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Kelis called her. Her eyes, when she looked at him, were burning with anger. The hatred she had just directed at the air she turned on him. She battered him back and then down to one knee, asking him over and over why he had brought them here? Why hadn't he protected Shen? Why had he let that madman take her daughter? Why? She would have hurt him if Naamen had not gripped her-with strong and weak arm both-and pulled her away.

By the next day, however, Benabe made use of her anger. Instead of directing it at Kelis, she organized the manner in which they were to search for Shen. The first week they took turns marching in daylong treks. One of them always stayed at the exact site from which Shen had disappeared, while the other two walked out in different directions, calling her name into the dead, silent expanse around them. Though Kelis had lived in Talay almost all his life and had explored much of the dry expanse of the continent, he had never seen a land so empty of life before. Yes, there were beings out there, hiding, like the few small animals he caught, but the effect of the place was to highlight how vast-and how vastly empty-it was.

He knew that there was an end to the southern reaches of Talay. Of course there was. Ships sailed the turbulent waters below it and came back north. Dariel had done that; league vessels made the journey regularly. He knew this, but standing on the flat expanse, staring south, Kelis saw nothing, nothing, nothing, but a parched skin stretching to the horizon and promising more of the same beyond. If the Santoth had her, they had taken her to a place he could not see or hear or reach. He tried to remember the things Aliver had told him of the ancient sorcerers, but he could recall so little.

Sometime in the second week Benabe's grief shifted form. Instead of driving her to action, it exhausted her. She sat still throughout much of the day, staring into the empty space before her with glazed eyes. On occasion she shot to her feet, casting about, asking whoever was with her if he had heard Shen. Had they heard her? She ran out in one direction, calling Shen, only to turn back a moment later and run the other way, tracing loop after loop until Kelis or Naamen grabbed her. Then she dropped back to the ground, sobbing, mumbling that she had heard her daughter's voice.

Kelis and Naamen took turns sitting with her as the other continued searching. Neither found any sign of the girl at all. Their own footprints crosshatched the sand for miles around them, testifying to their efforts. Never did they find a print of anyone else.

In the third week Benabe began speaking to herself. She had very little to say to her two companions, but she held long discourses. She spoke in words, yes, in sentences. But they did not add one on to another to form anything that he could make sense of.

About the only time he did understand her was when he stepped too close and she said, "Move your shadow," as she did on the morning that Naamen woke him from his own circular knot of thoughts.

Kelis, realizing he had broken one of the rules of their scant interaction, sidestepped so that his shadow did not fall across any part of her body. At least this had not changed. At least she remained aware enough of the world to notice the change in the light caused by his presence. That was something.

"Should we take her north?" Naamen asked a little later. The two men stood a short distance from her, whispering. "We can't stay here, can we? We'll die here. I want Shen back, too, but nothing that we've done shows that we can find her. We don't have the power. We should get Benabe back to Bocoum before she loses her mind completely."

"It's her decision to make," Kelis said. "We can't take her against her will. If she wishes, it's her right to die here."

The man rubbed his stunted arm with the palm of his normal one. "What of my rights?" he asked but then hurried to explain away anything callous in the question. "I don't wish her ill. I so badly want to have Shen back, to have Benabe back as she was. I would do anything to make that happen, but days and days pass and we're powerless."

"The Santoth would not have taken her without a reason."

"And what if that reason is evil? How can we know they didn't lure her here just to-"

"Don't," Kelis cautioned. "Say those words and Benabe will hear them." Both men looked at her, sitting as she had been before, mouth moving. "Naamen, there's no reason for you to stay. Go north. Tell Sangae what's happened."

Naamen wrinkled his lips and said, with a resignation touched by humor, "I don't think so. If you're staying, I'm staying. I want to make sure you get through this. You promised a good race after all this is over. I'm going to hold you to it."

So the two stayed on into a fourth week, passing the days much as before. They did not range quite so far anymore, but they waited and kept their shadows from falling on Benabe. And waited some more.

And then came the morning when Kelis's eyes fluttered open to take in a predawn sky. The heavens were a dark shade just the purple side of black, alive with stars to the west, slightly yellowed by the coming sun to the east. Lovely. And quiet. No hyenas cackling or lizards scurrying, no bird or insect calls, certainly not a sound from another human being. Just a sublime, forgiving stillness. He lay like that for some time, watching, feeling more relaxed than he had in days and days. Only very, very gradually did he realize that the touch of small hands on his was part of what was soothing him. And, after that realization, some moments more passed before it occurred to him to wonder how this could be. Who was holding his hand? He turned to look.

A young girl sat beside him, watching him, his hand clasped in her lap. "Hi," the girl said. She smiled. Shen.

"What's happening? Tell me I'm not dreaming."

"You're not dreaming," the girl said.

And, no, he wasn't. That became clear. He had not felt so clearheaded in weeks. He stared at the girl, studying her features. Her skin right there before him, her round face and thoughtful eyes. "It was kind of you to wait here," she said. Her words were alive in the air between them, clear as they ever had been during their long march down into the far south. He felt the breath of them on his face, as he felt the warmth of her hands, the moisture where their skin touched. "I thought we might have to search for you."

"Your mother would not leave," he heard himself say. "She said you would return, and if she was not here for you, she would not forgive herself."

Shen smiled again. "I tried to speak to her sometimes, but it didn't work well. I think I just made her upset. I didn't mean to, though. She's a good mother. I told the Santoth that, didn't I, Leeka?"

As soon as the name was out, Kelis saw a shape standing a little distance away, a lurking shadow that made him quickly sit up. It had not been there a second before. Shen stopped him from rising farther, and in the pause he realized it was Leeka Alain, clothed just as before, head cloaked and just as eerily still. Had she called him into existence just by saying his name?

The hooded figure nodded, his voice a whisper that came from the blackness where his face should be. "You did."

"Kelis, don't be frightened of him. It's just Leeka. He only looks scary." Shen patted his hand. "How long has it been? How long have you been waiting?"

"A few weeks. No, a month. One month today."