficiently clear how much I want it. Your unique abilities-as fishermen, sailors, pilots you’ll be valuable. But a new war is brewing with Venice. In that, you could be priceless.” He studied the other. “Of course, I’d reward such service as best as I was able.”
Vanimen scowled. “Why should we enter a quarrel that’s none of ours?” he retorted.
“It will be yours, for you will be our countrymen.”
“Indeed? That was not what we came in search of.”
“I know. You wanted to rebuild a Faerie life, which impinged little on mortal mankind. Well, you’ve found what is better. Highest is salvation, immortal souls and the fatherhood of God. However, scoff not at material gains, which themselves comfort the spirit. For instance, you’ve related, in these past days of your visit, how hard and perilous it actually was undersea, how often you knew bereavement. Would you deny your people-your children-liberation from the shark?”
The merman began pacing, back and forth, hands gripped together behind him. “We’d readily be your friends,” he said. “Grant us an islet where we can remain ourselves, and you’ll find us stout partners in work, trade, seafaring... yes, even in war, if that is inescapable. But you demand more. You’d make us into something altogether alien. Why do you require we be christened?”
“Because I must,” Pavle told him. “It would ruin me, before Church and throne and populace alike, if I let a colony of halfworld creatures take root; and who then would be your protector? As it is, I’ve worked harder than you imagine, to contain the news of you. Outside the Skradin vicinage, there go naught but rumors. In that wise I gained peace for everyone to become acquainted. It cannot last.
“Even when you join us, I’ll strive that that happen quietly. No public tidings, no dispatches to King or Pope. Most of you will stay where you now are, or move to the coast nearby if you prefer nautical trades. Those who travel farther, with naval commanders or merchant adventurers, they’ll go one or a few at a time-remarkable, yes, but in human company of limited size.
“That’s for your good as well as mine, Vanimen. Did your story spread wide, excitement might easily take a dangerous turn. Fear of the unknown could link you in ignorant minds with the Devil. It could end with your being hunted down, the fortunate among you butchered, the unfortunate burnt at the stake.”
“Aye,” the merman growled, “you’re right. . . and nonetheless you’d have us become like your kind?”
He halted, straightened to his full height, and said, “No. We’ll return to the waters and our quest. You’ll be rid of us.”
“Suppose I forbid your departure,” the Ban said quietly.
“We’ll elude your troops, or break through them, or die in our freedom.” Vanimen’s tone was as soft.
Pavle smiled sadly. “Peace. I won’t. If indeed you would go, you have my leave. Yet where will you seek, and how? You must needs be barred from this kingdom, and likeliest no Mediterranean coast will have you. If you win back to the ocean, well, you can swim south along Africa, though the toll as you fare will be dreadful. But can you endure the tropics, you breed of the North?”
Vanimen stood mute.
After a minute, Pavle went on: “Let’s imagine you do in some way find a home. What will you have gained? At best, a few centuries. Then Faerie must depart existence, and you with it.”
“Think you so?” Vanimen asked. “Why?” Pavle clapped his shoulder and said, most gently, “I wish I did not. Too much beauty and wonder will perish with the halfworld, and I’ve a feeling that whatever replaces them will have less in common with humanity than it did.”
Faint through walls came the sound of cathedral bells. “Hark,” Pavle said. “The time of yon ringing was ordered not by sun, moon, or stars. A clock has taken that part, a hard, artificial thing, devoid of mystery.
“In my own lifespan I have seen wax the power of bombard, rocket, sapper. In them is the doom of knighthood, which-Arthur, Orlando, Ogier, Huon-ever linked warriors to the Otherworld.
“Wilderness melts away before ax and plow. Meanwhile everything that matters is forgathering in the cities, where all is manmade and the smallest hob-sprite can find no home.
“Yearly farther, in yearly greater numbers, ships ply the seas, guided by compass and astrolabe rather than birdflight, landmarks, a mariner’s sense of oneness with the billows. They will round the earth someday, and Christian steeples rise above the last places where Faerie had refuge.
“For the earth is a globe, you may know, of measurable size. The very tracks of the stars are being measured, closer than the ancients could, and learned men are calculating the architecture of the universe. Their schemes have no room for awe or magic.
“Look here.” Pavle sought the table and picked up two lenses in a wire frame. “This is something I heard was newly invented in Italy, and sent for. As I’ve aged, my eyesight has been failing me at short range, till I could scarcely read or write. Today I slip this thing over the bridge of my nose, and it’s almost like being young again.” He handed them to Vanimen. “A beginning,” he foretold. “The progenitor of instruments which make vision keener than an eagle’s, closer than a mole’s. My descendants will turn them outward on the heavens, inward on themselves. Perhaps God will then terminate the world, lest men question His ways too closely. Or perhaps not. But sure I am that they will have questioned Faerie out of it.”
The merman stared at the spectacles. He held them in his palm as if they were freezing cold.
“Therefore,” Pavle finished, “are you not well advised to accept your fate, gratefully, and seek your home in Paradise? “I won’t press you, save that I must have your decision within a few more months. Think. Go back to Skradin and tell your folk. Speak, too, with that priest in the zadruga whom Ivan esteems. Ask him to pray for you.“ ‘
Alone, Father Tomislav knelt. Winter night engulfed him, still and bitter, making the clay floor gnaw at his knees. He could barely glimpse Christ on the Cross, above the altar, by the light of a candle he had lit to the saint whose name his church bore, and whose effigy he beseeched.
“Holy Andrei,” he said, his voice as lost as the flame, “you were a fisherman when Our Lord called you to come follow Him. Did you ever afterward long back to the sea. . . just the least bit, maybe? Waves alive around you, a salt wind, a gull gliding-oh, you know what I mean. You didn’t regret your ministry. Nothing like that. But you remembered, sometimes—didn’t you? I myself miss the water shiny at the foot of Zadar, and going out in a boat-what a romp, what bigness and freshness!—and me a landlubber born.