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As I bent down to clear everything, I heard, ‘ Nice job, Deedee. Real graceful.’

I gazed up to see a girl standing there who was probably cute, but all I could see was her smug grin.

‘ Oh, hey, Theresa,’  Deedee said nonchalantly. ‘ I didn’ t know you were here.’

Suddenly Deedee’ s dash to hide in the video game made sense. She appeared to be as glad to see this girl as I was to see Lizbeth every morning.

‘ Me and Claudia met up with Tony and all them.’  Then she asked, ‘ Who you here with?’

Deedee, clearly not seeing any way around it, introduced me with a tip of the head. ‘ Her.’

I’ d been reduced to a pronoun.

Theresa appeared to expect further explanation. Deedee seemed mute, and I couldn’ t come up with anything that wouldn’ t shame her further. I understood how embarrassing it must be to get caught at a Saturday afternoon movie with an adult when your peers are there with friends. Was I a family friend? A relative? Would my admitting to being her Big Sister be akin to committing social murder? For lack of anything better, I said, ‘ I’ m her parole officer.’

To my surprise, Deedee burst out laughing, the purest show of emotion I’ d seen from her in the month we’ d been getting together. Theresa tittered uncomfortably, not quite getting the joke but obviously wondering if it might be on her.

‘ Yeah& got busted drug running,’  Deedee said. ‘ Anyway, we better go. Movie’ s starting.’

As we took our seats in the front row-our punishment for seeing a movie on opening weekend-the previews thundered just a few feet from us. I leaned toward Deedee and said, ‘ Was it my imagination, or was your friend Theresa a complete bitch?’

Deedee grunted agreement as she took a handful of popcorn. ‘ She acts like she’ s everybody’ s best friend, but the second your back’ s turned, watch out.’

‘ Big gossip?’

‘ Yeah, and not too smart, either. She’ s probably telling everybody I really got a parole officer.’

‘ You don’ t seem to mind. I guess that’ s better than her squealing that you were with a Big Sister, huh?’

After taking a slurp of the surviving soda that we were now sharing, she said, ‘ Nah, you’ re cool. A few girls have Big Sisters. My girlfriend Janelle has burned through three Bigs already.’  As I said a silent prayer of thanks that I didn’ t get matched up with Janelle, she added, ‘ It’ s just that I never get to do nothing with my friends. I’ m always baby-sitting my shit of a brother. Every day after school. Most of the weekend. The only time I get out of watching the little bicho is when I’ m with you. Oh, and once I got to go to a school dance. And even then my mom tried to make me come home right after. I only got to hang out longer because I pretended I got mixed up on the time.’

‘ Clever strategy.’

‘ I thought so.’

I shook my head. ‘ It’ s hard to believe anyone would ask that much of a fourteen-year-old. When do you get to have fun?’

‘ This is it.’  Her voice was grim, making it evident how short our outings fell from her definition of fun. ‘ And it’ s only because that lady Rose from the Big Sister program told my mom that I’ d freak out and turn into a ho or something if she didn’ t give me a break once in a while. Like, go wild with any freedom I might get. I overheard them talking. It was the first time anybody ever made Mami feel bad. About anything.’  She slurped again. ‘ Rose is pretty funny. She totally gave my mom shit. Said my life needed changing and that she was going to do it.’

At hearing that, I nearly dropped my box of Whoppers again. Of all the nerve! Rose Morales wasn’ t helping me achieve my secret goal of crossing an item off my list after all. The wily minx was competition!

Trying to set the record straight-if any life changing was going to happen here, it’ d be me doing it-I said, ‘ I know I’ m not as good as having a friend your age, but I’ m glad that you and I get to do things. I hope you’ ve been having an okay time.’

She shrugged agreeably. ‘ Sure. It’ s good.’  She eyed the Whoppers. ‘ You gonna open those?’

After the movie, I suggested we sneak in a little extra time together to hit the M.A.C cosmetics counter, where I bought Deedee a tube of liquid eyeliner. At eighteen dollars, it was cheaper than the movie snacks and-judging by the squeal of delight she gave when I handed over the bag-a much wiser investment toward purchasing her affection.

‘ So how about next week we skip the movie and go to the beach instead?’  I said as we scurried to the car. She was supposed to be back by four, and it was already five minutes after. ‘ I’ ve been wanting to go boogie boarding.’  (Which of course was ridiculous-anyone who knew me at all would realize I’ d never want to go boogie boarding. It was just a task from the list. But since Deedee didn’ t know about the list-and never would, since she was essentially a task on it, too-I was relieved that she seemed to take my comment at face value.)

‘ All right. I can work on my tan. But ain’ t no way I’ m going in the water. It’ ll be freezing this time of year.’

‘ I prefer to think of it as refreshing,’  I countered.

‘ Yeah, right.’

Okay, so I’ d brave the waters alone. At least we’ d be doing something other than staring at a movie screen. After I got on the road, I asked, ‘ Will you be in trouble for being late?’

‘ Probably. But maybe not. My mom will be mad at you, not me. I’ m supposed to watch Prince Ricky.’

‘ Your brother, I presume?’

‘ You can’ t believe what a pain in the ass he is, and my mom thinks he’ s so perfect. It’ s always Ricky this and Ricky that. I don’ t even exist except to watch him. You have no idea.’

When we reached a red light, I turned to her and said, ‘ Feel the back of your head.’  She looked at me as if I’ d gone insane. ‘ Go ahead, do it.’  With a look that said she was simply humoring me, she reached up a hand and ran it over her head. ‘ Notice how it’ s nice and curved?’  I leaned toward her, still keeping my eyes on the stoplight. ‘ Now feel mine. See how it’ s flat?’

She did and said, ‘ Ew. It is kinda flat.’  She felt hers again to compare.

‘ That’ s because when I was a baby, my parents used to spend their time chasing my brother around. He was hell on wheels. I was an easy baby, so they left me lying in bed all day by myself. Baby’ s heads are soft, so mine eventually flattened.’

Deedee thought about it. ‘ You’ re lucky you got all that hair. It covers it up. I’ d never have known you had a flat head.’

‘ My point is, you’ re not alone. I understand what it’ s like to lose out because of a spoiled brother.’  And I had the deformity to prove it.

THE SANTA MONICA beach near the pier was packed-I remembered too late that there was a big environmental fair and beach cleanup going on. Even though it was off-season, the beach was filled with rows of tents with booths set up on the sand. Music from the sponsoring radio station, K-JAM, blared from speakers-top forty pop and hip-hop music, which I would’ ve enjoyed a lot more if I hadn’ t had to pay seven bucks to park. Deedee carted a beach bag, and I carried towels and a boogie board borrowed from Susan, which I slung over my shoulder by its leash in the smooth manner of Sinatra holding a raincoat.

The day was clear but windy. Waves broke along the shore as if detonated. Although the air was warm, the water temperature in March would definitely be icy. The surfers wore wet suits (something I should have looked into), but the fact that a few swimmers braved the water in ordinary swimwear gave me hope.

Since we had to pass the fair to get to the water, I figured I could drag Deedee to check and see if there was an L.A. Rideshare booth-while I was at it, say hi to Elaine, the woman who worked weekend events for us. It occurred to me that my sudden interest in my co-worker Elaine might have had something to do with the size of those waves. I knew I’ d go through with the task before me, but I sure wasn’ t in any hurry.