“Oh, my God, I forgot! Bill.” He looked at his watch. “Damn, I’m already late. I’d better call and tell him I’m on my way.” John looked around. “If I can find my way out of here. We should have left a trail of breadcrumbs.”
I pointed behind him. “I know we came from that way . . . I think.” Now I wasn’t sure. I felt disoriented again.
“I’ve got go. I’ll see you soon, Esther.” John waved at Ted, who didn’t see, and then headed out.
I looked around, wondering which dresses Ted wanted me to try on. I gazed longingly for a minute at a beautiful emerald-green kimono with gold, violet, and indigo embroidery. I certainly couldn’t afford something like this, but Alicia could. It was so gorgeous, I let myself fantasize for a few moments about wearing it . . . then I moved on with a resigned sigh. During my first couple of days on the set, I had argued with Ted about his costume choices for Alicia, but I gave up after that. As much as I disliked her outfits, I was coming to realize they suited her shallow, one-dimensional, sex-obsessed character, so I might as well go with the flow.
And speaking of being obsessed with sex . . . my phone rang, and when I looked at the LCD screen, I saw that Lopez was calling. My heart gave an unwelcome but undeniable leap.
Maybe he was finally calling to apologize and explain. I wondered if Detective Quinn had advised him to adopt the alien abduction story when pleading with me for forgiveness. I was by now just so glad he was phoning me, I admitted to myself with a conflicted mixture of self-disgust and relief, that I might be flexible about his explanation (i.e. something less extreme than dismemberment or abduction might be acceptable), as long as he was humble and remorseful enough in his apologies.
“Hello?” I said into my phone.
“Oh, good, I’m glad I got you,” he said, his familiar voice flooding my whole system. I remembered him whispering against my skin as we made love, murmuring into my ear as I drifted off to sleep, talking softly with me at dawn as he dressed for work . . .
“Can you talk?” he asked.
“Yes,” I said, seduced all over again by those memories. “Of course.”
In my head, I ran his lines.
Seeing you today made me realize I would do anything to get you back. To be with you again. To make it all up to you.
That was good. He could start there and then segue into how sorry he was, how he’d rather die than ever hurt me like that again.
“I’m meeting my old partner first thing in the morning,” said Lopez. “The guy who’s in department’s movie unit now.”
“What?”
“And reading this thing, I’ve got a bunch of questions. Because I know he’s going to have a bunch of questions.”
“What?” I said sharply.
“I’m talking about Ted’s script,” he clarified. “ABC.”
“What?”
“Um . . .”
There was a pause.
So I filled it. “You’re calling me about Ted’s script?” I said in outraged disbelief.
“Yes. That’s right.” Lopez sounded relieved, as if we were getting on track now. “And the thing is—”
“Why are you calling me about this?” I demanded shrilly.
“Because I can’t get a hold of Ted. Every time I call him, I get his voicemail. I just tried him again.”
I glanced across the floor, to where Ted was still pacing and talking with his sister, trying to placate her and convince her of . . . whatever.
Lopez continued, “And I really need to get some answers about this script before my meeting tomorrow morning.”
“What?”
“There are a couple scenes here that seem to be set in a city location, but the script doesn’t specify—”
“What?”
“Um . . .”
There was a pause.
I was beside myself. After weeks of not calling me—not after hours of steamy sex, not after I left a message asking him to call me, not even after he’d arrested me . . . This was why he finally picked up a goddamn phone and dialed my number?
To talk about Ted’s script?
“Are you okay?” Lopez asked hesitantly. “You sound a little . . .” He cleared his throat. “Are you okay?”
I wanted to kill him. I wished he were here right now so I could commit a heinous crime of passion—for which any sane jury in the land would surely acquit me!
“I can’t believe you!” I raged.
“What?”
“What did I ever see in you?”
“Huh?”
“You’re calling me about Ted’s script?”
“Well . . . yeah.”
“What’s the matter with you?” I demanded. “What could you possibly be thinking?”
“There’s nothing the matt . . . I’m thinking the script . . . I mean, I thought . . .” He sounded absolutely lost. “Wait. Hang on. I thought you wanted me to help you. Didn’t you? Or has that changed since lunchtime?”
“Don’t use that tone with me,” I snapped.
“I’m not using a tone, I’m just trying to under . . .” He took a breath and tried again. “Do you want me not to help now? Did something happen?”
“Oh, my God,” I said wearily, sitting down on a cushioned stool, suddenly drained of energy. “I am such a fool.”
“Esther?” When I didn’t he respond, he prodded, “Esther, what’s going on? Where are you?”
“I’m trapped inside Yee’s Trading Company,” I said, feeling exhausted. “Don’t send help. You’ll never find me.”
“What?”
“You’re calling about the script. About the locations.”
“Yes.” He asked hesitantly, “Is that all right?”
“I’m an idiot,” I muttered. “I’m pathetic, and I’m an idiot.”
“Are you drunk?” he asked, sounding puzzled.
“That’s a good idea,” I said vaguely. “Maybe I should try it.”
“Huh?”
“Oh, good grief.” I sighed, shaking my head.
Lopez had said he would help with the movie, and so he was helping. That was the kind of guy he was. He did what he said he would do.
With one notable exception.
The one I couldn’t get over. The one I wanted to kill him for. The one that was turning me into a crazy person.
I sighed. “Look, you should talk to Ted about this, not me. I’m not sure what he’s got in mind for each scene.”
“I tried to talk to Ted, but—”
“He’s right here with me,” I said, feeling ready to go home and have a long hot soak in the tub, followed by an early night in bed. Alone. Again. “Ted’s talking to his sister right now. It’s a phone call I think he’d welcome any excuse to end. So I’ll tell him to get rid of her so you can talk to him. Okay?”
“Okay, good. Thanks. Because this meeting tomorrow will be a waste of time if I don’t have the answers I’ll need.”
“Call him in five minutes,” I instructed.
“Will do. And, um . . . I mean . . . This is what you want, right?” When I didn’t answer, he said, sounding as tired as I felt, “I’m trying to do what you want, Esther. But I don’t know what . . . Sometimes you . . . I can’t . . .” He sighed and said, “I’m just trying to make it right.”
Of course. He was a man.
He had come to my home, had his way with me, left, never called, arrested me, still didn’t call . . . and this was his way of trying to make it right.