Bolitho opened his chart and moved it beneath a swaying deckhead lantern. Even it was not spiralling now so violently. These great sails were like wings; could hold the schooner steady on her deep keel when other vessels would be pitching like corks.
Bolitho looked at the chart, the hundreds of tiny soundings, bearings and identifying marks. He found that he was rubbing his injured eye, and stopped instantly, as if someone had called aloud to him.
He could feel sweat on his spine and then knew why Allday had been so insistent about his not boarding Miranda.
Bolitho shook his head and peered at the chart again. It was no use. It was the cabin. Not so different from the one he had been using in the topsail cutter Supreme. October 1803, when the French had found the little cutter and had fired on her; when Bolitho's life had changed. One enemy ball had slammed into some buckets of sand and hurled him to the deck.
It had been noon, but when he had been helped to his feet he had found only darkness. His left eye had plagued him badly since. In his old Hyperion it had almost cost him his life. The damage had been like a sea-mist creeping over the eye, rendering him half-blind. He recalled Catherine's pleas before he had left Portsmouth in Truculent. Aboard Hyperion, at the height of her last-ever voyage, they had carried an eminent surgeon, Sir Piers Blachford, who with others of his profession had been scattered throughout the embattled squadrons of the fleet to discover at first hand what ship's surgeons had to contend with in action. As an eventual result of their findings, it was hoped by the College of Surgeons in London that it would not be left to the butchers of the trade to deal with the appalling wounds and amputations which were the price of any battle.
Blachford, like a tall, reedy heron, had told Bolitho that he would lose the sight of his left eye completely unless he quit the sea for a period of time lengthy enough to afford him the proper examination and perhaps treatment. Even then, he could not be sure. Bolitho stared at the chart's wavering coastline and imagined he could feel the old pain deep inside his eye. It was imagination allied to fear. It had to be. He looked desperately around the cabin again. Allday had known. He always did.
But it was not just a question of duty or arrogance. Bolitho did not have the conceit to pretend it was either. There were so few leaders with the experience, the understanding, that were needed so much now, perhaps even more so than before Trafalgar. With Nelson gone, and the enemy forces on land untouched by the victory and his sacrifice, it was just a matter of time before the next blow fell.
The door banged open and Tyacke, bent double, thrust himself on to one of the bench seats. He was breathing hard as if he had been personally fighting his enemy, the sea, and his shirt was blotchy with spray. Bolitho noticed that he sat in the opposite corner where his disfigurement was in the deepest shadow.
Tyacke said, "We're running due south, Sir Richard. The wind's veered a place, but that's all to the good should we want to come about in a hurry." He glanced at Bolitho. "Are you certain this is what you want to do, sir?"
Bolitho smiled and gestured to the clothing which hung from the deckhead. His own sea-going coat was no better than Tyacke's and he had purposely left the epaulettes with Ozzard.
He said, "I know you cannot always tell the contents of a cask by its label, but at least I would hope that your people will feel more at ease. It was my choice, Mr Tyacke, so do not blame yourself." He changed the subject. "Is all well with your company?"
Tyacke's eyes sharpened as he replied, "I have one matter left to deal with, but it must wait until I can speak to the person involved." He sounded wary. "It is ship's business, Sir Richard. Nothing which will impair the needs of this passage."
"I am glad to know it." Bolitho folded the chart, feeling Tyacke watching him. All Miranda's people were returned on board. But for the midshipman, who had according to Tyacke's report acted with gallantry to save the master's mate's life. Ship's business, he had said. He smiled briefly. In other words, not mine.
Tyacke saw the smile and relaxed slightly, his hands hidden beneath the table. It was not easy. For him it was more than an intrusion; it was the deprivation of his freedom to think and act.
He said, "There will be some food very soon, sir." He grinned uncomfortably. "I know you told me not to use your title aboard this vessel, but it comes a bit hard."
"It should draw us closer." Bolitho felt his stomach contract. He was hungry, in spite of everything. Perhaps Sir Piers Blachford was wrong. It was not unknown. When he returned to England… well, perhaps then he would take Catherine's advice.
He recalled one of the transports he had visited while waiting for Miranda's return from SaldanhaBay It had been unspeakable; and a miracle some of the soldiers had not died of disease already The stench had been appalling, more like a farmyard than a vessel in the King's service. Men, horses, guns and equipment, packed deck upon deck, with less room than a convict ship.
And so they must wait and endure it, until Sir David Baird's artillery and foot soldiers fought their way to the gates of Cape Town. But suppose the Dutch were stronger than anyone realised? They might turn the English advance into a rout, in which case there was only Commodore Warren's small force to land soldiers and marines and harass the enemy from the rear. The wretched men he had seen aboard the transport would be no match for the difficult landing, let alone the fighting expected of them.
He heard Allday's deep voice beyond the door and knew he was helping one of Tyacke's men to fetch a meal for the officers.
Bolitho said, "With your experience, you should have a larger command." Again he saw the guard drop in the ruined face. "Your promotion ought to have been immediate."
Tyacke's eyes flashed. "I was offered it, sir. I declined it." There was something like sad pride in his tone. "Miranda's enough for me, and nobody can find cause to complain on her performance."
Bolitho turned as a seaman bowed through the door with some steaming dishes. A far cry from a ship of the line. From Hyperion.
The old ship's name was still hanging in his mind when he saw Allday look at him across the sailor's stooped shoulders. He murmured, "It is all right, old friend. Believe me."
Allday responded with a cautious grin, as if he were only half-convinced.
The door closed and Tyacke watched covertly as Bolitho cut the greasy pork on his plate as if it were some rare delicacy.
Simcox kept asking him what Bolitho was like. Really like.
How could he explain? How might he describe a man who refrained from probing with his questions, when anyone else of his rank and fame would have insisted? Or how could he begin to tell Simcox about the bond between the admiral and his coxswain? Old friend, he had just called him. It was like having a vibrant force in the hull. A new light.
He thought of Simcox's earlier remark and smiled to himself. He poured two goblets of madeira and said, "I was just thinking, sir. Some beer would not come amiss, if we could lay hands on some."
Bolitho held up the goblet to the lantern, his face serious for a few seconds until he realised that the glass and not his eye had misted over.
Tyacke, sensing his change of mood, exclaimed, "I beg your pardon, Sir Rich-er-sir! "
It was the first time Bolitho had seen him in irons.
"Beer, you say? I will pass the word to the army. It is the very least they can do." He was still holding the goblet when he asked, "It is Saturday, is it not? So we shall call a toast."
Tyacke took up his glass. "Sweethearts and wives, sir?"
Bolitho touched the locket beneath his shirt and shook his head.