"That it all went up in flames," I said. "That's what he thinks."
"We were there three weeks ago. It's the same. It's real neat. I learned roller disco. But we had to come back here. If it wasn't for the plane, it'd be really bummy. But anyway we bought some new cassettes. We've got a video system, with games. And Rocky. Dad even lets us watch it. He says it has a wholesome message. It's about boxing — this real neat guy."
Jerry started hitting me. "I knew it," he said. "He was lying the whole time. The liar! I'm going home. I ain't going up the river in no boat!"
"Your brother's real strange."
I said, "Emily, we're in bad trouble."
"Really? That's incredible."
"Will you help us?"
"Sure! I want to. Hey, I used to think about you a whole lot. You can stay here."
"No. We have to get down to the coast."
"My dad can take you in the plane. It's only an hour and a half!"
"Isn't there another way?"
"The river."
"That's the way we came. My father would follow us. What about the roads?"
"There's only one. It's over there" — she lifted her hand and pointed to the darkness across the river. "It goes to Awawas, on the Wonks. That's where our jeep is, parked on the road on the other side. You can see it from the river. It's a Toyota Landcruiser. Four-wheel drive. Green, with black upholstery. We hold baptisms in Awawas. The Wonks is a real neat river. You can get to the coast that way. There's plenty of boats."
I said, "Emily, if you give us the keys to that jeep, we can get away. My mother will drive us to that place you said—"
"Awawas."
"Yes, and then we'll leave the jeep and get down the river somehow."
"Won't your father go crazy if you don't take him?"
"He's already crazy," Jerry said.
"He can do whatever he wants," I said. "That's up to him."
"Aren't you afraid?"
"When I thought he was right — yes, I was. Now that I know he's wrong. I'm not. Are you afraid of your father?"
"Mine's got a gun," Emily said, "'it's a Mossberg repeater. Plus it's got a telescopic sight. It's for the Communists. There's millions of Communists around here. Hey, if you combed your hair it'd look kind of cute, like James Taylor."
"Give us the car keys, please. We'll take good care of it."
"It's not a car — it's a Landcruiser. Hey, did your dad really say America's been wiped out? That's really incredible, you know? The people on the ship were talking a lot about him. He's really strange, they said. He's the weirdest passenger they ever had. Hey, I hope you don't mind if I say that! If someone said that about my father I'd cry, even though it's sort of true. Everyone said you were living with Zambus and running around nudo and climbing trees. I wanted to write you a letter. How do you like my hair? I had hot-curls, but Dad made me cut them off. Not wholesome enough. Want some money? I've been saving up. I could give you fourteen dollars. Gee, I wish I was a boy—"
At that moment, with a silence that was like a sudden thud, all the lights in Guampu went out. It was as if a black lid had been clapped onto the place. The chugging of the generator had stopped. Now I could hear frogs.
"That always happens," Emily said. "It must be out of gas."
The voices from the bungalow were loud.
"They're real mad. They were watching Crusade for Christ. Hey, did I tell you about the video machine? It's a Sony. Dad preaches on it. He can hold services even when he's not here, like today. The Twahkas freak out when they see it — they like it better than the real preaching. Sometimes they only stay when Dad's on TV! They all want to be baptized now, so they can watch—"
"If you don't get the keys, Emily—"
"Don't worry, chicky," she said, and stood up. "I'll get them. It'll be easier in the dark, anyway. Better not crash it." She walked away, saying, "This is weird, for cry-eye!"
When she was gone, Jerry started fussing. What if she couldn't find the keys? What if Dad was looking for us? He cried, he laughed, he kicked the tall grass. He said, "Dad's a crapster — a liar!" and "Jeez, what are we going to do?"
"Go home."
"Hatfield's so far away. You don't even know how to drive. Maybe we should stay here. I hate him, I could kill him." He took my hand. "Charlie, I'm afraid."
"You said you weren't."
"That girl's right. He really is crazy."
Emily came back wagging a flashlight, jingling the keys. "There's a power cut," she said. "My dad's ripping. He just had the generator overhauled. The church sent a guy down from Tegoose."
She shone the flashlight onto her own face. She was whiter. She had put lipstick on, there was green dust on her eyelids. The greasy red on her lips made her look older. She smiled and said, "Like it?" She had flecks of red on her teeth. It scared and excited me.
"Hey, I was thinking. You don't have to go right off. You could stay here awhile. Maybe meet some Twahkas. A few of them are really neat. We could go up in the plane. And don't you want to watch some TV?"
I said, "My father would kill us."
"He's incredible — worse than mine. Hey, why is your brother crying?"
"Never mind him. But remember — all of this is secret. Don't tell anyone about us. You have to swear. Cross your heart you won't tell anyone — not even your father."
"I won't squeal, honest."
"What if they ask?"
"Dad already saw you. He thinks you're Indians! They took the jeep before. They're always doing crazy things like that. I'll blame the Twahkas. It'll be easy."
She walked us to the riverbank. Before we crept into the water, she said she wanted to kiss me. I couldn't do it with Jerry watching, so I told him to start swimming. When I heard him splash, I kissed her cheek. She grabbed me and put her mouth against mine. Her lips were soft, our front teeth nicked together, she dug her fingers into my back and bumped me with her bones. I kept my arms straight down.
I had been worrying about how to get back to the boat, but I was so glad to get away from her kissing, the" river seemed easy. But the river was cold. I looked back and saw her little light and wanted to kiss her again.
29
MOTHER WAS AWAKE, standing outside the cabin, as we climbed on board.
"Where have you boys been?" She was trying to be angry, but she sounded scared. It is easy to know how people feel by the way they speak in the dark. Emily had shown me that, and now Mother.
"Over there," I said. "It was my idea, so don't blame Jerry." I looked for the dugout, but couldn't see it. "Where's Dad?"
Mother said, "I thought you were with him. I was keeping watch. Then all the lights went out."
"Their generator's busted." We strained to see the far bank, but Guampu was in darkness — just jungle, and the chalkmarks of white bungalows. I said, "He was lying to us, Ma."
I told her what Emily had said about Baltimore and America. That's stupid.
Mother said, "It doesn't matter."
"America's the same, Ma! There's nothing wrong!"
"He hated it the way it was. That's why he left. That's why we're here. He'll never go back."
"I'm not staying here," Jerry said.
"Neither am I," I said.
"There's no way out," she said. "We have to do as we're told."
"We're making a terrible mistake — that's what you said!"
In a sad defeated voice, Mother said, "I should never have said that to you. It's true, but we have to live with it. This is our life now." She was going to say more, but she was choked by her crying — it was small, like one of Clover's sobs.
"We can get out, Ma. There's a jeep parked right over there in those trees, on this side of the river." I showed her the keys and told her where I had gotten them. "You can drive us," I said. "The five of us — before he gets back."