It was quiet in the kitchen with just his breathing and my breathing and the hum of the electric clock over the sink. The cat door clacked and the cat walked in. Staring at Poitras, I couldn’t see him but I heard him growl, low and deep in his chest at finding a stranger in the kitchen. I heard the snick-snick of claws on the floor, then the crunch of hard food.
Poitras said softly, “You’re drunk, man.”
I nodded.
He said, “You found the lady and you went in and the boy wasn’t there. You pulled the trigger. I know you, I know it’s because you had to. You wouldn’t have played it that way if you’d had a choice. But there weren’t any choices. It was lousy that the kid wasn’t there. You didn’t lose the kid. He just wasn’t there to be had.”
I felt my eyes grow hot. I took more of the Chivas.
He made his voice quieter. “You always get in too deep, don’t you? Always get too close to the client. Fall a little bit in love.”
“Go to hell.”
Poitras took the glass out of my hands and emptied it in the sink. He went out into the living room, bent over Ellen Lang, and spoke in that cop mumble. After a while she nodded and gave him a tiny smile. The cat walked over and sat by my feet. Snick-snick-snick. He stared up at me and purred. Sometimes a little love can be important.
Poitras came back and leaned against the counter with his arms crossed.
“Thanks,” I said.
He nodded. “Even drunk you make a point.”
I put on a fresh pot of coffee while Poitras made more phone calls, most local but at least one up to Sacramento. Between the calls we went through it again, and this time Poitras took notes. When the coffee was ready I poured fresh cups and brought one out to Ellen Lang. She had fallen asleep with the old cup in her hand. I went up to the loft, turned down the bed, then went back down. Ellen woke when I touched her arm, then followed me up and climbed into the bed still wearing the robe and the socks. She curled into a ball on her side, knees up, hands together under her chin. Fetal position, only with her eyes open. Large, liquid Bambi eyes. Something stirred in the empty part of my stomach, the part the scotch didn’t fill.
“I’m scared,” she said.
“Don’t be,” I said. “I never fail.”
She looked at me and then she fell back to sleep.
I went downstairs and found Pike standing in the entry. Poitras was in the dining area, the coiled phone cord stretched taut from his coming out of the kitchen to see who had walked in. Poitras’ gun was in his right hand hanging loose at his side. He stared at Pike a couple seconds, then went back into the kitchen to get off the phone.
Pike said, “You okay?” He was wearing a cammie Marine Corps field jacket.
“Good. You want something to eat or drink?”
Pike shook his head as Poitras came back out of the kitchen. The cat stuck his head out, saw Pike, made a wide arc around Poitras, and padded over to rub against Pike’s legs. “Well, well. The big time cop,” Pike said.
Poitras’ face was empty the way a trafiic cop’s face is empty when he’s listening to you try to talk your way out of a ticket. “You ever wanna work out, bo. You know where the gym is.”
Pike’s mouth twitched.
Poitras’ shoulders flexed, filling most of the dining area with his bulk.
“Here’s to good friends,” I said. “Lemme see if I’ve got some Lowenbrau.” Mr. Levity.
Pike’s mouth twitched again, his dark glasses never moving away from Poitras. “You got the woman here?”
I said yes.
“You going to stay in all night?”
I said yes again. Poitras kept his eyes on Pike. Motionless. Two tomcats squaring off across a property line.
“You need me, I’ll be around.” Pike reached back to the door, looked at Poitras before he opened it. “We don’t see each other enough anymore, Lou.”
“Drop dead, Pike.”
Pike’s mouth twitched and he left, holding the door long enough for the cat to follow. The tension level dropped around three hundred points.
“I’ll have to have you two guys over for lunch sometime,” I said. “Or maybe a dinner party.”
Poitras flexed his jaw, put. 50-caliber eyes on me. “You tell me the next time that sonofabitch is going to be around.”
“Sure, Lou.”
Poitras went into the kitchen, made another phone call, then came back into the living room carrying a cup of coffee. His face was smooth and calm, as if Pike had never been. “There might be a way to work this Duran thing.”
“Unh-huh.”
“You willing to stay in it?”
I said, “Duran’s expecting me to produce the dope. Maybe I can. Maybe I can put the dope and Duran and the boy together. If I can do that, we own him. If I can do that without tipping him to what’s going on, we can get the boy back.”
Poitras sipped more of the coffee. “Sometimes you think like a pretty good cop.”
“We all have our weak moments.”
Poitras nodded. “You think Duran wants the dope that bad?”
“I don’t think he cares about the dope at all. He’s pissed that someone would steal from him in his own home. He’s got a highly developed sense of territory.”
Poitras smiled crookedly. “Macho.”
I nodded.
Poitras said, “Yeah, me and you are thinking along the same lines. Maybe I can help you with the dope. I’ll see. I’ll have to run it up the line and get it okayed.”
“Up the line through Baishe?”
“You don’t make it to lieutenant without something on the ball, Hound Dog. Even Baishe.”
“My confidence is bolstered.”
“That’s all we care about down at the PD, keepin’ you confident.” He folded up his note pad, slipped it in his back pocket, and headed toward the door. “Come around first thing tomorrow and we’ll work this thing out. If anything happens between now and then, let me know. When things start to break it’ll be tricky. You’ll have to play it our way.”
“Can’t we do it professionally instead?”
Poitras grinned hard and without humor. He said, “You know something, Hound Dog? It sounded to me like Duran maybe thought you and he had an understanding. Now you break out the woman and kill a couple of his soldiers. He’s probably gonna be pissed. He might even come after you.”
“There’s Pike.”
Poitras’ face went dead. He opened the door and stepped out. “You got lousy taste in partners.”
“Who else would put up with me?”
I stood in the door until Poitras drove away. Off to the left I heard the cat growl, and Joe Pike answer, “Good cat.”
23
I showered and shaved, then went through the house dousing the extra lights that I had turned on for Ellen Lang. The house was quiet, warm in the gold light from the lamp beside the couch, and comfortable. There were books on the shelves that I liked to read and reread, and prints and originals on the walls that I liked to look at. Like the office, I was proud of it. Like the office, it was the result of a process and the process was ongoing. The house lived, as did the person within it. Upstairs, Ellen Lang shifted under the covers.
I got six aspirin from the powder room, ate them, then got my sleeping bag from the entry closet, spread it on the couch, and stretched out. My head rocked from side to side, floating on the scotch, and started to spin. I sat up.
It was too late for the final sports recap. Too late for Ted Koppel. Maybe I could luck into a rerun of Howard Hawks’ The Thing with Ken Tobey. When I was a boy, Ken Tobey kept the monsters away. He battled things from other worlds and creatures from the bottom of the sea and prehistoric beasts and he always won. Ken Tobey fought the monsters and kept us safe. He always won. That was the trick. Any jerk can get his ass creamed.
The cat came in a little while later, jumped onto the couch next to me, stepped into my lap, and began to purr. His fur was chill from having been out. I petted him. And petting him, fell asleep.
I dreamed I was in a hot dusty arena and Domingo Duran, replete with Suit of Lights, was advancing toward me, little sword before him and cape extended. The crowd was cheering, and beautiful women threw roses. I figured I was supposed to be the bull, but when I looked down I saw my regular arms and my regular feet. Where the hell was the bull? Just then, Duran’s cape flew up and a dark, satanic bull charged me. Not just any bull. This one wore mukluks and sealskin boots. When I dream, you don’t have to hop the Concorde to Vienna to figure it out. Just as the bull was about to horn me with something looking suspiciously like a harpoon, I felt myself spinning out of the arena, spinning up and up until I was awake in my still-dark house.