She lifted her head, broke off when she saw he’d fallen asleep. “Well.” She drew a long breath, then another. “Well, that’s probably excellent timing for both of us. No point in humiliating myself or putting you on the spot by telling you, at a weak moment for both of us, that I’ve been stupid enough to fall in love with you.”
Taking his hand, she sat with him a little while longer as he slept. And she wondered if she’d find the way to be smart enough to get over him.
“Do you think you must?”
Slowly, Cybil lifted her gaze from Gage’s face, and looked into Ann Hawkins’s. “Well, last but not least.” It didn’t surprise her she was so calm. She’d been waiting for this, and she’d seen much more shocking things now than a ghost by a bedside on a June morning.
“Do you think you must?” Ann repeated.
“Must what?”
“Close your heart to what you feel for him. Deny yourself the joy and the pain of it.”
“I’m not a fan of pain.”
“But it’s life. Only the dead feel nothing.”
“What about you?”
Ann’s lips curved. “It is not death. My own love told me that. There is more than the dark and the light. So many shades between. I feel yet, because it is not finished. When it is, one thing ends, another begins. You are young, and may have many years in this life, in this body, in this time. Why would you live it with a closed heart?”
“Easy for you to say. Your love was returned. I know what it is to live loving someone who can’t or won’t love you back, or not enough.”
“Your father was consumed by despair. He lost his sight, and couldn’t see love.”
What’s the difference? Cybil thought, but shook her head. “This would be a fascinating conversation over a drink sometime, just us girls, but at the moment we’re more into the life-or-death mode around here. You may have noticed.”
“You are angry.”
“Of course I’m angry. He nearly died today, nearly died in my arms trying to find a way to stop something that was pushed on him, on all of us. He may die yet, any or all of us might. I’ve seen how it might be.”
“You haven’t told them all you’ve learned, all you’ve seen.”
Cybil looked down at Gage again. “No, I haven’t.”
“You will see more before it is done. Child-”
“I’m not your child.”
“No, but neither are you its. Life or death, you say, and so it is. Either the light or the dark will end with the Seven. My love will either be freed, or be damned.”
“And mine?” Cybil demanded.
“He will make his choice, and so will you all. I have no one but you, my hope, my faith, my courage. Only today, you used all of those. And he sleeps,” Ann murmured, looking down at Gage. “Alive. More than alive, he brought back from death’s shadow another answer. Another weapon.”
Cybil got to her feet. “What answer? What weapon?”
“You are an educated woman with a strong and seeking mind. Find it. Use it. All is in your hands now. Yours, his, and the others’. And it fears you. His blood, its blood,” she said as she began to fade, “our blood, your blood. And theirs.”
Standing alone, Cybil again looked down at Gage. “His blood,” she said quietly, and hurried out of the room.
Fourteen
WHEN GAGE WOKE HE DIDN’T JUST WANT COFFEE, he wanted it desperately. He sat up first, testing, and when the room stayed steady, stood. No weakness, no nausea, no dizziness. All good news. And no odd euphoria, he realized as his mind tracked back.
What the hell had she put in that tea?
As much as he craved coffee, he wanted a shower more, so walked into the bathroom and stripped. In the mirror, he studied his shoulder, poked at the puckered crescent marring the skin. It was odd having a scar after all these years, a tangible reminder of those keen, feral teeth tearing into him. He’d broken bones, been stabbed, shot, burned, and not a mark to show for it. But Twisse, in the form of that little bastard, manages to get a quick bite, and it appeared he’d be carrying the scar from it for the rest of his life.
However long that might be.
He showered, dressed, and headed out in search of coffee. He stopped at Cal ’s home office where both Layla and Quinn were hunkered at a computer. Both looked up, both gave him the let’s-have-a-look-at-you once-over.
“How are you feeling?” Layla asked him.
“I want coffee.”
“Back to normal then.” Quinn’s look brightened into a smile. “Should be some downstairs. Cyb’s down there, and you might be able to sweet-talk her into fixing you something to eat if you want it.”
“Where’s everybody else?”
“They ran into town. Various errands.” Quinn glanced down at the computer, and the clock in the bottom corner. “They should be back any minute. Maybe I should call Cal, just have them bring food back. Cyb’s burrowed, and might not be sweet-talked into cooking all that easy.”
“I want coffee,” he repeated, and walked away.
She didn’t seem especially burrowed, Gage thought when he saw Cybil at Cal’s kitchen counter. She had her laptop, her notebook, a bottle of water, but she sat right out in the open. And whatever she was doing, she stopped when he came in.
“You look better.”
“Feel better. Couldn’t have felt much worse.” He poured the last cup of coffee, wished someone else would make a fresh pot. And so thinking, turned to study her. “How about making fresh coffee since I almost died?”
“Doing ordinary, routine things, such as making fresh coffee, would probably make you appreciate life more.”
So much for sweet talk, he decided. Since there was a bag of Fritos on the counter, he dug in. “What was in the tea?”
She only smiled. “About four hours’ sleep, apparently. Someone dropped by to see you while you were out.”
“Who?”
“Ann Hawkins.”
He considered, sipped coffee. “Is that so? Sorry I missed her.”
“We had a nice chat while you sawed a few off.”
“Cute. What about?”
“Life, love, the pursuit of happiness.” She picked up her bottle of water. “Death, demons. You know, the usual.”
“More cute. You’re on a roll.” And on edge, he mused. However well she masked it, he sensed nerves.
“I’m working on something that popped into my head when we talked. We’ll go over it when I nail it down a bit more. She loves you.”
“Sorry?”
“She loves you. I could see it in the way she looked at you while you were sleeping. And by the expression on your face now, I see that kind of talk is uncomfortable for a big he-man like you. But that’s what I saw on her face, heard in her voice. For what it’s worth. Now, go find something else to do and somewhere else to do it. I’m working.”
Instead, he crossed over, grabbed a fistful of her hair and tugged her head back so he could crush his mouth to hers. The moment flashed, then spun, then held. He felt another hint of dizziness, another taste of euphoria before he released her.
Her eyes opened, slow and sleepy. “What was that about?”
“Just another ordinary, routine thing to help me appreciate life.”
She laughed. “You’re cute, too. Oh the hell with it,” she said and pulled him against her to hold on, to lay her head on his shoulder where the demon’s mark rode. “Scared me. Really, really scared me.”
“Me, too. I was going. It didn’t seem so bad, all in all.” He tipped her head back again. This face, he thought, these eyes. They’d filled his vision, his head. They’d brought him back. “Then I heard you bitching at me. You slugged me, too.”
“Slapped, that time. I slugged you before, during our brilliant performance on the deck.”
“Yeah. And about that. I don’t remember us talking about punching.”
“What can I say. I’m a genius at improv. Plus, it seriously and genuinely pissed you off and we needed plenty of anger to sucker the Big Evil Bastard in. Your plan, remember? And you said we’d all have to get rough and real to make it work.”