Ira took a package, opened it, and ate both saltines. They melted on her tongue.
“Have more,” said Morris.
“No, I gotta get back. My kids’ lunch trays are coming. My kids are doing good. Apitchi’s got pneumonia, except.”
“They can treat pneumonia, it’s safer to get pneumonia than a lot of things.”
“Yeah,” said Ira. “I was scared though. How about you?”
“Me,” said Morris, touching his hair, which was bunched up over the bandages, “I think I have finally done it. Maybe I’ll go blind now, all the way blind. One of my cornea’s all scratched up, the other got ulcerated. They just told me. Anyway, the suspense will be over.”
“You won’t be able to drive,” said Ira.
“Well, I wasn’t supposed to, really, I should have told you. I’m sorry about that.”
“You tried,” Ira said. “If you hadn’t gone in the woods after my kids and the snow got so bright, maybe your eyes wouldn’t have quit on you.”
“It was gonna happen,” Morris said. He patted the covering on his eyes, adjusted the bandages. “So, your kids okay, really?”
“The girls won’t talk to me yet.”
Morris nodded, as if that made sense. “Give them time to come out of it,” he said. “There’s water, too, in that pitcher. The nurse just put new ice in.”
“They taking good care of you?”
“Yes,” said Morris. “Morphine. They know me from before.”
“You been in for your eyes then?”
“Other things, too,” said Morris. “Where you supposed to live now?”
“I don’t know yet. Bernard, maybe. I never asked him though.”
“Your mom’s dead.”
“Long time ago.”
“And I heard about it when your dad died. He was a spiritual man, I knew him.”
“My dad knew how to give names. They gave him the ceremony. It was because he had dreams. He couldn’t stop his dreams. They kept coming at him. It turned out he was meant to do certain things that would put his dreams to use.”
She stopped. “Ma’iingan,” she said. “He gave that name to you.”
“Your dad said that was the only time he ever gave that name out.”
“That name meant a lot to him because wolves saved his life, once, I guess.”
“Amen,” said Morris. “My name saved me, too.”
“How?” said Ira.
“That’s for another visit,” Morris said. “I got to hook you in somehow.”
Ira went quiet because she didn’t know what to say to that. She didn’t know whether she wanted to be hooked in or left on her own. “Anyway,” she said, “Popeye?”
“Yeah, too bad about that.”
“You don’t like your nickname?”
They both laughed.
“Well, I must go,” said Ira. “Bye.” She leaned over and put her hand in Morris’s open hand. He held her hand a minute. Just held her fingers with his fingers. Then he carefully let go.
Had she missed the lunch trays? Ira was so hungry that she was beginning to feel all wobbly down the center. She walked quickly back to her children and first checked on Apitchi, then went to Shawnee and Alice’s room. There was no sign of lunch yet. She lowered herself into a chair. She noticed a little box of Sugar Pops on the table next to Shawnee’s bed, and she wanted to say, “Are you going to eat those?” But she thought that Shawnee might give her that stare that she had given her before.
“What are you watching?” she asked.
“Powerpuffs.”
“It’s stupid,” Shawnee said.
“No, they’re good!” said Alice.
I’d better call up Bernard, thought Ira. Or maybe go look for him when he comes on his shift. She heard the rumble of the lunch cart coming down the corridor and her stomach pinched hard. An aide brought two trays in, each with a piece of skinless chicken, a spoonful of rice with some vegetables mixed in, a salad with pale pink tomatoes, and green Jell-O. There was a carton of milk and a few sticks of celery and carrots. Ira cut up Alice’s meat. The girls ate everything. When they were done, Ira put their trays back outside, on the cart.
“I’m going to see Apitchi now,” she told Shawnee and Alice. On the way out she asked a nurse if there was an extra tray. The nurse said no. Ira said that if anybody didn’t eat their tray could she have it, and the nurse looked closely at her.
“You got money for the cafeteria?”
“No,” said Ira. “I’m here with my children.”
“I’ll make sure they order a supper tray for you,” the nurse said. “In the meantime, come over here.” She took Ira to a small closet kitchen. From the little refrigerator, she took two cartons of chocolate milk, two yogurts, and a bowl of peaches covered with plastic wrap. She balanced a handful of wrapped crackers on top of the plastic wrapped bowl. “Those peaches are from just yesterday,” she said.
Ira took the food to Apitchi’s room. He was still sleeping, his arms tucked close. He huddled in the sheets. Ira arranged the food on the windowsill and then she sat down next to Apitchi’s bed. Slowly, she reached over, selected a carton of milk, and sipped it. The chocolate milk was rich, cold, and she felt it trickle all the way down to her stomach. Next, she ate the yogurts—first the blueberry then strawberry—taking little precise scoops with a plastic spoon. She put her head back on the chair and rested for a while. She ate the peaches and the crackers. Then she drank the last milk. When Apitchi woke, he looked anxiously all around the room and let his gaze rest, at last, on his mother’s face. I don’t know what I will do if he hates me too, Ira thought, but when he realized it was she, he burst into tears and tried to hold his arms out. Ira went to him gratefully. His arm was strapped to a board along with the IV and his other hand was taped to a little paddle so he couldn’t reach over and pull out the needle. Ira carefully positioned him against her so that she could read a picture book to him. She read it six times, the same book, until it made her sleepy. She leaned back in the bed with Apitchi and felt his heart beating right over her heart.
When she woke from her light sleep with Apitchi, it was late afternoon. All of her children were still asleep. She went to Morris’s room and stood in the entrance. He was looking at her with his lids half shut. His bandages had fallen off. She said hello, and he seemed to acknowledge her by gazing at her peacefully, but when his expression did not change, she realized from his deep breathing that he was actually asleep with his eyes open. This sight startled and made her want to turn away, but she was held by the strangeness of exchanging this calm regard with a person who was unconscious and maybe even dreaming.
“It’s Ira,” she said, when he stirred. “If you want to keep sleeping, I’ll go.”
“No, I’m not tired.” He sat up and fixed the bandages back over his eyes. “Just bored. They’re gonna bring my tape player and my tapes in later.”
“Maybe I could read to you,” said Ira. “I just finished reading to my little boy.”
“What did you read him?”
“Green Eggs and Ham.”
“I’ve heard that one,” said Morris.
“Well, I could get you another,” said Ira. “Probably they have a bunch of books somewhere.”
“Okay,” said Morris, “if you find a good one, you read it to me. It’s a deal.”
“I’ll check downstairs later.”
Ira stood awkwardly in the doorway, not sure whether to sit down or to leave.
“Look,” said Morris. “I gotta say, I’m sorry. It’s about what I was thinking, what I implied, when I stopped the truck on the road.”