“My people never liquidate anyone,” said Michael carefully.
“You can’t play at being damned conchies forever,” retorted Arthur Wellesley. “Otherwise you’ll wind up disappearing into nowhere like our forty-seven did…. Now, what kind of arms do you need, and have you got anywhere safe to keep them?”
Michael sighed. The situation was bizarre—drybones cooking up tiny dreams of revolution against drybones. But then one just had to learn to expect the unexpected. And be very, very cautious.
“Thank you for the offer—I presume it was an offer—but we are not yet ready to resort to guns, or to indulge in revolution. Not until we know exactly what we are fighting, why we are fighting and what can be gained—or lost—by fighting.” There was a brief silence.
“I see,” said Arthur Wellesley. “That makes things difficult, doesn’t it?”
“Why?”
“Because you know too much.”
Michael smiled grimly. “On the contrary, we know too little. But I see your problem. You either have to trust us—or liquidate us.”
As he spoke, Horatio stepped forward and snatched a grenade from an open box. “Any liquidation will be entirely democratic,” he said, speaking for the first time.
Michael said: “Horatio, they won’t try to kill us.”
“Damn right they won’t!”
Arthur Wellesley said: “You don’t know how to use that thing.”
Horatio grinned. “Try me. It’s just like in the movies. You pull the pin and—bang.”
Michael was tired, depressed, baffled. “Yes, Horatio. It’s just like in the movies. Now put that thing down. We’re leaving.”
“No, Michael. Your way doesn’t work, this time. You and Ernest get out while I keep these drybones amused. I’ll join you where we left the bicycles.”
Arthur Wellesley said: “You are all children, playing stupid games.”
Michael ignored him. “Horatio, put it down. We’ll leave together.”
Horatio’s voice was shrill. “Get out, both of you. I mean it. This is my affair now. And I’m going to do it my way…. Michael, you know I’m half crazy. Don’t try to work out which half. Just go!”
“I think,” said Ernest softly, “we had better humor him.”
“I’m afraid so.” Michael turned to Horatio. “All right, well meet at the bicycles…. Horatio, odd as it may seem, I don’t think Wellesley and his friends are dangerous. Give us a minute or two then get rid of that wretched grenade and come as fast as you can.”
“We shall not forget this,” said Arthur Wellesley heavily.
Horatio giggled. “You may well have cause to remember it. Now kindly stand very still by the wall.”
Ernest went back up the cellar steps. Michael took a last look round. It was all theatrical. So dreadfully theatrical. Horatio clutching his bomb in a roomful of bombs and ammunition, and the three drybones standing against the wall in that peculiarly formal posture with hands on belt and legs stiffly apart.
Michael wanted to say something; but there did not seem anything appropriate that he could say. He followed Ernest up the cellar steps, out of the drab little house into a gray urban Sunday.
They began to make their way quickly to where the bicycles had been left, under a covered cycle stand at the far end of the street.
They had just reached the bicycles when the explosions came. They looked back in horror and saw fragments of the house erupting into the sky. A great cloud of dust and debris seemed to hang suspended. Then the fragments of the house came crashing down.
Michael was the first to speak. “We shall never know,” he said dully. “We shall never know whether Horatio intended it or whether the drybones….” He didn’t finish.
“What do we do now?” whispered Ernest. “I suppose Horatio must be—”
“Of course he’s dead!” said Michael harshly. “There is nothing to do, except get away from here as fast as we can.”
27
Jane Austen was a very gentle person. She always had been. Gentle and timid, easily depressed, needing only simple things to make her contented—simple, unobtainable things like stability and security; but then Michael began to discover terrible secrets, and then the library yielded further terrible secrets, and now Horatio was dead. Life, which had only seemed originally like an unreal dream, was now transformed into a real nightmare. Jane Austen was living in a small claustrophobic world enclosed in a greater, unknown world—reports of which only served to increase her terror and sense of impending doom. She concealed as much of her fears as possible from Ernest and Michael, realizing that they must not be diverted by feminine weakness from the course they had chosen. But Emily became her confidante. Emily was a person she could trust with secrets, a person to whom she could reveal the depth of her unhappiness.
Ever since that first visit to the library, she and Emily had spent a great deal of time in each other’s company. There was little alternative, since Michael and Ernest and Horatio had been engaged in matters about which it was best to know as little as possible.
There were other fragiles that Jane knew and liked, such as Dorothy Wordsworth, Mary Kingsley and Elizabeth Barrett, but there was none whom she felt she could wholly trust—none but Emily.
On the day after Horatio’s death, when school was over, she and Emily met to walk and talk in St. James’s Park. Michael had decided that no one outside the Family must know what had happened to Horatio. Let the drybones find out for themselves, if they could. But the knowledge and the secrecy, the mysteries and unforeseeable dangers were a heavy burden to bear. They had become, at last, too heavy for Jane Austen.
It was a cool, gray afternoon; and hardly anyone was in the park. Emily and Jane sat on a bench and watched a pair of ducks create rippling fantasies of reflection on the mirrorlike sheet of water. Emily had with her the copy of Wuthering Heights. Both Michael and Ernest had helped her to grasp the principles of reading; and now she was nearly halfway through the book. Sometimes she felt a strange sense of identity with that other Emily Bronte. Sometimes, she imagined she could feel the icy wind cut her face, and sense the bleak beauty of the Yorkshire moors.
Emily was acutely aware of Jane’s tension and unhappiness; and had been trying to distract her with an account of the stormy adventures of Heathcliff and Cathy.
Jane was silent for a time. Then she said: “Jane Austen wrote novels, too, you know. Ernest has The Concise Oxford Dictionary of English Literature…. We are in there, Emily—you and me and Elizabeth Barrett and Dorothy Wordsworth and… and we are all trapped in little black marks on paper!” She began to sob.
Emily put her arms round Jane, trying to comfort her. “Darling Jane, don’t be so unhappy. Personally, I am glad that there was another fragile called Emily Bronte who lived in a strange and wonderful world and could write such a beautiful book. Somehow, it gives me a sense of belonging. I feel at times almost as if I know her. I feel oddly as if we have something to share.”
Jane stopped crying. “We have something to share, too,” she said dully. “Deceit, fear, death, uncertainty. We are like little animals, Emily. Little defenseless animals in a big cage. Someone is keeping us here for a purpose, and when the purpose is fulfilled, the animals will be destroyed and the cage will be discarded.”
“Michael has found a way out,” said Emily.
“A way out of one nightmare and into another. Perhaps he would have done better to have left us in ignorance. Now we know that London is a—a paper city. And we also know that outside it is a world of monsters…. I—I wish we were children again, Emily. I wish that we could turn back the clock and accept what we have, and pretend that everything is all right. And everything can be all right if you pretend that it is. It can be.”